Hello, my name is Dapeng, and I'm here to help!
It sounds like sometimes you feel like you don't need friends, and sometimes you long for someone to understand you. You're torn between these two feelings, and you're confused, aren't you? I can relate!
"Sometimes I feel quite indifferent. As long as the people and things around me are not related to me and do not affect me, I will not care about them. But I also cry when I see touching videos. I don't know what's wrong with me,"
It's understandable that some people might choose to be indifferent to avoid being hurt again. It's a way of protecting yourself, thinking that if you don't dwell on it, it won't hurt. But, I have to admit, watching the video also moved me to tears. I want to say, people are not machines, and they're not meant to be emotionless.
People are emotional creatures, and that's a good thing!
The moment you cry is the place where you have been hurt, the place you might be tempted to avoid. But don't avoid it! Face the moment bravely. Take a deep breath, breathe a few times, and then feel your breathing and the state of your body, especially your heartbeat, the temperature of your hands and feet.
Do this every time you encounter a similar situation. Don't reject your emotions, make friends with them, and then feel your breathing and body. Gradually, you will be able to accept your emotions, stop fighting against them, and reduce internal conflict. You've got this!
"I feel like I'm suffering from severe mental exhaustion, I feel very uncomfortable, and I feel like no one can understand my inner pain. I don't want to talk about it, but I long for someone to understand."
People are emotional creatures, and that's a good thing! We all need someone to understand us, and we also need to understand others. Emotions exist in relationships, and they're a natural part of life. If you have pain inside, it can feel like it's stuck with you if you don't express it. But when you share it with someone, it's like you're sharing half the pain!
And if someone shares your happiness, it will be doubled!


Comments
I can totally relate to feeling drained from maintaining relationships. Sometimes it feels like no one truly gets you, and it's exhausting trying to bridge that gap. Just being in your own space where you don't have to explain yourself can be such a relief.
It sounds like you're carrying a lot of weight on your shoulders. It's okay to want some solitude, but remember, it's also alright to reach out when you need to. Maybe finding someone who resonates with you could help ease that burden a little bit.
I understand the comfort of your own company. It's a safe place where you don't have to worry about misunderstandings or miscommunications. But maybe there are ways to express your feelings that feel safer for you, even if it's just through writing or art.
You seem to have a deep capacity for empathy, like when a video touches you and brings you to tears. That sensitivity is a beautiful thing, even if it can sometimes hurt. Perhaps acknowledging this part of yourself can help you find connections that feel more genuine and less draining.
It's tough when you feel misunderstood and isolated. I wonder if there's a way to find a middle ground—where you can protect your energy but still let a few people in who might genuinely understand what you're going through.