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Want to chop off your finger to see a psychiatrist? What's wrong with me?

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Want to chop off your finger to see a psychiatrist? What's wrong with me? By Anonymous | Published on December 26, 2024

Today, I suddenly wanted to cut off my finger. I pondered for a long time what the motivation for this idea was, and finally deduced this psychological process: I feel twisted inside → I can't solve it myself and want to seek help from a psychologist → I'm not sure if I need treatment + my parents disagree → I use extreme behavior to prove that I really am sick

I have attempted suicide before, but the insecticide I drank was too weak to have any effect. At the time, I had some pretty silly thoughts. I felt that I had let my parents down by failing to study hard, and that continuing to live would only be a burden on my family, so I drank the insecticide over a weekend when I couldn't finish my homework.

The strange thing is that I have grown up now, and my academic performance is not bad. I did a good job on my homework during the winter vacation some time ago, but suddenly one day I just don't want to do anything anymore, I'm so, so tired. I used to be very optimistic and positive, and I felt that no matter what happens in life, as long as I am happy, my life is not a waste.

I still have this idea, but the depression that comes from nowhere makes me unable to do anything. I can force myself to maintain normalcy, but I don't know how long I can last. I feel like my sanity is about to go offline any minute now.

What's wrong with me? Why do I have to prove that I'm sick? I'm not sick, I know that for sure...

David Anderson David Anderson A total of 9729 people have been helped

Hello, question asker.

You want to cut off your finger to get your family's attention and then take you to a psychologist. You have seriously thought about why you have such thoughts.

At some point in the past and at some point in the present, you have undoubtedly felt torn and longed for professional support for your emotions and psychological state, for example from a psychologist. However, your parents did not agree, and you hoped to prove your illness through extreme behavior.

Tell me, was this similar to your previous suicide attempt? And after your parents found out about your suicidal behavior, did you talk about seeing a therapist?

You need to have a good talk with your parents. Go to the psychiatric department of a local hospital to see if you have a disease that requires diagnosis by a professional psychiatrist. This is not something your parents can decide for you. You can try to communicate with them first and try to keep yourself away from sharp objects and insecticides that may endanger your life.

It's likely that communication between you and your parents is strained, and they may not fully comprehend your feelings of helplessness and pain. You should also speak with your teacher about your concerns to explore potential solutions.

The school is required to report the child's inaction to the guardians and provide you with protection.

You are torn between whether you are sick or not. On the one hand, you are stuck in certain emotions that make you feel bad about your behavior. On the other hand, you are actually afraid that you are sick and worried about being disliked and neglected by your parents. Prolonged emotional depletion may also cause your emotions to fall into a bad state, which will affect your daily behavior. However, regarding psychological diagnosis, you still need to consult a professional psychologist. It will get better, so love yourself.

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Levi Simmons Levi Simmons A total of 4028 people have been helped

Hello, my name is June.

From your description, I can sense the pressure and pain in your heart. It seems that you're struggling to release some of your emotions on your own, and you're seeking guidance from a psychologist or counselor to help you analyze and support you. However, your parents have a different perspective. In order to gain their understanding and support, you're considering taking steps to achieve your goal.

I once attempted to take my own life, but the insecticide I consumed was insufficient to have the desired effect. At the time, I was experiencing some challenging thoughts. I felt that I had let my parents down by not performing better academically, and that continuing to live would be a burden on my family. So I consumed the insecticide on a weekend when I was unable to complete all my homework.

From what you've shared, it seems like your parents may have more traditional values. It's understandable that you feel pressured to perform well to meet their expectations, as it's important to them. It's also natural to feel like you need to be good to have value.

Once you feel worthless, you may be concerned that your parents will stop caring about you.

It is curious to note that, despite my growth and academic achievements, I find myself experiencing a sudden lack of motivation and energy. I have always been an optimistic and positive person, believing that as long as I am happy, I am living a fulfilling life.

I still have the same thoughts, but I'm unsure where this sense of decadence originates from. It hinders my ability to function. I can force myself to maintain normalcy, but I'm uncertain how long I can sustain this. I feel like my sanity is teetering on the brink.

In this description, you say that you have grown up and your academic performance is good, but you're still unsure why you experience mood swings. It seems that your growth has been at the rational level.

From a rational perspective, you understand the importance of learning and the importance of success. As you gain more knowledge, you may begin to feel that your value depends on success, which could potentially lead to a sense of loss in your heart.

It's important to remember that self-harm is never the answer, no matter what the circumstances. Your parents may not be aware of your emotional struggles, but that doesn't mean they don't care about you. It's possible that they have more traditional views on mental health and don't fully understand the complexities of it.

If you are unable to gain your parents' attention through your own means, you may wish to consider communicating with the teacher or school psychologist, who can then contact your parents on your behalf.

I hope this information is helpful to you. Please don't hesitate to reach out if you have any questions or need further assistance.

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Victor Thompson Victor Thompson A total of 4353 people have been helped

Hello, I'm just an old skinny donkey.

I can relate to the questioner's feelings. Having been a student myself, I know that the pressure of studying is intense. Even though the questioner is doing well academically, the repetitive nature of learning can also lead to boredom.

