Hello there!
It's totally normal to feel this way when you're under a lot of pressure from studying, when your life feels a bit dull and predictable, and when you're trying to figure out what you want to do with your life. It's okay if you don't know what you want to do yet!
It's okay, we can think about it slowly during the growth process.
You're absolutely right! It will get better in a few years. Then you'll have graduated and your life will change, and studying won't be your main focus anymore.
But why wait for "life to change"? You can make a little change in your life right now!
For example, you could try growing a plant and watching it break through the soil and grow strong.
For example, you could go out with friends to an unfamiliar place for a trip, or just to hang out and let off steam.
For example, you could go for a lovely walk by yourself, taking in the beautiful blue sky and white clouds, and all the lovely changes in your surroundings.
For example, you could bring some cat and dog food and feed the stray cats and dogs in the neighborhood.
For example, you could write a letter to someone special. In it, you can tell them about how you're feeling. You can even choose not to send it if you want to.
For example, you could try paper quilling, pottery, art, leather goods making, flower arranging, photography, or anything else that requires time and effort to produce a work of art.
For example, you could get involved in some public welfare activities.
For example, you could try taking a different route home!
For example, why not treat yourself to a cake you've never tried before and go to a fancy restaurant you've never been to?
Hey there! I just wanted to encourage you to try new things and realize that there is so much more to life than studying. There's food, warmth, friendship, family, and all kinds of fun hobbies out there! The world is so beautiful and colorful, and it's important to remember that. I know it can be easy to get caught up in studying, but it's also good to take a step back and enjoy life.
Every answer you give, every word you write, every feeling you have, and every drop of sweat you shed will make a difference. They are all signs that the world will become a brighter place because of you.
The world will be a better place because of you! You are so unique and precious, and your presence will make a difference.


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I can totally relate to feeling like you're losing yourself in the pursuit of good grades. It's so hard when you're trying so hard to secure a better future but end up questioning who you are in the process. I hope you find a balance where you can study and still stay true to yourself.
It sounds like you've been through a lot, pushing yourself to the limit for your studies. Sometimes we need to step back and remember that our identity isn't just defined by our grades. It's important to carve out time for what makes you, you, and not let school consume everything.
Your dedication to studying is impressive, but it's also crucial to preserve your mental health and individuality. Maybe finding a hobby or activity that brings you joy outside of academics can help remind you of who you are beyond the books.
You're right; it's scary to feel like you're turning into a machine. But remember, your worth isn't tied to your academic performance. Try to reconnect with what sparked your initial love for learning. That might help you regain a sense of self while striving for success.
Feeling like you have to sacrifice your emotions and personality for the sake of grades is tough. Perhaps setting smaller, manageable goals can help maintain your motivation without losing yourself. It's all about finding that sweet spot between ambition and authenticity.