Hello, host.
First of all, I want to say that I understand what you're going through and I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I want you to know that I'm here for you and I'm sending you a big hug to let you know you're not alone.
I can relate to the emotions you're describing. I'm not sure if everyone goes through this kind of confusion more or less as they grow, but I've been in this situation before.
It's like suddenly not being able to find the meaning of life, not knowing why people live, not knowing where their value lies. You feel empty and lost inside, restless and at a loss, tired of resisting and feeling like you don't fit in with the world.
These psychological reflections actually show how empty and barren our inner world can feel. Not having some spiritual support and substance is like an unfillable black hole.
As you mentioned, it's easy to feel bored or resistant when doing anything, right? I feel like I'm only half-hearted and enthusiastic every now and then. Maybe this is because after entering society, I haven't found my own position, haven't been able to correctly and well find a position of my own in the workplace, and haven't been able to truly integrate into society and achieve self-harmony.
In fact, many times, when faced with certain situations in society, we are always at a loss for what to do. As you said, you are actually very dissatisfied with your current situation, and you feel like you can't do anything right.
As you mentioned, you felt more and more discouraged as you prepared for the internship. However, from the start, you've already planted the seeds of doubt, and you feel like you're not up to the task. This will create a self-imposed barrier. In other words, you'll find reasons to justify your actions, and you'll be self-serving. This means you'll likely find reasons why you can't do something well, just like this kind of mood reflects.
I can see why you're confused. You haven't yet found a source of inner strength, a way of dealing with the outside world and standing up for yourself.
This is the current state of confusion for most people. They know their current situation isn't right, but they haven't found their interests. They also feel like life isn't what they want, and they don't know what to do.
But in reality, we often indulge in these emotions and it's tough to break free. I'm grateful that the original poster was able to wake up in time and seek help because self-help means that only you can save yourself and only you can get out of this mess.
So my advice to the original poster is that we all know we can't indulge in such emotions and feelings because over time, it is actually very difficult to really devote yourself to doing something.
But often, we feel like we don't know what we want. What should we do? It's because we haven't taken action. Sometimes we feel like the answer will become clear as we go along.
The host said that the more you understand your industry, the more you feel disgusted and then you don't want to go to work. Have you ever imagined a different scenario? A different situation? Do you really dislike and hate him that much, or is it just that you are encountering insurmountable difficulties at work? Or do you really want to change careers?
If you're interested in changing careers to challenge yourself, it's worth doing. You're still finding yourself, trying and making mistakes. You're not yet at an age or point where you can't afford to fail.
If you're the type of person who avoids trouble, doubts your abilities, and believes that any approach is acceptable, you'll never venture beyond your comfort zone or make significant progress.
My advice to the original poster is to tackle the most pressing tasks first. Read more, exercise more. Even if a task seems inconsequential, taking the time to complete it can yield long-term benefits.
It's like going to the gym to get in shape. Self-discipline is a rare quality, or you can read a few pages every day, or you'll discover something different.
But waiting is never the answer. If you really take action, implement, and get things done, you can take a blank piece of paper one afternoon and make a list of what you're unhappy with, what you don't want, what you want, and what you want to try. Then you just go for it, instead of wallowing in the predicament of the moment.
I hope the original poster finds happiness and joy.


Comments
I totally understand how you feel. It seems like everything just loses its charm too quickly for you, and work especially has become a heavy burden. The excitement fades away rapidly, leaving only frustration and emptiness behind. It's really tough when you can't find joy or interest in what you do.
It sounds like you're going through a rough patch where nothing holds your attention for long. Even things that should be enjoyable become sources of resentment. This cycle of getting bored and disheartened is draining your energy and motivation. Maybe it's time to explore what truly excites you outside of the routine.
I hear you. It's incredibly frustrating when even new beginnings lose their luster so fast. You've tried different paths, but the enthusiasm just doesn't last. Now, the thought of work is overwhelming, and it's affecting your sleep and overall wellbeing. It's important to address this because it's impacting so many areas of your life.
Your feelings are valid. It's as if no matter how much effort you put into something, it eventually leads to dissatisfaction and boredom. That must be really hard, especially when it starts to affect your daily life and selfperception. Perhaps reflecting on what you value most could help reignite some passion.
It's clear that you're feeling stuck and unfulfilled. The quick shift from interest to resentment is concerning and might indicate deeper issues at play. It's crucial to consider what changes you can make to regain a sense of purpose and enjoyment in both your career and personal life.