Hello, question asker!
From what you've told me, I can see how much you miss your grandmother, and I admire your filial piety towards your parents. I'm also aware of the mental disability that prevented you from seeing your grandmother for the last time. I'm here for you if you need anything.
I know you're feeling sad and vulnerable because of the pressure. It's normal to have some negative thoughts about Grandma when you're feeling this way. Everyone has some negative emotions when they're stressed and uncomfortable. I'm here to support you in finding a bright path to guide you. Maybe Grandma's spirit in heaven is protecting you. I hope you'll go on bravely.
As you mentioned, you still have your loving parents. Even though Grandma isn't with you anymore, she'll always be with you in spirit. No one can replace her, but her love will always be there to help you get through this tough time.
So don't blame yourself. Grandma will feel sad if she sees it. What you need to do is face this uncomfortable feeling and this pressure head-on. Only in this way can you get out of it and continue to receive Grandma's love. Only in this way can this family become even warmer. What do you think?
I don't know if I can offer any guarantees, but I do know that making sudden changes can help you to heal and relieve the pressure. I believe in you, so please believe in yourself. You will find a way through this. I have to admit that I feel like I've achieved nothing so far, but I haven't given up either, so don't give up. Let's struggle together and work hard together, and we will find a way through this.
I'd suggest you speak to your parents about what's going on.
The best way to deal with this kind of pressure is to communicate well with your parents so that they understand you and can be there for you. This will help relieve the pressure and ensure you continue to feel your parents' love and support.
Then, have your parents take you to see a counselor.
I think you've come here with a glimmer of hope, and you even understand that psychological counseling is only for normal people, right? So, ask your parents to take you to see a counselor. Let the counselor use their professional skills to help you soothe your inner sadness. They can even use hypnosis to help you say goodbye to your grandmother properly. Then, with their help, you will slowly gain the strength to solve this problem yourself.
Finally, believe in yourself. We all have the ability to solve our own problems. When you realize you have this thought and speak up, you're actually helping yourself. I've been through this before, and this is one way for us to save ourselves. So don't be afraid, just don't give up, and believe that you will be able to find a breakthrough. We all have unlimited potential. As long as we believe in something, we will be able to do it.
Ultimately, I still want to tell you, dear, don't be afraid, it's okay. In today's world, stress is not just a problem for students, but also for adults. It's okay. We just need to face it bravely. When you really face it, you'll find that it's not that scary. If you're ever feeling down, you can always come to this platform. My friends and I on this platform will always be with you, never fear.
Remember to face it head on and with courage. It might be tough at first, but practice makes perfect. With time, we can all become the masters of our own destiny.


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I'm really sorry to hear about your grandmother's passing. It must be incredibly hard, especially feeling so close to her. Losing someone we love can make us question everything and feel lost.
It sounds like you're carrying a heavy burden of grief and guilt. I know it's tough, but try to remember that your grandmother wouldn't want you to blame yourself for what happened. She would want you to take care of yourself and cherish the memories you shared.
The loss of a loved one can shake our world, especially when we grow up in such a nurturing environment. It's okay to feel this way, but please don't let the pain isolate you. Reach out to your family and friends; they are there for you and can offer support during these difficult times.
I understand how painful it is not to have been able to say goodbye. Maybe you could find a way to create a personal ceremony in her memory, something that feels meaningful to you. It might help bring some closure and peace.
It's great that you're trying to change your perspective by reading and reflecting. That's a positive step towards healing. Just remember, it's okay to seek professional help if you feel overwhelmed. Sometimes talking to a therapist can provide the guidance you need.