Southerners, my mother scolds me every day, I suffer mental torture every day, I want to commit suicide.

Dear author, I believe that the present is good. Perhaps it would be helpful to be grateful for the encounter.

From what you've shared, it seems like your current situation is particularly challenging and frustrating. I'm not sure why your mother scolds you daily, or what she hopes to achieve by doing so. It's possible that she's trying to wake you up, or that she's expressing her own emotions, or perhaps she's venting her own frustrations.

It's possible that when she scolds you, she's actually scolding herself. Regardless, her approach to dealing with things isn't ideal or appropriate. It's likely that this is the result of her current limited perception.

It's possible that she vents her emotions on you, which could make you feel like her emotional trash can.

My dear, you don't have to take on your mother's emotions. It's okay to let them out, but it's important to do so in a safe way. You have many options for releasing your emotions, such as running, writing, running up a hill and shouting, hitting a pillow, or having a good cry. Talking to a friend or counselor can also be helpful. Repressing these emotions and suppressing yourself in this way is not healthy.

Your mother may not be able to love you in the way you need, so it might be helpful to think of yourself as your own spiritual mother and to focus on loving yourself more and appreciating yourself.

I hope things work out for you!

Hello! I'm sending you a warm hug from afar. You deserve better. You are not disrespected, misunderstood, rejected, unacknowledged, unloved, or unwanted.

You feel so much pain in the face of your mother's verbal abuse because you attribute your mother's verbal humiliation and hurt to your own lack of goodness. You identify with and internalize your mother's way of treating you, which makes you unintentionally face your mother's hurt and fall into a deep sense of helplessness and powerlessness. You put yourself in a role where you cannot protect and support yourself.

When faced with verbal abuse from your mother, you can and should express your true feelings at that moment. Don't judge her words or actions. Just express your true feelings and needs so that she can clearly realize that her words and actions have deeply hurt you and that you should not be treated this way.

You can also record in writing the painful emotional feelings generated by your mother's verbal negation and hurt. This will help you better experience, perceive, feel, and sort out the real needs behind these uncomfortable emotional feelings. This will also help you respond to and support yourself in a more appropriate way.

You can learn to be the kind of good parent you want to be. This will help you to re-parent yourself, treat yourself the way you want to be treated, and better heal the trauma caused by your mother's verbal abuse.

I am Lily, the little ear of the Q&A Museum. The world and I love you.