Hello there!
A little encouragement goes a long way.
"How can I let go of my hatred for others? How can I face my own shortcomings and the malicious intent of others?"
First, there's the mention of "hatred," and then there's the question of "how do I let go of hatred?" This shows that the questioner is aware of the issue and is thinking about it in a constructive way.
The issue is how to deal with it. Often, I feel my abilities are limited and there's no way out. The negative feelings this causes, such as
"Over time, this has led to increased mental depletion, a sense of revenge, and negative emotions. Some try to attack back, but they give in at the critical moment, which doesn't have a good effect afterwards and makes them feel useless."
Has the poster made any new discoveries when writing about his true emotional feelings about the problem? For example: "I have serious mental depletion... but I will 'go soft' in critical moments, and in the end I feel useless..."
If you pay a little attention to these self-assessments, you'll actually discover:
1. There are both objective and subjective reasons for the serious mental depletion.
From an objective standpoint, interpersonal relationships are often strained due to excessive pressure from others. Passive aggression, exploitation, contempt, and other complex emotions are not uncommon.
Subjectively, I may always think that I'm not capable of standing on an equal footing with others and gaining their respect.
So, mental attrition isn't necessarily a bad thing. When you look at it more objectively, it helps you assess the situation and know how to protect your rights.
2. I'll be weak at critical moments:
What's behind the fear of conflict and the urge to avoid it?
a. I feel like I'm not as strong as I could be when faced with tough opponents, and that the situation isn't ideal for me. (Objectively, it's a smart move)
b. I don't think I deserve the respect and appreciation of others. (This is a deep-seated subconscious belief.)
How we see things affects how we see ourselves. And changing that takes a better understanding of who we are.
3. I feel useless.
"Not good," "very bad," "useless"... These kinds of evaluations are often pretty absolute, so it's important to have a more objective way of evaluating ourselves and others.
So, the statement "I feel useless" is also an overly absolute evaluation.
If you think about it, you'll see that even though you can't directly "argue" with others for various reasons, you still want to be kind and get along with them. So, the real issue here is learning how to communicate with others when you have a conflict.
If something doesn't go as planned, I can remind myself that I can support myself and express myself better next time.
How can I improve my emotional problems?
"The person who started the problem is the one who has to solve it." The issue needs to be addressed at its core so that I can better resolve the underlying conflict within myself, reconcile with myself, regain self-confidence, and fundamentally improve my sense of self-esteem.
First, you've got to face the problem, accept the conflict, and embrace your emotions.
The emotion comes from an internal conflict.
For instance, I thought it should be done this way, but he did it the other way, and I suddenly felt angry.
So, the key to improving your emotions is to establish a healthy and reasonable perception.
As in the question, I find that the other party shows no respect for me at all. In that case, the next step is to make a judgment.
Is he someone I should respect? Is what he's doing reasonable?
If the answer is yes, I'd kindly let the other person know how their actions are making me feel and work together to set some reasonable boundaries. If they're open to it, we can talk more and find a way to get along.
But if the other person isn't worthy of respect and is being deliberately disrespectful, I have the right to speak up and say how I really feel. I can express my rejection and dissatisfaction with the other person's unreasonable behavior and find peace within.
So, the key to setting boundaries is to know your worth and be clear about what you do and don't accept.
2. Improve your communication and expression skills and boost your self-confidence.
Why is improving communication skills the way to improve conflicts and contradictions?
Then, the questioner might as well imagine a common TV drama. When a tense scene appears, how do those who can express themselves turn an unfavorable situation to their advantage or make it more harmonious? You'll see that communication can change the content of a conversation and also the other person's misconceptions.
For instance, the other person said, "You look really weak."
At this point, the question owner is likely to feel a mix of shame and anger. He's probably feeling ashamed because he's been put on the spot, and angry because the other person is openly provoking him.
But that's just his opinion. Does everyone else think the same way? And is it even true that I'm really weak?
If you keep this in mind, you'll see that just because you might seem weak, it doesn't mean you'll always be weak. The other person's disrespectful behavior is their responsibility in the relationship, and it's a big disrespect for the relationship. I have the right to express my true thoughts without being hurt or influenced by the other person.
"Maybe you're right, but as a friend, I feel uncomfortable and disrespected by your comments, unless you think I can treat you this way too..."
You can enhance your ability to express yourself. It doesn't have to be done overnight, but gradually. As long as you can maintain a sense of "mutual respect" in the relationship, the questioner may gradually regain their autonomy in the relationship, find inner confidence, and be less influenced by negative influences. (You can imagine yourself as the growth-oriented female or male protagonist in the drama.)
The above.
Wishing you the best!
Comments
I understand how deeply painful and exhausting it can be to carry around so much unresolved anger and hurt. It's important to acknowledge your feelings and give yourself permission to heal. Maybe start by setting small, manageable goals for selfimprovement, focusing on what you can control. Surround yourself with supportive people who uplift you, and consider seeking professional help to guide you through this process. Remember, healing is not about erasing the past but learning to live with it in a way that doesn't define you.
It sounds like you've been carrying a heavy burden for quite some time. Learning to let go of hatred isn't about excusing others' actions; it's about freeing yourself from the chains of resentment. Perhaps engaging in mindfulness or meditation could help you stay present and less caught up in the past. Also, writing down your thoughts and feelings might provide an outlet for expressing what you've been holding inside. Try to focus on building your selfesteem and resilience, as these can serve as protective shields against future harm.
Dealing with such deepseated issues is no easy task, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. One approach could be to reframe the way you see the challenges you've faced. Instead of viewing them as failures, think of them as opportunities for growth. It may also be beneficial to explore therapy or counseling, where you can work with a professional to develop coping strategies and build healthier patterns of behavior. Remember, change takes time, and it's perfectly alright to take things one step at a time.
The pain you're experiencing is valid, and it's crucial to address it in a healthy way. Sometimes, confronting our own flaws and the malice from others requires us to practice selfcompassion. Be kind to yourself as you would to a friend going through a tough time. Consider joining support groups or communities where you can share your experiences and learn from others who have walked similar paths. Embrace the journey of selfdiscovery, and remember that it's okay to seek help along the way.
It's clear that you're in a lot of emotional pain, and I'm sorry you're feeling this way. To cope with the lingering effects of past mistreatment, try to establish a routine that nurtures your mental health, such as regular exercise, a balanced diet, and sufficient sleep. Engaging in activities that bring you joy and fulfillment can also be a powerful antidote to negativity. Additionally, setting boundaries with those who have caused you harm can protect your wellbeing. Lastly, remember that you deserve peace and happiness, and it's possible to find a path forward, even if it feels difficult now.