Dear Question Asker, My name is Yi, and I am a psychological counselor. I understand that you are experiencing a sense of meaninglessness and loneliness. I commend you for seeking support and assistance from others during this challenging time. I am grateful for your trust and would like to extend a gesture of warmth and support through a hug. Best regards, Yi
You stated, "At my age, I don't feel loved, I don't have a partner or friends," and "I'm just introverted, just stupid, slow to learn, and don't understand why I'm so annoying." When I hear these things, I feel a deep sense of despair and loneliness. I believe that if I were in that kind of situation, I probably wouldn't feel the meaning of life either, and I would also feel the indifference of the world and my own loneliness.
Due to the limited information available, I have conducted an analysis of the situation. It appears that the incident of being deleted has triggered a strong emotional response. The circumstances surrounding the deletions, whether by colleagues or netizens, are unclear. When you discovered this reality, you may have felt a range of intense emotions, including anger, frustration, loneliness, and a sense of powerlessness. You expressed some of these emotions through deleting the content, but it was not a sufficient outlet. You then turned your attention inward, leading to a sense of meaninglessness in life and ultimately seeking help through online channels.
These are merely my assumptions, and there may be some discrepancies with the facts. However, since we are not interacting in real time, I am unable to verify this aspect. I will continue with my own line of thinking for the time being. Despite your conclusion that life is meaningless, I believe you still have expectations for life and for people. That is why I and other netizens can see and hear your voice. What are these expectations? Do they also include an inner desire for relationships and a certain degree of self-acceptance? For instance, "Introversion is just a trait, but it is not a disadvantage. Stupid people are often more sincere and attentive, and they just need more time to learn slowly, and what they learn slowly may be more solid. In fact, I am not that annoying." Perhaps at the moment, no one truly understands me, and something unexpected may have occurred, causing others to misunderstand me. I have experienced some setbacks today, but that does not mean it will always be like this. There may be some variables waiting for me, and things may not be as bad as they seem.
I am unsure if you have comparable desires and needs. If you are able to do so, I recommend exploring your inner psychological world to gain insight into your true thoughts and needs.
The above represents my hypothesis, and it is my hope that it will provide you with the support you require. Should you feel that you cannot undertake this process alone, it is recommended that you seek professional assistance, such as the listening and psychological counseling services available on the Yi Xinli platform. These services can help you explore aspects of yourself and your relationships.


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I understand feeling lost and questioning the meaning of life can be incredibly tough. It seems like you're going through a rough patch where connections feel severed and that's really hard. Sometimes people drift apart due to changes in their own lives, not because of anything you've done. Maybe reaching out to new communities or activities that interest you could help build fresh connections.
Feeling isolated and wondering why former connections seem distant can stir up a lot of pain. But remember, your value isn't determined by others' actions. Introversion and taking time to learn things is perfectly okay; it's part of who you are. Consider seeking out spaces where you can meet others who appreciate you for you. Therapy might also offer support in navigating these feelings and building selflove.
It sounds deeply painful to feel as if you're being pushed away and to struggle with loneliness. But know that being introverted or learning at your own pace doesn't make you unlikable. Sometimes people lose touch for reasons unrelated to you. Focusing on selfcare and finding joy in solitary activities can enrich your life. You might also find comfort and friendship in online groups or local clubs that match your interests.