Greetings! I extend a warm embrace from afar as a gesture of solidarity and support.
One may experience feelings of guilt and self-blame when one causes harm to oneself and others as a result of an emotional collapse caused by the accumulation of negative emotions that have been suppressed and hidden over time.
The notion of a "good" or "bad" emotion, or a "right" or "wrong" emotion, is a fallacy. Emotions must be observed, accepted, and responded to because they are indications of unmet expectations or needs, particularly in the case of negative emotional feelings.
From your description, it can be seen that in interpersonal relationships, you strongly reject your negative emotions and only retain your positive emotions. Emotions can be conceptualized as the flow of internal energy. By refusing to express negative emotions, you are effectively rejecting a portion of your own energy flow.
Therefore, this particular aspect of the energy in question is unable to flow as it should. When such energy accumulates to a certain extent, beyond the limits that the body and mind can bear, it may be released in ways that are difficult to imagine. What are your thoughts on this matter?
It is therefore recommended that individuals attempt to accept negative emotions and allow them to be expressed. Despite the potential for distress that negative emotions may cause, it is important to develop a constructive relationship with these emotions. One method of managing the intensity of emotions is through deep breathing. Additionally, maintaining a mood journal can assist in understanding and responding to emotions in a more constructive manner. This process involves recognizing the underlying needs that may be influencing emotions and exploring ways to meet those needs more effectively.
All emotions are a natural and beneficial aspect of the human experience. They are a vital flow of inner energy that should be acknowledged, accepted, and responded to.
I am the diminutive auditory apparatus of the Question and Answer Pavilion, Lily World, and I hold you in high regard.


Comments
I can relate to feeling calm most of the time but sometimes exploding over minor issues. It sounds like you're dealing with intense emotions that come out unexpectedly, which can be really tough. Maybe it's worth exploring these reactions further, seeing if there's an underlying cause.
It seems like you carry a lot on your shoulders silently. The sudden bursts of anger might be a sign of pentup stress finding a way out. Have you considered talking to someone about what triggers these episodes? Sometimes just sharing can lighten the load.
Your description paints a picture of someone who is usually peaceful but occasionally feels overwhelmed. It could be beneficial to practice mindfulness or meditation to manage those spikes in emotion. These practices might help keep things more balanced.
You mention a family history of similar behavior, which suggests a genetic component. If this concerns you, perhaps consulting a professional could provide some insight and coping strategies. There's no shame in seeking support for emotional health.
It's interesting how others see you as carefree while you experience such deep sensitivity inside. This disconnect can be challenging. Finding healthy outlets for your feelings, like journaling or art, might help bridge that gap between perception and reality.