Good day.
You are not yet old, but you have already experienced many challenges and setbacks. While facing many difficulties, you worked hard to achieve your financial goals. As you said, this time you are starting over, not from scratch, but with all your previous experiences and the valuable lessons you have learned through your own actions.
Despite the perception that your previous choices were the result of a lack of self-awareness, you have demonstrated resilience and commitment in striving to rectify these choices. This process is commendable. Errors in judgment and decision-making are a common occurrence, yet your determination and courage in accepting accountability are noteworthy.
I believe this experience will prove invaluable to you.
You have indicated that you feel adrift following the repayment of your debts. I believe this may be a form of discomfort. The period of debt repayment was a constant, looming presence. You lived a life of fatigue, but with a clear goal, moving forward with determination.
Then, the goal is no longer apparent. While this may initially feel reassuring, it is likely to evoke feelings of uncertainty and a lack of direction. This period represents a temporary state of equilibrium following the release of tension. It may be indicative of the need for a period of rest and recuperation, during which you can allow yourself to adapt and await the emergence of a new objective.
It may be the case that you have a tendency to demand that you have a clear goal and know what to do at all times. You expect yourself to be clear-headed, motivated, and striving at all times.
Not having clearly defined objectives is a source of considerable discomfort, particularly when one is not in control of one's circumstances. Prior to becoming debt-free, despite the pressure, you probably felt at ease and comfortable knowing what you wanted to do every day.
Although you dislike being in debt, you may appreciate the lack of concern and the clarity that debt provides. Once debt is repaid, the goal is no longer present, and you must confront the absence of a goal. You may reject confusion because it is seen as an unfavorable state of mind and a lack of value. Therefore, you may be motivated to eliminate confusion and pursue a new goal.
Whether it is taking a self-study exam or returning to your previous career, it may simply be a means of avoiding confusion rather than a genuine aspiration.
It is not uncommon for individuals to experience a period of uncertainty and lack of clarity about their goals and aspirations. Many people have spent a significant portion of their lives without having reached a point of clarity about their life direction.
They are simply more adept at providing solace to themselves, feigning contentment with their daily lives, and appearing to have a clear sense of direction. It requires courage to acknowledge that you are uncertain, to be patient amidst your confusion, to gradually discern and embrace your true passions, and to identify your own unique path.
Do not attempt to resolve your confusion through extensive deliberation and elaborate plans. These imaginations will only serve to increase the pressure you are under.
The majority of these concepts are impractical and cannot be implemented immediately. Frequently fantasizing about unfeasible solutions to address current issues may lead to increased irritability and a tendency to make misguided decisions.
Allow yourself to experience confusion, and in the midst of confusion, settle your heart, experience the daily life you have, feel yourself, and do whatever you want to do in every moment, and take action immediately. Set some small goals for yourself that you are willing to achieve, and get started.
It is important to experience your own feelings in the process of doing things and to gradually identify the most effective way to proceed and your own inner interests. While this may not be immediately apparent, with time and experience, these aspects will become more evident.
When you reflect on the outcome, you will see that it aligns with the trajectory you set out to achieve. I believe that life is a process that unfolds in this way.
There is no need for prophets; a calm heart and a methodical, incremental approach to measurement and experimentation are sufficient. It is possible to feel and experience this with a sense of groundedness and to ultimately chart one's own course in life.
I hope this information is useful to you. As a listening coach, I am available to discuss any further questions or concerns you may have.
Best regards,
Comments
I can relate to feeling both liberated and lost after such a significant milestone. It seems like you're on the cusp of something new, ready to redefine your path. The exam is just one step in reclaiming control over your future. With 10 subjects already under your belt, you're more than halfway there. Just focus on what you can do now, take it one day at a time, and remember that every small victory adds up.
The anxiety you feel might be stemming from the pressure you're putting on yourself to succeed. It's okay to have taken longer than expected; life happens. You've faced challenges that most people couldn't even imagine. Now that you're debtfree, try to channel that sense of liberation into motivation for your studies. Break down your study sessions into manageable chunks and give yourself credit for each achievement along the way.
You've overcome so much already, and getting through this exam is another hurdle you will surpass. It sounds like you're questioning whether your efforts are enough, but remember, any progress is better than no progress. Your background in accounting and your experiences with financial literacy show that you have valuable skills. Trust in your ability to learn and adapt, and don't be too hard on yourself if you stumble. Each setback is also a lesson.
It's natural to question your direction when you're at a crossroads. Maybe the uncertainty about passing the exam or securing a diploma is contributing to your worries. But think of all the times you doubted yourself before and still managed to come out stronger. This time is no different. You have the knowledge and determination to succeed. Focus on the positive aspects of your journey and keep moving forward, even if it's just one step at a time.
Perhaps you're concerned about not living up to your potential or worried that your past mistakes will hold you back. But those experiences have shaped you into someone who understands the value of perseverance. Every challenge you've encountered has prepared you for this moment. Embrace the lessons learned and let them guide you as you prepare for your exam. You've already shown remarkable resilience; now it's time to apply that same strength to achieving your academic goals.