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Freelance illustrator, would depression not diminish interest in gaming and leisure?

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Freelance illustrator, would depression not diminish interest in gaming and leisure? By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024

I have self-diagnosed depression for five years and have also been diagnosed with moderate anxiety at a hospital (the doctor only gave me a questionnaire and made the diagnosis, which I think was a bit hasty). Although I'm not sure if I have depression, my life has been significantly affected by my emotions. I haven't worked for four years, working as a freelance illustrator and staying at home, with a decent income. However, I have periods when I can't focus on work, spending several hours after waking up to sit in front of the computer and even longer to start drawing. I often wake up at 9 am and don't officially start working until 5 pm in the afternoon. During this time, I play mobile games, watch videos. If it's depression, shouldn't I be uninterested in everything? Why do I still want to participate in traveling and sports? Why can I concentrate on playing games but not on work?

ps: I suspect I have depression because of the following symptoms:

1. Feeling of worthlessness, feeling unlovable if I don't perform well at work or in life.

2. Suicidal tendencies.

3. Inability to find motivation to work or manage daily household chores.

4. Lack of sexual desire, no interest in going out shopping, etc.

5. Frequent emotional outbursts, with about one or two breakdowns and intense crying episodes per month.

Timothy Thompson Timothy Thompson A total of 3218 people have been helped

Hello, host!

I'm going to give you a warm hug.

It's not depression, it's anxiety!

Let me be clear: most of the depression we mention is a depressed mood.

Let's talk about negative emotions together. Anger often arises when a wish is not fulfilled. It's natural to direct your anger at the person preventing you from fulfilling your wish. For example, you wanted to finish your work well today.

Your child keeps asking you to take him to the playground. You won't have completed this task if you don't get it done, and you'll let out your anger by yelling at the child to stop messing around.

Kid, I'm working!

If the person preventing you from accomplishing something is someone lower than you, your anger will come out. But what if the person preventing you from accomplishing something is your boss?

You certainly wouldn't confront your boss head-on. You'd just keep this negative emotion bottled up inside.

Depression is a natural way to release this negative emotion little by little. It's a protective mechanism for the person experiencing it.

Anxiety can also cause depression. We are currently in the epidemic stage, with anxiety about work, anxiety about the future, and anxiety about the epidemic. These anxieties are directed towards the future, towards things that haven't happened yet. If you can't find a way to release it, depression is a way to do so.

My advice is simple: address the anxiety. Understand that anxiety has a positive meaning. It is directed towards the future. What you are anxious about is often the thing you care about most and want to accomplish most. Focus your attention on the thing you want to accomplish most.

The student may feel depressed and inefficient in his studies, but the real issue is that he is anxious about the approaching college entrance exam and worried that he will not get a good score.

I hope this helps. The world and I love you!

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Genevieve Genevieve A total of 2751 people have been helped

I've seen so many people recover from depression or overcome it and they're living proof that you can beat it! They can give you some great advice from personal experience. First of all, you should not self-diagnose depression just because you have some negative emotions.

It's totally normal to love playing games and be able to concentrate on them, but not on work. Many people are like this, and that's okay! The main purpose of work is to earn a living, which may not necessarily be something you're interested in. It's easy to feel bored and fed up, but there are so many other ways to spend your time!

Games are a great way to relax the mind and reduce stress. They're a fantastic way to regulate yourself. There's a big difference between wanting to do something and passively accepting it. Even if playing games is more energy-consuming and tiring than work, there are many people who prefer playing games to work. You have more freedom with your working hours, which is a great thing. You could even consider playing with your work tasks first, and then play games or other things that interest you.

Painting is a great way to create and relax! You might get bored after a while, but that's okay. Keep an interest in your work and don't let it become a burden. There are so many other ways to relax in your spare time, like traveling and sports! Don't dwell on whether you're depressed or not. Instead, focus on all the amazing things you can do to feel better!

If you're struggling with depression, you're not alone. It's a difficult journey, but you can get through it with the right support and tools. Professional help and medication can make a big difference in your journey to recovery.

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Carlotta Carlotta A total of 1128 people have been helped

OK, thanks for asking. I'm learning in silence.

First of all, I think you're in a pretty good place. You're a freelance illustrator with a decent income, and you also have your own interests, such as games. Isn't that great? At the same time, you also feel the symptoms of depression you mentioned:

1. Believing oneself to be worthless and feeling unworthy of love if one doesn't perform well at work or if things don't go well in one's personal life.

