Hello, I'm Mu Rong.
From your writing, it's clear that you resist school and are treated roughly by your parents. You feel painfully disappointed and want your parents to care more about your true inner feelings.
You said you decided to leave. Do you mean leaving home? It's clear you're angry at your parents for neglecting you. You want them to pay attention to you, right?
It's been eight hours since you posted your question. I don't know where you are right now, but I'm worried about your safety. Go home first, and we'll discuss your situation together.
You say your parents often criticize you, saying they're doing it for your own good, but they don't let you express yourself. You've become used to not expressing yourself. I can feel your frustration, anger, and resistance. You need to tell your parents why you resist school. Did you suffer an injustice at school?
The pain I suffered at school was more unbearable than physical pain. I don't know your pain, but you need to find someone you can confide in. Is there anyone close to you, like a friend, teacher, or classmate, who can listen to you?
You need to tell your parents how you feel.
You want your parents to understand that they are treating you wrong, so you're willing to hurt yourself. They still don't see your needs.
As a fellow parent, I can also sense that your parents seem to be very worried and anxious when dealing with you, and are full of contradictions. For example, they say they are doing what is best for you, but they don't know what to do to truly do that. On the one hand, they want you to go to school, but on the other, they see you get hurt and take you home with them, distressed. They need to learn how to express their worries and anxieties.
You need to express your needs in a different way. Write a letter to your parents or record a voice message. Tell them everything that has happened at school. Make sure they understand that you need their care and understanding right now. Then, talk to them about what you have been through.
I'd like to know your thoughts on this.
You don't want to go to school, but you're willing to learn. That's great. There are now a lot of online resources for secondary school learning, and you can continue to learn at home. If you want, you can also learn at home. It will ensure your academic performance. It will also make your parents feel at ease about your studies and allow them to spend more time with you in other ways.
Finally, we can see your needs, and you are welcome to come to One Mind to talk about them.
I am confident that the above will be helpful. The world and I love you.


Comments
I'm really sorry you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the support that you need. It's really important to talk to someone who can, like a counselor or a trusted adult.
It sounds incredibly tough and isolating for you right now. Everyone needs someone who listens. Maybe there's a friend or a teacher who could understand what you're going through.
You're clearly in a lot of pain and it's heartbreaking that you feel so misunderstood. Have you considered reaching out to a helpline? Sometimes talking to strangers can be easier because they don't know you.
Feeling unheard at home and disliked at school must be so hard. There are people out there who want to help you and listen. Don't give up on finding them.
I wish I could make things better for you. It's crucial to find someone safe to talk to about these feelings before making any drastic decisions.