Hello, original poster!
It's totally understandable that you're worried about suddenly stopping the medication. But don't worry! We've got this. Let's figure out how to alleviate the current situation.
First of all, depression is like a fever. We know that you have to take medicine for a fever, so let's get you some medicine! If possible, you should still communicate with your parents to explain the importance of medication for your current condition.
Our parents thought they were doing what was best for us. But it seems like we know more about the illness, and we're excited to share what we've learned!
It's great that we're starting to care about our bodies! Even if we're a little worried, we know that suddenly stopping medication can affect our bodies and minds.
That's a great start! Now, let's think about which part of the body is most uncomfortable.
Now, find a quiet, comfortable corner and get comfortable. Close your eyes and get ready for some relaxation!
Now, think about the most uncomfortable part of your body. Focus on it!
Now, think about what kind of feeling it brings you. What kind of state it is in.
You can talk to yourself! Hug that injured part of yourself! I hope you feel better!
I truly believe that you will get better, even if it takes time. It can be challenging to face our wounded parts, but you can do it!
But it really helps if we just give it a few tries! This is a long process, but it's totally worth it in the end.
You will get better, and you will do it gradually!
If we haven't slept very well, we try to say to ourselves before going to sleep that we forgive everything from the day with all our love and slip into peaceful dreams. I know that everything will be fine tomorrow, and it is going to be a great day!
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There is endless love in my heart! I now let this love well up from within, filling my heart, my body, my mind, the space I am in. It leaves my body and radiates in all directions, only to return to me many times over!
I release more and more love, I release all my reserves. And it feels so good! It's an expression of the joy within me.
I love myself, so I take care of my body with love! I lovingly provide it with nutritious food and drinks, I lovingly groom it and dress it up, and my body gives me back health and energy!
I love myself, so I have prepared the most wonderful home for myself. This home can meet any of my needs and is a happy home!
I fill every room with love, so that whoever enters, including myself, feels this love and is nourished by it. I love myself, so I do work that I really enjoy, work that allows me to use my creativity and talents. I work with and for people who love me and those I love, and I earn a good income. It's so great to be able to do work that I love and that also allows me to support myself and those I love!
I love myself, and it shows! I think and act with love, and I treat all people this way, and they return it to me many times over. I only attract lovely people into my world, and therefore they are my mirror.
I love myself, so I forgive and liberate the past and all its experiences, and I am free! I love myself, so I live fully in the present.
I experience every beautiful moment, and I know that my future is going to be absolutely amazing! Because I am a beloved child of the universe, the world is going to take care of me gladly, now and forever.
We really have to believe that I will get better slowly, and this belief will drive us forward!
I'd love to recommend a few books: "The Black Dog of Depression," by Bion, "Learning from Experience," and "Rebuilding Your Life."
I'm so excited to be back! The world and I love you ☀


Comments
I understand how tough this situation is for you. It's really important to have an open conversation with your parents about how you're feeling and the impact their decision has on you. They might not fully grasp the seriousness of your condition.
It's crucial that you don't hide medicine or take it without your parents' knowledge. This could lead to more conflict and isn't a healthy way to handle the issue. Instead, maybe suggest seeking a second opinion from another healthcare professional who can explain the importance of proper treatment.
This is such a sensitive topic, and I know you're in pain. Have you thought about reaching out to a school counselor or a trusted adult who could help mediate a discussion between you and your parents? They might be able to provide some guidance and support.
You're going through so much right now, and it's understandable that you feel desperate. But taking medication secretly isn't the answer. What you need is a plan to communicate effectively with your parents and perhaps involve a mental health specialist who can help everyone understand what's best for you.
The insomnia and mood swings must be incredibly hard to manage. It's vital that you find a safe space to talk about these feelings. If there's a friend or family member you trust, they might be able to offer comfort and help you approach your parents again about getting the right care.