2. Have suicidal thoughts

3. Having trouble motivating yourself to work and live a normal life, including household chores.

4. No interest in sex or shopping.

5. I also have a hard time controlling my emotions, and I have a breakdown and cry uncontrollably once or twice a month.

On the other hand, you think you play games, but you don't seem depressed. You feel that people with depression should be uninterested in everything.

You mentioned that you were diagnosed with depression five years ago.

Are you currently taking any medication?

Have you been to any follow-up appointments recently?

If you've had a follow-up consultation, what did the doctor say?

You're starting to think you don't have depression, but there are still some signs that make you feel depressed:

So, you can go back to the doctor for a follow-up appointment. It's possible that you're doing better now and your symptoms have eased.

If we're diagnosed, it's best to follow the doctor's advice.

At the same time, if we work with the doctor on our treatment plan and also make some changes to our thinking, we'll start to feel better little by little. I'm not sure if you're still taking medication now. If you are, it's best to take it according to the doctor's instructions, like when to increase the dosage, when to reduce it, or when to stop taking it. You need to take the medication according to the doctor's instructions, and at the same time, work on managing your emotions and doing things that will help you feel happy. This will be more helpful to you.

At the same time, it's good to be aware of our emotions. If you're feeling depressed, ask yourself why. Are you happy every day? Is your life and work going well? If you're in a relatively good state, you can slowly adjust your own channel, take care of yourself and your family, and even achieve a refined lifestyle. You can have a relatively good income at work, and in this way you will be a happy person.

Do you still have friends you can chat with, go out to eat with, or watch a movie with? Do you have a lot of social activities? How do you feel when you're with friends?

It's not so much whether you have depression or not, but more how you feel and your overall state of mind. Do you feel like you can take care of yourself? Even if you've been diagnosed with depression, you can recover and get better. Whether you've recovered or not, and whether you're taking medication or not, you still need to go back to the doctor for a follow-up appointment and make a decision. You need to listen to the doctor, otherwise if you relapse, it will be very harmful to yourself and your family.

At the end of the day, don't worry about whether you have depression. As long as you're happy, financially stable, and able to live, work, study, and socialize normally in the future, you're doing great.

OK, I'm learning in silence. I hope you'll listen to the doctor's thoughts. You can also exchange your different thoughts with the doctor and see what he says. Maybe you can ask him why this diagnosis was made. It might help you to understand it better.

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Damaris Damaris A total of 4873 people have been helped

We would like to thank you for taking the time to respond to our system notification. We appreciate your trust in us and your willingness to engage with us through text.

From the comments, it seems that the questioner has his own views on depression and has also sought a diagnosis from a medical professional, but he is not entirely satisfied with the hospital's diagnosis method.

From the comments, it seems that the questioner has his own views on depression and has also sought a diagnosis from a medical professional, but he is not entirely satisfied with the hospital's approach to diagnosis.

I am somewhat perplexed by the current phenomena I am experiencing.

I am somewhat perplexed by the current phenomenon I am experiencing.

If I am experiencing depression, would it not be reasonable to expect a lack of interest in most things? Why do I still want to participate in travel and sports?

I wonder if I might ask why I am able to concentrate on playing games but not work.

It is our hope that the following sharing will answer some questions and provide a broader perspective on how to view one's own behavior.

It is our hope that the following sharing will answer some questions and provide a broader perspective on how to view one's own behavior.

First and foremost, it is important to understand that the primary objective is not to arrive at a diagnosis, but rather to facilitate professional intervention.

It would be beneficial to consider that the questioner has been diagnosed with depression for five years and has also been diagnosed with moderate anxiety by a hospital. It is important to note that such terms are not just for the sake of having a name for it. Rather, they provide the questioner with an opportunity to have some intervention or treatment based on the current level of mental healthcare for the various manifestations that affect their daily lives. This could potentially lead to a healthier, happier, and more socially adaptive life for the questioner.

It would be advisable to leave it to mental health professionals to make a judgment as to whether it is depression or some other possible mental illness. If the original diagnosis does not convince you, you may wish to consider going to a large general hospital or psychiatric specialist hospital to confirm the situation again. You could also raise any doubts about the diagnosis in the course of medical treatment.

It is important to remember that the next step in the treatment process is to determine the best course of action for the patient.

