He doesn't even buy things for me from outsiders, and he won't pay my school fees. Am I really not worth any fatherly love?

When you were young, you couldn't protect yourself from your family. You were too young to resist and couldn't protect yourself. You could only endure being bullied and hurt.

Your age doesn't make you wrong.

Baby, every child is an angel when they are born. You are one of the most beautiful angels, but you were born into a bad family. You have suffered so much.

Baby, you didn't cause your problems. Your father didn't love you less because you were bad.

Maybe he had a rough childhood, or maybe he wasn't taught well. Maybe he learned to be selfish, or maybe he had marital problems with your mother. There are many reasons why he wasn't a good father. He wasn't prepared and made you suffer. I'm sorry on behalf of your father.

Dad didn't mean to do it. He wanted to live as he pleased and made you suffer. I'm sorry.

You may feel sadder after reading this because I'm speaking for him. He doesn't know his problems and doesn't feel guilty.

You feel pain because you never felt your father's love. You are desperate because he failed to take responsibility for your upbringing. You don't know how to take care of yourself or pay for your tuition. He didn't give you a complete family, which affected your studies, social life, and everything in your life. So you hate him, but you can't do anything about it because he is the adult and you are the child.

You're in so much pain, you want to end it all.

But it's him who's wrong. If you hurt yourself, how much can you hurt him?

What about your mom, brother, or grandma? How sad will they be?

You've grown strong, and you want to live and experience the world. What can't you let go of?

You're having problems and don't know how to solve them. As you get older, you'll be able to take care of and protect yourself. The pain caused by your father will disappear. Maybe one day, he'll apologize and ask you to forgive him. People change, and so will you and he.

You might meet a nice girl and her parents will treat you like their son. Many people will love you if you give them a chance. But if you commit suicide, you will miss out on all the good things in life.

Are you willing to suffer for nothing?

Breathe. Think about happy times. What happened? How did you feel?

Do you want to feel happy? What do you want your future to be like?

Who are you with? What are you doing?

If your life can be so wonderful, how much do you want to hurt yourself now? How much is the desire to save yourself?

Let's talk about how to save yourself.

Take it one step at a time. The most urgent problem is the tuition fees. Try to solve that first.

You tried to talk to your father, but he didn't listen. Since your relationship with your father is already like this, there is nothing more to worry about.

He doesn't care about you. If you don't care about him, can you think of any other ways to resolve this?

I have a few options for you.

1. If your father is respectful, talk to your grandparents and let them talk to your father.

2. If your father is worried about losing face, ask your uncles and aunts to speak up for you. He may be willing to pay because of social pressure.

3. If the above two options don't work, ask your mom for advice. She'll know what to do.

4. If your mother doesn't know what to do, you can ask for help from the community, child protection, or even lawyers and the police. But before that, you can discuss with your father again the seriousness of the matter and your determination to pay the tuition fees.

5. If that doesn't work, you can also contact the woman she's seeing and ask her to speak up for you. Your father should give it to you if she asks.

6. If she won't help, find another way. The internet has lots of options.

7. If you don't go to vocational school, think about how you can support yourself. When you can support yourself, you can create your own future. There are many ways to study in life.

Think about it. You can come up with better solutions. I've listed these because I want to help. I'm not telling you to follow them, but you should know there are other options.

Any choice has consequences, so be careful. Take responsibility for yourself.

No matter what you decide, remember there are more solutions than problems. If you calm down, believe in yourself, think, ask, and work on the problem, your life will get better.

Don't be a coward. Work hard and problems will be solved. Give yourself time.

We are here for you. The future is bright. Don't give up.

Courage! Move on!

Come on!