I get it.
"I don't remember my childhood. My parents talk about it, but it feels like they're talking about someone else."
You want to forget the past. Why?
Freud said that what you go through as a child often affects how you live your life. Some things you don't even realize are there, but they still affect you.
Don't avoid talking to your past self. You might find the reason for your problems in the present.
"Dizziness, nausea, memory loss, difficulty thinking, laziness, and stupidity. Is this the innocent and happy girl your parents described?"
Your parents want you to be a happy, innocent girl. You try to be this girl, but you don't think you are.
"There seems to be no joy in my life, and I almost always fail. When will this end?" You don't think highly of yourself. You lack confidence, and you're afraid that your efforts won't be recognized, that you won't be able to meet your parents' expectations, and that no one will think you're good.
You feel dizzy, nauseous, have a poor memory, find it hard to think, and become lazy and stupid.
These are excuses for your lack of self-confidence and fear of trying hard. This way of thinking and acting creates a vicious circle.
Your mindset, how far you can go on your own, and whether you've done your best are key to measuring your success.
Change your attitude and boost your self-confidence. There are good books on this.
Change how others judge you. Go back to your childhood, find the real you, release your energy, work hard, and you will achieve your goal.
Your body will heal if your mind is healthy.


Comments
I can relate to feeling disconnected from my past sometimes. It's strange how memories can fade or never form in the first place. I wish I could find some peace and happiness within myself again.
It sounds like you're carrying a heavy burden, and it's okay to feel this way. Sometimes life feels too overwhelming, and we need to take a moment to breathe and acknowledge our struggles.
Your feelings are valid, and it's important not to blame yourself for what you're experiencing. Seeking help from a professional might offer some guidance and relief.
The disconnect between who your parents remember and how you see yourself must be tough. Maybe talking openly with them about your feelings could bridge that gap.
It's heartbreaking when those closest to us don't understand what we're going through. Finding someone who listens without judgment can make all the difference in feeling less alone.