Hello, host.
I'm letmefly, and I want to help you.
You say you're alone. It's hard to feel this way. I'm here for you.
You're lonely and getting thinner. I feel for you. I send you a hug.
Has the original poster thought of ways to deal with the situation? Have you talked to your parents? Go to a hospital for a physical exam to see if there's a physical reason. Weight loss usually has a reason, and you should first rule out the causes.
The original poster said his childhood friend doesn't care about him. Why? Even if he went to college and left, there's still the internet. You can still get in touch. Do you think something happened between you?
If you think there's a gap because he went to a top university and you may only go to an ordinary one, have you talked to your childhood friend?
Sometimes we doubt ourselves. Sometimes others don't see it that way. Maybe we need to check reality to see if it's true.
The original poster should be going to university soon. I have a few suggestions for you as a prospective university student.
Pay attention to your relationship with your roommates. The four years in college may be the longest you spend with them. You don't have to be best friends, but you should still interact with them daily.
The host feels lonely, so how can you make friends in college? Start with clubs. Have some hobbies. Join clubs that interest you. Meet like-minded classmates and make friends.
The host still finds it difficult to adapt and make friends after going to university. You can also seek help from the school's psychologist. As far as I know, psychological counseling at university should be free. The host should be able to get better support and explore themselves in such a safe environment.
I don't know the host's situation or gender. The host's childhood friend is male, so I think the host is a boy. If I'm wrong, don't worry about my opinion. Everyone has different experiences. The host knows themselves best, so believe in yourself.
I hope I can help you and get your feedback.


Comments
I can totally understand how you're feeling. It's really tough when you feel like everyone around you is doing better and moving on without you. High school can be such a hard time, especially when you're going through it alone. I'm sorry you've been feeling this way, but isolating yourself might not be the best solution. Maybe there are others out there who feel just as you do.
It sounds like you've been through a lot. Sometimes life throws us curveballs that make us feel left out or not good enough. But remember, your worth isn't determined by where you go to school or how many friends you have online. There's so much value in who you are beyond those things. Consider reaching out for support; sometimes talking to someone who understands can help a lot.
Feeling lonely and isolated is incredibly challenging. It seems like high school was particularly difficult for you. The pressure to fit in and succeed can be overwhelming. It's okay to take time for yourself, but also try to find small ways to connect with others. You might find that people appreciate you more than you realize once they get to know you.
I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, but I want you to know that it's not uncommon to feel out of place during high school. Everyone has their own journey, and sometimes we grow at different paces. If socializing feels too daunting, maybe start with activities you enjoy. Often, shared interests can lead to friendships in a more natural and less stressful way.
I hear how deeply you feel this loneliness, and it's heartbreaking. It's important to acknowledge these feelings, but don't let them define you. Your path doesn't have to look like anyone else's. Even if right now you prefer being alone, consider exploring groups or communities where you might find kindred spirits. Sometimes, all it takes is one connection to change everything.