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Almost 22 years old, I've always felt that living on this earth is very tiring. Do I have depression?

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Almost 22 years old, I've always felt that living on this earth is very tiring. Do I have depression? By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024

Almost 22, I've always felt that living in this world is very exhausting. I feel like I have depression, but I'm not completely unable to be happy either; it's just that the time I'm happy is too little, too little, and my mindset can't adjust. My parents say I haven't smiled for too long. Moreover, I'm very resistant to leaving home; even if I just stay at a relative's house for one or two days, I get very anxious and want to cry. The first week of each school year, I start to feel anxious and can't sleep; it's not that I dislike school, but I wonder why my school can't be nearby, and I start to think about accidents and wish I would just die. I feel very lonely; I'm not brave enough to make friends in either reality or the virtual world. I have only one good friend; no one else can persuade me to go out to play, and no one wants to invite me to do so.

Logan Fernandez Logan Fernandez A total of 9495 people have been helped

Good morning! I extend my warmest regards from afar.

I am pleased to see that you have requested assistance, and I hope that my input will provide you with the support and guidance you require.

From your description, it is evident that you have an internalized sense of inferiority and a lack of self-acceptance. When an individual has a significant inner rejection of themselves due to feelings of inferiority and is not fully aware of this aspect of themselves, they may unintentionally project this inner rejection onto others, leading them to believe that those around them will not accept them either.

To avoid being hurt by rejection and being disliked, you may unintentionally choose to actively distance yourself from relationships to avoid being hurt.

When experiencing anxiety and restlessness in an unfamiliar environment, it is beneficial to acknowledge and embrace these emotions. What underlying needs may be driving these feelings? For instance, the need for acceptance, affirmation, and support, and the fear of rejection and disinterest.

When you can discern the underlying needs associated with your distressing emotions and respond to them in a proactive manner, the detrimental impact of these emotions will be mitigated or even eliminated.

It is recommended that you keep a mood diary to better record your emotions and become aware of the needs behind them. Additionally, you can relieve the intensity of emotions by taking deep breaths, which will help you better deal with emotions and become aware of the needs behind them.

Additionally, it is important to develop self-confidence and learn to accept yourself. One way to do this is to create a list of your self-acceptance strengths.

My name is Lily, and I am the Q&A Center's designated listener. I extend my warmest regards to you all, and I wish you well.

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Christine Gold To uphold honesty is to uphold the highest standard.

I can relate to how you're feeling. It's really tough when life feels so heavy and joy is hard to come by. I hope you know that it's okay to feel this way, and it's important to take things one step at a time. Maybe talking to someone who understands or a professional could help lighten the load.

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Xavier Anderson The more we grow, the more we learn to cherish every moment.

It sounds like you're carrying a lot of weight on your shoulders. The fact that you're sharing this shows courage. Sometimes just acknowledging how we feel is the first step towards healing. Have you considered finding a support group or a therapist? They might offer some tools to cope with these feelings.

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Asher Thomas A well - versed person in many fields is a connector, linking different knowledge dots into a beautiful pattern.

Feeling this way for so long must be incredibly draining. I admire your strength in continuing despite the challenges. If leaving home makes you anxious, maybe starting with small steps, like spending a short time at a friend's place, could help. It's all about baby steps and what you're comfortable with.

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Ursula Snow A successful person views failure as a chance to prove their mettle and move towards success.

The anxiety around school and being away from home seems intense. It's not uncommon to have these thoughts, but they don't define you. Perhaps setting up a routine or having a safe space where you can relax during school breaks might make things a bit easier. You're not alone in this.

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Aubrey Miller A forgiving soul is a soul that can see the good in everyone.

Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to not be okay. It's great that you have one good friend; sometimes that's all it takes. Maybe you could try expressing your feelings to them or others in a creative way, like writing or art. It might be a new way to connect with people and express yourself.

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