14 female. Domestic violence, cheating, illegitimate child, slam dunk in terms of her original family, wants to be free

My father was born. My grandfather went to prison for fighting. My grandmother didn't want to be responsible for running away.

Raised in someone else's home. Dropped out of school at 15 to work.

I met my mother a few years later. Before and after the wedding, my grandparents made things difficult for my mother.

I don't like my mother's family background or financial situation (and I don't like my brother or me, either). Maybe my personality changed after I gave birth to his other son in the third grade.

Domestic violence. Alcoholism.

My mother and brother regularly beat me and my brother. Last year, I failed gym class and went to do my homework instead, but I was dragged in front of the camera and beaten up, becoming the laughing stock of my classmates.

My brother ran away from home for half a month out of fear.

When I returned, I was beaten up as usual. First year, second semester, boarding school.

On Friday, my father picked me up and took me home. When we arrived, he didn't say a word and went inside.

I only found out that my mother had been beaten when I went to the balcony and saw her. She was covered in bruises.

A subconscious inquiry was met with a kind lie: "I'm allergic."

There are also all kinds of domestic violence that are not written in. Every single thing here.

Every scene in my memories is burned into my heart. It hurts.

Some say I have put my priorities in life in the wrong place. But how can I let go of these heavy facts?

I don't want to live with these painful memories for the rest of my life. Maybe suicide won't change anything now.

But it would be a kind of relief. Goodbye.