Hello. Thank you for your question. I am a listener at Yixin.
You are clearly highly motivated and responsible. You want to do a good job, but the pressure and anxiety are real. Your lack of work experience makes the work challenging, which causes you to feel anxious. For instance, you may not eat, and when you're not at work, you're thinking about giving a good class and doing a good job. This will distract you, and it will seriously affect your quality of life and physical health.
It's good to have some anxiety, but excessive worry is harmful to your health. It stops you moving forward and developing. It seems that your anxieties are getting out of control, so we need to find a way to regulate your emotions and state.
First, change the sentence structure to "I can teach well in class." This will adjust our mentality and give us certain psychological cues. We may have thoughts during class, such as "What if I can't teach well?" or "What if the students don't want to listen if I can't teach well?" We will have these thoughts. Repeat a few sentences to ourselves every day: "I can teach well in class." After a period of time, this positive psychological cue will adjust our actions to preparing the class well and teaching the class seriously. The students will like our lectures. Be serious and responsible, and the students will recognize us.
You're only 24 and have only been working for a few years, so it's important to understand that teaching is a complex job. Some classes may require years of experience before you can become proficient, and it takes even longer to become truly outstanding. This is a process of accumulation, and you're still new to the workforce, so other commitments may take up your time, reducing the time you have to prepare for class. This is a challenging and rewarding role that requires time to develop and cannot be rushed.
We must slow down to speed up. Give yourself time to grow, steadily push forward with your tasks, and accumulate experience. You will become more proficient at your work. Then, you will spend more time thinking of ways to teach the class well. After a few years of teaching a class, you will be very proficient. There will be no pressure, just a constant problem of improvement.
I heard a lesson yesterday that I want to share with you. It was about changing your posture and position when you are stressed or anxious. You can do this by moving into a relaxed, carefree posture and position. This will help you to become more relaxed. You can do this a few times a day or maintain it for a period of time. You will become more and more relaxed. There is also a book called "Posture Determines Who You Are" which explains this in more detail. When you perform a certain action, for example, a carefree action, you will adjust your body and mind to a state of ease. This will help you to relax.
I'm going to share the three points above because I know they'll be helpful to you. The world and I love you.


Comments
I totally understand how overwhelming this must be for you. It's a tough start, but remember, every teacher has their learning curve. Maybe it's time to seek support from more experienced colleagues or mentors who can guide you on key knowledge points and teaching strategies. You're not alone in this.
It sounds like you're putting immense pressure on yourself, which is understandable given the importance of your role. But you need to take care of your own health too. Have you considered talking to a counselor or therapist? Sometimes just speaking to someone outside the situation can provide a new perspective and help manage anxiety.
You're only human, and it's okay not to know everything right away. The fact that you're so dedicated shows how much you care. Perhaps setting small, manageable goals for each lesson can help build your confidence gradually. Celebrate the little victories along the way.
Your students might be more understanding than you think. If you feel comfortable, maybe share with them that you're working hard to improve. Transparency can foster trust. Also, consider asking for feedback; it could give you insights into what's working and what needs adjustment.
It's great that you're reflecting on your teaching, but try to balance that with selfcompassion. Everyone makes mistakes, and they are part of the learning process. Focus on progress, not perfection. Take one day at a time and acknowledge your efforts.