Hello, young lady. I can see you're feeling a bit confused right now, and I want you to know I'm here for you.
I believe you may be experiencing some behavioral issues. Please allow me to give you a warm hug again.
It is thought that people going through a grieving process, such as the death of a loved one, may go through the following five stages, according to the Swiss-American psychiatrist Elisabeth Kübler-Ross.
1.) Denial
2.) Anger
3.) Pleading
4.) Depression
5.) Acceptance
Please note that the above references are from the Internet.
It is understandable that you might feel some self-blame at this time. It's possible that if you had called your mother earlier, found that you could not get in touch with her, and rushed her to the hospital for treatment, she might not have died.
However, your mother unfortunately passed away from the virus. It is possible that her rheumatoid arthritis may have been caused by overwork, and she was already 60 years old.
Furthermore, at the time, you were also infected with the virus, so it was not entirely your fault that you did not contact her in time.
Your mother unfortunately passed away due to the impact of some underlying illnesses and her advanced age (60 years old).
Furthermore, you requested that your husband administer antipyretics and antiviral drugs to your mother.
It may seem unfair that your mother passed away just three days after contracting the coronavirus. It is important to remember that the virus can be particularly challenging for older individuals.
It is also understandable to be concerned about the possibility of becoming seriously ill.
It might be helpful to consider that, as long as you pay more attention to work-life balance, eat lightly, don't stay up late, exercise more, eat more vegetables and fruits, and take more vitamin C, illness will generally find you.
I'm not sure if you were able to give your mother a last goodbye, as your description doesn't say. If not, it might be helpful to seek professional counseling, as a counselor may be able to assist you in having a final farewell with your mother.
The counselor may employ the "empty chair technique."
One technique that may be helpful is the "empty chair technique." This involves sitting in one chair and imagining your mother sitting in the other, empty chair. You can then tell her everything you want to say to her, including how you have lived with remorse every day since she died.
It is often the case that once you have spoken about something, you are able to move on from it.
When my mother passed away more than six years ago, I experienced a similar range of emotions to what you are currently going through. It was a challenging period.
I was fortunate to receive comfort from my mother's college friends in this way.
While my mother's body may have left this world, her spirit is still with me, watching over and protecting me in ways I cannot see.
If you were to consider this viewpoint, might it not help to improve your outlook?
After all, you still have two children to take care of, so it would be best to continue to be strong and brave and live on. I believe this is what your late mother would want most to see, and it would be the best consolation for her.
I believe your mother would want you to find a way to move on from the grief and depression you are experiencing.
I truly hope that you will be able to find a solution to the problems you are facing soon.
I hope these thoughts are helpful for now.
I hope my answers are helpful and inspiring. I'm here to support you in any way I can. Please know that I'm always available to chat if you need someone to talk to. Study hard every day.
At Yixinli, we extend our warmest regards to you and the entire world.


Comments
I can't imagine what you've been through. Losing both your father and mother under such circumstances must have been incredibly painful. It's important to remember that you're not responsible for what happened. Your mother's passing was due to the virus, something beyond anyone's control.
It's natural to feel guilt after losing a loved one, especially when we wish we could have done more. But please don't blame yourself for what occurred. You did what you could at the time, even arranging for medicine to be sent. Sometimes, despite our best efforts, things still happen that are out of our hands.
The grief you're experiencing is profound, and it's affecting every part of your life. It's okay to feel this way; these emotions are part of the healing process. Maybe reaching out to a therapist or counselor could help you work through some of these feelings of guilt and loss.
Your mother wouldn't want you to live in pain and fear. She would want you to take care of yourself and your children. Try to focus on their needs and find strength in them. They need you now more than ever.
You've been carrying this immense weight alone for too long. Consider sharing your feelings with close friends or family who can offer support. Opening up might help you start to heal and move forward.