I would also like to kindly invite the questioner to reflect on their own experience in relation to these questions:

1. I have the feeling that I am not worth much, and that I am not worthy of love if I don't do a good job at work or in life.

2. I believe that the individual in question may have suicidal tendencies.

3. Some difficulty in motivating oneself to work and do housework normally.

4. There seems to be a lack of interest in sexual activity and other forms of leisure.

5. She also experiences frequent emotional outbursts, and about once or twice a month, she has a breakdown and cries uncontrollably.

Could you please clarify whether there has been any systematic treatment or intervention, such as taking relevant medications or seeking regular consultations with a psychiatrist, psychotherapist, or counseling assistant?

If you are experiencing these symptoms and are not sure whether you are depressed, it would be advisable to seek professional support as soon as possible. It is likely that these symptoms cannot be cured by self-help alone.

This challenging work over the past five years has undoubtedly been difficult for the individual, even with the support of professionals. Seeking professional support will not only allow for systematic treatment, but also provide a stable interpersonal support system to help reduce the pain of facing oneself.

Secondly, it is worth noting that different activities use different parts of the brain, and the degree of interest varies from person to person.

It seems that travel, sports, and playing games all have the potential to stimulate different areas of the nervous system and brain.

It seems that the former, which involves more use of the motor cortex, may result in the release of hormones such as dopamine, which could contribute to feelings of excitement and happiness. From a performance perspective, these activities may help to maintain interest.

The latter involves activating various parts of the brain, and the result-oriented nature of the work behind it can potentially lead to feelings of stress. Stress can cause the brain to secrete a substance called cortisol. If there is too much cortisol, it can result in a sense of depletion. At this time, it is like a phone with no battery power, and it can only continue to function with energy after being recharged through other activities.

I am not a psychologist who explores human nature. My focus is on spiritual therapy and caring for the human heart. I wish you well.

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Miles Kennedy Miles Kennedy A total of 2777 people have been helped

Greetings.

Please describe your experience over the past five years since your depression diagnosis.

It appears that the diagnostic period is five years, although it is possible that the individual may have experienced emotional distress for a period exceeding five years at any given time.

You have leveraged your interests to secure gainful employment as a freelance illustrator in a mere four years. It is difficult to imagine that there are sufficient likes to adequately acknowledge your achievements. It is, nevertheless, a commendable accomplishment.

Additionally, the advent of e-sports has introduced a new avenue for training cognitive abilities and manual dexterity.

You are not entirely addicted; you still engage in manual labor and complete your work.

Subsequently, one may adjust one's own work pace, which can be considered a form of self-care.

You express a desire to engage in travel and sports, noting that these activities can be undertaken individually or in the company of others.

It can be inferred that regardless of whether one is alone or in a social situation, one is always mentally prepared.

It would be reasonable to assume that you have reflected on and recorded the frequency of losing control of your emotions on a monthly basis. You have been your own primary source of support and guidance throughout this process.

You have endeavored to the best of your abilities, and it is evident that you have led a life without regret.

Upon initial mention of the diagnosis of depression, you proceeded to critique the methodology employed. This can be perceived as an illustration of your critical thinking abilities.

The act of illustration necessitates both imagination and an understanding of life. It is my hope that the questioner will recognize their own strength and become increasingly willing to embrace their own lives.

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Dominic Dominic A total of 2375 people have been helped

Good day, my name is Evan.

From the questioner's account, it appears that he is uncertain about his condition and unsure if he is experiencing depression or if it is merely a matter of character. If you consistently feel low and this persists over an extended period, it may indicate depression. However, if the duration is shorter, it is more likely to be a transient depressive mood.

Depression is a condition that is related to the subject's own personality. In general, individuals who are introverted are more prone to experiencing depressive moods.

Depression is a prevalent mental disorder that can significantly impact an individual's daily life. It is important to note that depression is not merely a feeling of sadness or dejection. Those affected by depression may experience a range of mental, emotional, and physical symptoms that can rapidly overwhelm them, leaving them feeling uncertain about how to cope. In some instances, individuals may engage in self-harm, and in severe cases, suicidal thoughts may arise.

However, prompt medical attention can facilitate timely treatment and prevention.

The following are some straightforward methods for determining whether an individual may be experiencing depression:

It is important to be able to recognize the manifestations of your symptoms.

