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By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024
Hello! I hope you know that I'm thinking of you and sending you a warm hug from afar.
It might be helpful to acknowledge any traumatic memories or shadows in your heart that you witnessed your parents leaving.
Although you were very young at the time, it is likely that everything you witnessed was forever fixed in that moment. As a young child, you may have instinctively suppressed the deep fear, helplessness, powerlessness, and grief you felt at that moment in the face of such a significant loss. However, it is possible that all those emotional feelings were remembered by your body at that moment.
It is important to remember that, even though the incident is over, the emotional feelings you have because of it will always be there.
Allow yourself to experience the full range of emotions that arise when you recall that scene today. Try to stay with these uncomfortable emotions and observe the physical and mental reactions that accompany them. If it feels too overwhelming, you can take three to five deep breaths to help you cope with the intensity of the emotions and the discomfort in your body. This can help you better understand the underlying needs that are driving the emotions. For instance, you might recognize a desire for love, attention, and support, as well as a fear of being abandoned.
If you can try to become aware of your uncomfortable emotional feelings and explore the needs behind them, you may find that you try to give yourself these needs in response and satisfaction in the way of the ideal good parents. At the same time, you may also wish to consider writing a letter to your parents who have left you, expressing the harm their actions have caused you and expressing your deep love for them. You may find that you live a good life with the beautiful experiences they have left you, and you may even hope that they will live happily in the other world.
I am Lily, the little answering machine, and I just wanted to say that I love you, the world, and I hope you love me back.
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This is such a deeply tragic experience to have faced at such a young age. Losing your parents without understanding why must have been incredibly confusing and painful.
Reflecting on this now, it's clear that you've carried a heavy burden for many years. The imagery of seeing them leave in such a manner must be haunting.
It sounds like you've endured a lot of emotional turmoil. Those dreams filled with blood seem to symbolize the trauma and the unresolved grief you've been experiencing.
Your story brings to light how profoundly childhood traumas can impact our lives. It's heartbreaking to hear about the loneliness and fear you must have felt as a child.
I can only imagine how challenging it has been for you to process these events. The loss and the way it happened likely left you with so many unanswered questions.