Do you feel hopeless and extremely low every day for these three days?
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By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024
Every day for these past three days, I have been unable to help feeling extremely low. Every day, I read about the "meaning of life" on Weibo and about online love until two or three in the morning. As a result, I can't concentrate in class and can't keep up. Every day at noon, I wake up in the middle of the day and think about that ex. Because he is so petty, I often think about the online verbal attacks against me in class. Then I still often feel anxious about my own regrets, grievances, and sadness caused by that ex when I'm not in class. He has no morals or feelings, and I'm too pitiful and unworthy of being liked.
In reality, everything is a mess. I never speak to my roommates in the dormitory. There is a girl in my class who has a bad relationship with me. Last night, when I went to the bathroom, she closed the door. I told my English teacher in a humble way that I was delayed and hurt by the scum on the Internet. She said, "You know you are low." Everything is because I have too many worries and I can't control my emotions. But how can others sympathize with me? How can they know and understand that I am still living in the shadow of online love and online attacks, suffering every day, and feeling that there is no hope for the future every day?
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Comments
I can totally relate to how you're feeling. It's like the weight of everything just keeps piling on, and it's hard to see a way out when you're constantly reminded of the past. The nights spent scrolling through endless posts about love and life only make it worse. I wish I could say it gets better soon, but for now, it's important to take things one step at a time.
It sounds like you're carrying a lot of emotional baggage, and it's affecting every part of your life. Sometimes, it feels like no one understands what we're going through, especially when it comes to online attacks. Those moments in class, where you're trying to focus but all you can think about is that ex, are really tough. It's hard to shake off those feelings, isn't it?
I get how overwhelming it must be to feel like you're living in the shadow of something that happened in the past. The anxiety and sadness can be so intense that it's hard to even imagine a future where things are better. But maybe, just maybe, taking small steps to distance yourself from the negativity could help. It's not easy, but it might be worth trying.
It's heartbreaking to hear that you feel unworthy of being liked. Everyone deserves to be treated with kindness and respect, no matter what. Maybe it's time to surround yourself with people who lift you up instead of bringing you down. It's okay to reach out for support, even if it feels scary.
The situation with your classmate sounds really difficult. When someone deliberately excludes you or makes you feel unwelcome, it can hurt a lot. It's important to remember that their actions don't define your worth. You deserve to be treated with dignity, and it's okay to set boundaries if needed.