Hey there, I get it. It's normal to feel anxious and uneasy when you're facing uncertainty at work. Your feelings are totally valid, especially since you mentioned some work concerns in your previous conversation with your leader.
Your value isn't just about your work performance. It's also about your overall personality, how you contribute to others, and how you handle challenges. Your leader might see your potential and want to motivate you to grow and improve in this way.
Your emotional reaction is probably "anticipatory anxiety," which is basically just your concerns about possible negative events in the future. This anxiety might come from your self-evaluation of your work performance and uncertainty about your leader's intentions.
It's normal to feel anxious when you're facing uncertainty. It's a way our minds protect us from potential changes. At the same time, it might also be related to your concerns about your self-worth. You might be worried that your performance could affect your job security.
Regarding your comment about "not paying attention and not being meticulous," this may be the leader reminding you that you need to improve the quality of your work in some areas. You may feel confused and scared, worrying that this may be a precursor to dismissal.
If your manager asks you to "get ready in advance," it's a chance for you to think about how you can improve your performance while you're on vacation. It's not a bad thing—it means your manager wants you to grow and improve.
There are a few reasons why your manager might have given you back-to-back vacations. It could be to give you a chance to rest and recover, or it might be to give you some space to think and prepare for the next phase of work.
This isn't a clear sign that you're about to be fired, but it might reflect the leader's expectations and trust in you, hoping that you can reflect on yourself and demonstrate a better work attitude and ability.
In this situation, we can use this time to review our work performance, think about how to improve, and how to show more enthusiasm and attention to detail in our future work. When the time is right, you can take the initiative to communicate with your leader, express your commitment to your work, and ask how you can better meet the requirements of the job.
It can be tough to stay positive when things are uncertain, but it's important to try. Think of it as a chance to learn and grow.
Try to put together a practical action plan for yourself, with specific steps to improve your work skills and how to better manage your time and tasks.
We all face challenges and difficulties in our careers. The key is to learn from them and grow. Your feelings are valid, but you have the ability to overcome these challenges and succeed.
Come on!
Every effort deserves to be seen, and every drop of sweat deserves respect. Feedback, attention, or praise is not only recognition, but also an incentive.
This kind of feedback is like spring rain nourishing our hearts, giving us more motivation to pursue excellence and create more value.
I'd also suggest reading "Self-Control."


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I understand your concerns, but it's important not to jump to conclusions. The extended break could simply be a reward for your hard work or an opportunity for you to rest and come back refreshed. Maybe it's best to have an open conversation with your leader to clarify the situation and express your willingness to improve.
The way I see it, leaders sometimes make decisions based on factors we're not aware of. Your longer break might just be a scheduling adjustment. It would be wise to address your worries directly with your leader and ask for feedback on how you can better focus on the details in your work.
It sounds like you're really worried about this. Perhaps the extra days off were given because they saw you needed a break. Instead of fearing the worst, why don't you take this time to reflect on your performance and plan how you can show improvement when you return?
Leaders often have a lot on their plate and may not always communicate changes clearly. This break could be unrelated to your job security. You could use this time to prepare yourself mentally and professionally, showing your dedication when you return. If you're still concerned, consider reaching out to your leader for some clarity.
Feeling anxious is natural in such situations, but try not to let it consume you. The leader's comments before the New Year were constructive criticism aimed at helping you grow. Use this break as a chance to recharge and come back with a renewed commitment to your work. If you feel it's necessary, you can also request a meeting to discuss any uncertainties you have about your role.