Hello, I'm Mo Xiaofan, a heart exploration coach. I'd like to give the questioner a big, warm hug! Some things are not necessarily as bad as we think — and there's so much to be excited about!
If you don't have anyone to keep you company, you can become your own little sun!
For a while, I had a similar experience to the original poster. I felt like I didn't deserve anything, and I always felt like the whole world was against me. There were many times when I wanted to leave the world, but I also had the incredible opportunity to learn and grow from these experiences!
I once read this sentence: "Stranger, I want to leave, I wonder if you have anything you want to say to me?"
Perhaps we felt the same way, so I told him, "Hello! I don't know what you've been through, but if you ever get the chance, I'd absolutely love it if you could write about it! Where are you going when you leave? Maybe we'll have a common goal!"
Later, we became close online friends and met some new friends online. I learned about the term depression and that some of my symptoms matched the manifestations of depression. During that time, we warmed each other's hearts and learned about the existence of psychology, and we got through that unforgettable time together. It was an incredible journey!
Leaving may be a relief, but it is not the best way to solve problems. Some roads are destined to be traveled alone, and some things are destined to be carried alone—and that's okay!
1. It's time to accept yourself again!
2. Get the understanding and support of your family!
3. Learn to understand others and control your emotions.
4. Learn to care for others! You'll be amazed at how much you can heal yourself by healing others.
5. Start with small things and realize your self-worth!
Later, we met on the Internet and, wouldn't you know it, we forgot each other on the Internet! At that time, we all had our own nicknames. Some were called the Night Watchman, some were called quietly waiting for the dawn to come, and I was called Wind Without Trace. Each name had a different meaning behind it!
The night watchman says he likes to stay in the dark and doesn't want to see the light because at night he can't find his sense of existence. The person waiting for dawn is just the opposite of him. He wants to see the first ray of light because it is a new beginning. He doesn't want to miss out on a single day! I want to leave a little trace, but I'm afraid of leaving. Maybe I can be like the wind, which can give people a hint of coolness and prove that I have existed. If you look carefully, there is no trace of my existence, but that's okay because I'm going to make a big impact!
In fact, we can all give ourselves a unique name! Our given names were chosen by our parents before we were born, but our pen names or screen names have their own unique meaning because they belong to us and carry our own unique stories.
Along the way, I have seen many incredible landscapes and heard many fascinating stories. In fact, everyone is a book worth devouring! Life may have its share of disappointments, but it also has many surprises. It's like psychology. If it weren't for that experience, I might not have embarked on the path of self-healing, I wouldn't have met them, and I wouldn't have the little fan pot now.
It's so wonderful to have someone listen to what's in your heart! If you can, I really hope you won't leave us easily, and I also hope you won't leave this world easily. Okay?
I am Xiaofan Guoguo, and I love the world and everyone in it!


Comments
I can feel how deeply you're hurting and it's really tough when everything feels so heavy and dark. Remember, it's okay to seek help and talk to someone who can support you.
Life has its ups and downs, and it sounds like you're in a very low place right now. It might not feel like it, but things can get better with time and the right kind of support.
It's heartbreaking that you're feeling this way. Please know there are people out there who care and resources available to help you through these hard times.
When we're in pain, it's easy to lose sight of our worth. You're not alone in this, and reaching out for professional help is a brave step towards healing.
Feeling worthless and incompetent doesn't mean it's true. Sometimes we need others to help us see our value and potential. There's always hope for change.