Hello, question asker! I'm Enoch, the answerer. The question asker is unhappy and wants to harm themselves. They are afraid to express their emotions and have found this platform at Yixinli for help. They still want to survive.
Let me look at why the questioner is feeling this way.
Adolescence is a time of self-exploration and identity formation. During this period, adolescents may feel confused and disoriented, unable to position themselves well. They may also have a lot of thoughts, but their understanding of the real world is very limited. At the same time, they may feel misunderstood by those around them. As a result, they may fall into negative emotions and lose interest in everything.
If you don't have positive reasons to live, you might turn to self-destruction. But you still want to live a good life. So you want to seek medical treatment, but people with suicidal tendencies in the family may not be supported by their family members. They are often rejected by their family members, and they may even be scolded or criticized. Parents cannot understand themselves, and they also know that they cannot communicate with their parents. So in the end, they bear it alone.
The original poster can enrich their own lives, communicate more, see what interests everyone has, expand their thinking, find an interest, and devote themselves to it. They will become more fulfilled and have fewer worries.
A child from a single-parent family likes to study computers and video editing. He doesn't like to interact with people, but he's doing well.
I hope the original poster can find something he likes and work hard at it.


Comments
I can sense how deeply you're struggling and it's really tough, but please reach out to someone you trust or a professional who can help. It's okay to feel this way, but you don't have to go through it alone.
It sounds like you're carrying a heavy burden. Seeking help from a doctor is a brave step, and maybe there's a way to get support without immediately telling your family if that's what you need right now.
Your feelings are valid, and it's important not to ignore them. If talking to your family feels too hard right now, perhaps starting with a friend or a counselor could be a bit easier and less daunting.
I'm sorry you're feeling this way, but I'm glad you're considering seeing a doctor. It might be helpful to find a confidential service where you can talk about your feelings anonymously if you're not ready to involve your family yet.
Feeling the way you do is really challenging, and it's understandable to want to avoid pain. Please consider reaching out for help; there are people trained to assist you and they can offer support in ways that feel safe for you.