Hello, From your words, I can tell you're worried about the future and feeling sad, in pain, and helpless because you can't control your emotions. I'll share my point of view, and I hope my next answer will be helpful to you.
Many people will experience some dark or sad things, and everyone has different ways of dealing with them. The way you deal with things might even make you regress a bit mentally.
It's when people give up the skills they've learned to cope with frustration or anxiety and regress to using childish methods to deal with the situation at hand.
You can try to enter this regression state in the short term to heal your inner frustration and pain, but this is not a long-term solution. Look at your life situation with a developmental perspective, believe that you will get better and better, and give yourself more positive mental suggestions. You can actively try to use this behavior to suggest to yourself. Before going to bed every day, write down five things that make you feel happy.
There's an interesting experiment in psychology that suggests when you write down things that make you feel troubled or painful, and then wait a week or a month to look at them again, you'll find that these things have never actually happened, or you were simply worrying about yourself. You can try to focus on the present, living in the now, instead of constantly worrying about things that haven't happened.
Wishing you the best!
I love you, the world, and I'm here for you.


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I hear you, and it's okay to feel the way you do. Maybe starting small, like sharing your feelings with a close friend or family member, could help ease the burden. Sometimes just having someone listen can make all the difference.
It sounds really tough, but have you thought about speaking to a professional who can provide support? They might be able to offer strategies to cope with these feelings and guide you through this rough patch.
Feeling this way for a while now, it's important not to go through it alone. Reaching out for professional help is a strong thing to do. Also, try engaging in activities that once brought you joy; they might lift your spirits a little.
Every day is a new opportunity to take a step forward. Even if it's hard, consider seeking help from a counselor or therapist. They can provide a safe space to explore these emotions and work towards feeling better.
I'm sorry you're going through this. It's okay to seek help when you need it. Talking to someone, whether it's a trusted person in your life or a mental health professional, can be a good start to finding a way forward.