Depression can manifest in three aspects: physical, mental, and emotional. The questioner has indicated that he has taken a self-assessment test, so he should be aware that if he has been experiencing certain symptoms for an extended period, he may be suffering from depression. If the questioner has exhibited most of the following symptoms in various settings (including home, school, and social environments), and the symptoms have persisted for two weeks or longer, a psychiatrist can diagnose whether he is suffering from depression.

A pervasive sense of sadness or depression.

Feelings of hopelessness or helplessness, accompanied by the belief that one's actions are futile and will not make a difference.

A lack of interest and enjoyment in most activities, including those that were previously enjoyed.

A wide range of issues, including difficulties with studies, work, and everyday tasks.

Feelings of guilt (perception that an error has been made and that it cannot be rectified)

A sense of worthlessness, accompanied by the belief that one's actions are futile.

The individual may exhibit a persistent preoccupation with death or engage in suicidal ideation.

It is important to be able to recognize suicidal thoughts in yourself.

It is important to note that suicidal thoughts can occur in the context of depression, but they are not inevitable. In the event that an individual is experiencing suicidal thoughts or wishes to end their life, it is crucial not to remain passive.

Should you require assistance, we recommend contacting a friend or family member or seeking professional help. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, we advise you to locate your local suicide helpline or call the China Psychological Crisis and Suicide Intervention Center Helpline at 400-161-9995, which is available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

Operators are professionally trained and will attempt to dissuade you from suicide.

It is important to understand the signals your body is sending you.

Depression can cause a series of changes in the body and behavior of the subject. Please list the behaviors and compare them with your past behaviors to identify any changes. When diagnosing depression, psychiatrists use physical symptoms as a reference factor. Like mental and emotional symptoms, if the subject has most of the following symptoms for two weeks or longer, they are likely suffering from depression:

Changes in sleep patterns, including excessive sleepiness or lack of sleep.

Changes in eating habits, including overeating or loss of appetite.

Sensory activities can result in a lack of motivation and energy.

The subject displays a lack of energy and a general sense of fatigue, which impairs their ability to complete daily tasks and even to get out of bed.

Recurrent recollection of traumatic experiences and past events.

It is not uncommon for stressful events, both positive and negative, as well as past experiences, to precipitate depressive moods. Similarly, transitions in one's work environment, marital status, or the addition of children can also contribute to a decline in mood.

Such changes require significant investment of energy to adapt, which can potentially lead to depressive symptoms.

Additionally, depressive moods may result from significant injuries. For instance, betrayal by a friend, involvement in a vehicular accident, or exposure to a natural disaster may precipitate depression.

Furthermore, prolonged exposure to negative experiences, such as physical, psychological, or sexual abuse, whether suffered in childhood or adulthood, can also contribute to the development of depression.

It is a common misconception that experiencing a stressful event will inevitably result in the development of depression. While such an event may act as a trigger for depression, there is no guarantee that it will cause it.

It is advisable to ascertain the family history.

It is important to note that depression has a genetic predisposition. As such, it is advisable to pay close attention to whether any immediate family members (siblings and parents) have experienced depression-related issues. Additionally, it is beneficial to observe the extended family (uncles, aunts, cousins, grandparents, etc.) to identify any potential symptoms of depression.

It is important to be aware of whether any family members have committed suicide or have experienced mental health issues. Depression is a prevalent condition within families and is strongly influenced by genetics.

If you observe a high prevalence of depression or depressive symptoms in your family, you are at an elevated risk of developing the condition.

Please contact a mental health professional for assistance.

If you are uncertain about your diagnosis, you may wish to consult with a psychiatrist at a hospital or a professional psychologist at a mental health center. If you feel that your initial assessment was insufficient, you may request another at the aforementioned facilities.

A psychiatrist can assist you in understanding depression, identifying coping strategies, and preventing its recurrence. Professional treatment can effectively address depression.

It can assist in identifying potential causes of depression, overcoming negative emotions, and restoring normal feelings and behaviors. If a physician has prescribed medication, it should be taken as directed.

In addition to psychotherapy, the client may also receive supplementary psychological counseling. This can be an effective method for overcoming depressive mood.

Some psychological counseling techniques can assist the questioner in confronting negative thoughts and ways of thinking, and transforming them into positive ones. The questioner can interpret the situation at hand and the mutual influence between the parties involved from a more positive perspective.

It is recommended that you engage in regular exercise and confide in trusted friends about your concerns. As can be seen from the questioner's own account, it seems that the questioner's interpersonal interactions are limited to the Internet. It would be beneficial for you to try going out and making new friends and engaging in face-to-face communication.