Emotions aren't always easy to spot, but if they build up over time, they can feel like a flood held back by a dam. You always want to find an outlet. The question asker has just used a more extreme way to do so.

The questioner has already started paying attention to their own feelings and doing some self-analysis, which is a good sign. But if a person keeps things to themselves, it can make those feelings worse. The questioner can try some ways of catharsis:

1) Find a tree hole (parents, friends, or a platform) and talk about your emotions. This can help you relieve your emotions and get guidance.

2) Keep an emotional diary, noting your feelings each day and any changes.

3) It's a good idea to develop hobbies and interests, as they can help you feel more fulfilled and empowered.

4) Take some emotional tests to check your emotional level, and see a professional counselor if you need to.

5) Pick up a few psychology books to help you understand yourself better and work through some issues. Two good ones are "Too Smart to be Happy" and "Embracing Your Inner Child."

Wishing you the best!

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Anthony Anthony A total of 97 people have been helped

Hello, question asker!

From your description, I can tell you're a very thoughtful person who is constantly thinking of ways to get what you want to do. You're also a very filial person and even more so a wise person! When you feel this discomfort, you can perceive it and face it bravely, and actively come here to talk about it and want to get some help.

From your description, I can tell that you are a very perceptive person. When you have a bad thought, you think about the motivation behind it, which is a great resource for you!

All problems are our resources, and we are experts at solving our own problems! I admire your courage in coming here to talk. I can tell you're looking for help, and I'm excited to offer it!

Now, imagine this: a miracle happens, and all those uncomfortable feelings just disappear! You're also able to let go with the help of a counselor. What kind of state of life would you be in? What would you have done to achieve this state? When the miracle happens, will you be different from how you are now?

Who will notice your amazing difference or change?

You described a past experience, and you said that you have improved since then, which is great! However, there will suddenly be a period of unhappiness, a period of no motivation. You want to enrich yourself, and you have been persevering, which is fantastic! However, there is still some confusion and disorientation in your heart, and even a feeling of helplessness. Is that right?

You know what? We don't have to prove anything about ourselves. We just need to realize what we can gain by proving it!

You want to go to the psychologist, but your parents don't agree. That's okay! You have other ideas in mind to prove to your parents that you are actually very confused. I can tell you want to get help and want your parents to agree to let you find a psychologist and get help for yourself. That's great!

From your description, it's clear you want to get help and want your parents to agree to let you see a psychologist and get help for yourself. I'm excited to share some suggestions that I think will really help you relieve this uncomfortable feeling!

First, be more aware!

You want to prove to your parents, so you choose to hurt yourself. But why do you want to prove it? As I just said, maybe you want to get help, or maybe you want your parents' attention. These are all internal activities. You didn't implement them and came here to find the answer to the problem. That's really great! It shows that you are wise.

Second, get help from external resources!

From your description, I can tell you're still a student, which is great! There are also psychological teachers in schools nowadays, which is a fantastic resource. You can seek help from a psychological counselor through the school, talk to the psychological teacher, or even call the local psychological hotline. These are all great ways to help you relieve your emotions. As for your parents, do you know the reason behind their disapproval? You need to understand more, and I'm here to help!

Then, use a positive mindset to replace a negative one!

Life is an amazing journey, and it's not always smooth sailing. We all have our own worries and confusion, but when we are unable to extricate ourselves from our own worries, we need to replace a negative mindset with a positive one. Over time, cultivating a positive mindset will give us inner strength, calm our minds, and give us the courage to face life's problems. It's an incredible process!

Finally, you describe your state as not very good and somewhat decadent. At this time, I actually recommend exercising more! Try jogging, your favorite sport, or running fast. You'll feel great! The brain secretes dopamine during exercise, which gives us a sense of pleasure. It's a very good way to relieve our emotions.

Finally, I want to tell you that it's okay! We need to learn to accept our feelings without hurting ourselves, respect our feelings, be constantly aware of them, and ask ourselves why we feel this way. What do you want? You can listen to more music or mindfulness meditation, which will help us in some way!

You've come here to talk and find answers to your questions, and that's a great start! You're already on the path to change. You haven't chosen to escape, but to face this head-on, and that's fantastic! As long as you don't give up, you will definitely find your own breakthrough and make your life better and better. In the future, when you're in a bad mood, you can come to this platform and talk to us. We will always be here for you!

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Marshall Davis True learning is not about memorizing facts but understanding concepts.

I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the support that you need. It's really important to talk things over with someone who can, though, like a mental health professional or a trusted person in your life.

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Bram Davis Growth is a process of learning to be comfortable with the uncomfortable.

It sounds like you've been carrying a heavy burden for quite some time. The thoughts you're having are serious, and it's important not to face them alone. Have you considered reaching out to a counselor or therapist who can offer you support?

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Miles Miller Growth is about becoming a better version of yourself every day.

Your feelings are valid and it's okay to seek help. Sometimes we need to reach out even when it feels hard. Maybe talking to someone who understands, like a mental health expert, could help you find a way forward.

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Jackson Jackson Time is a dressmaker specializing in alterations.

Feeling this way can be incredibly tough, and you deserve support through it. It might be helpful to connect with someone who can listen without judgment, such as a mental health professional or a supportive friend or family member.

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