It is advisable to seek the support of friends and family in order to combat difficulties collectively. The timely release of negative emotions can help to prevent the onset of depression.

It is my hope that this response will prove helpful to the questioner.

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Charlotte Reed Charlotte Reed A total of 2300 people have been helped

Depression or depressive states can affect many of an individual's habits and behaviors. Take a moment to think about your own situation. As a anxiety/freelance-illustrator-would-depression-not-diminish-interest-in-gaming-and-leisure-14668.html" target="_blank">freelance illustrator, you get to stay at home every day, which gives you the opportunity to focus on your work without interruption. You may not have contact with peers outside for a long time, but this allows you to develop your unique style and creativity.

People also feel very uncomfortable when they don't communicate for a long time, because humans are social creatures and need a sense of belonging. The good news is that your current income is acceptable, which is a very good condition! And your work situation doesn't seem to be very good all the time, but there's plenty of room for improvement.

Are you ready to get back to having fun? Depression can make it hard to enjoy games and other forms of entertainment.

I've been on a journey of self-discovery and have learned so much about myself and my mental health over the past five years. I've been diagnosed with moderate anxiety, which has given me the opportunity to learn more about myself and my needs.

I've been dealing with some emotional challenges recently, but I'm excited to start working again!

Depression

Let's talk about your interests!

You may also feel like not going to work or resisting the idea of working. But there are so many other ways to spend your time! You could try drawing with a pen, for example. It requires inspiration and initiative, but it's a great way to relax and unwind. You could also try playing with your phone, playing games, or watching videos. These are all great ways to have fun and relax.

?️?️?️?️Let a professional psychiatrist diagnose you!

Depression can cause a sharp decline in interest in activities, but there are ways to turn this around!

Everyone is unique and different, and that's a wonderful thing!

If you have depression, it doesn't mean you won't want to do anything! Even if you've been diagnosed, you might still have some habits you want to keep up and some hobbies you really want to persevere with.

For example, playing with mobile phones is basically known to all men, women, old and young. The loss of hobbies and habits we are talking about may also depend on the degree of personal interest. For depression, it may be the case that you are not interested in anything, but there are still some regularities.

If you don't have depression, or your situation is more special, you can still be willing to do things at the level of action! You can travel, exercise, and play with your phone. It is also possible that it is a mild case, which is great news!

If you still suspect that you have depression, such as self-loathing and blaming yourself, feeling unworthy of love, suicidal tendencies, no motivation to work, burnout, losing control of your emotions and having breakdowns, etc., you need to pay attention to these symptoms. It is very likely that this is indeed affecting your life. The good news is that you can take control of your life again!

Depression can manifest in different ways for different people, so it's important to get a professional diagnosis from a psychologist. This will help you get the right support. It's also a great idea to chat with a psychological counselor about your recent thoughts and feelings. And don't forget to maintain a regular routine and focus on emotional stability and peace. You've got this!

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Nelson Thomas Hard work is the ladder that reaches to the skies of achievement.

I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. It's confusing when you feel unable to focus on work but still find yourself able to get into games or videos. Depression doesn't always mean you're indifferent to everything; sometimes it's more about not being able to channel your energy in the right direction.

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Gabrielle Thomas Life is a canvas waiting for your unique strokes.

Sometimes, it feels like my brain just won't let me do the things I know I should be doing. Yet, oddly enough, I can get lost in activities that don't really matter. It's frustrating because it seems like I'm capable of focusing, just not on the important stuff.

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Rhett Davis Teachers are the visionaries who see the potential in every student.

It sounds like you've been carrying this heavy burden for quite some time. Even though you manage to make a living and have moments of interest, it's clear that something is holding you back from feeling fully engaged in life. Maybe it's time to seek a second opinion or different kind of support.

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Atticus Miller Time is a continuum, a seamless flow of moments.

The fact that you can still find joy in traveling and sports is a good sign. It shows there are areas in your life where you can experience positive emotions. Perhaps finding a way to incorporate these activities into your routine could help improve your overall mood and motivation.

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Murphy Miller We grow when we learn to hold space for our own emotions and those of others.

I understand how difficult it can be when you're dealing with these feelings. The symptoms you listed sound really tough to go through. It might be helpful to talk to someone who can offer professional guidance and explore coping strategies that can help you manage daytoday.

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