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How should I kill myself? I'm only 15, is it too late? Reality cannot be changed!

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How should I kill myself? I'm only 15, is it too late? Reality cannot be changed! By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024

Medication and psychological treatment are useless, and reality remains unchangeable. Over the past two years, my depression has become more and more serious. Now I feel a bit (*´◐∀◐`*) retarded and a bit perverted. Many people are in this shell... I have lost hope and have no countermeasures. I live painfully every day. I taught myself psychology, but I can only see the sky above the well, and I can see through the people at the well, but I still can't see through the confused self in the well. I am becoming more and more empty, and I am deeply tormented by invisible loneliness. I have never self-harmed, not because I am afraid, but because hurting myself is meaningless. Why should I let myself become the stereotype of depression?

Suicide? Even more vulgar, that's just stupid!

You're going to die, and you can't even get rid of the person you hate? Reality may make it impossible for you to go on living, so why not live in your own fantasy?

Isn't this better than being hung up? To be happy and carefree, don't we all need someone to lead us out of our own labyrinth? It's best to be oneself, but oneself is also the worst, for oneself leads oneself astray in one's own labyrinth. How ridiculous! As one's vision gradually becomes clearer and wider, one vaguely sees an exit. You rush towards it, only to be stopped. Looking down, you see that it is none other than yourself!

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When I looked again, I realized that there was only a mirror. Looking around, I realized that it was just a circle with no exit. But that was reality... I left...

Penelope Frances Turner Penelope Frances Turner A total of 4080 people have been helped

I was taken aback by the tone of your headline. Would it not be more accurate to describe this period as one of hope?

This is a period of growth and development. What experiences have led to this sense of desperation? It has been two years. What events have transpired during this time?

One might inquire as to the rationale behind the self-critical attitude and perceived desperation.

It is distressing to read this account on a digital screen. I empathize with your situation and wish I could offer you a more comforting gesture.

I am unaware of the specific circumstances you have endured. However, I am confident that there are solutions to the challenges you are facing, and that you have the potential to overcome them as long as you remain alive.

If there has been no discernible improvement in the past two years, it may be beneficial to consider whether the individuals with whom you have been consulting are the most appropriate. Alternatively, it may be helpful to seek the advice of a different counselor.

You have sought assistance because you perceive the possibility of a solution, though you have not yet identified the optimal approach.

One must first consider whether the causes of distress are worth enduring. When faced with a dilemma, it is important to identify potential avenues for alleviation.

It is unclear whether this method has been attempted. One potential approach is to maintain a diary.

It is recommended that you record your confusion and hopes. It is unlikely that anyone can fully empathize with you, but meeting the right person may help you to feel more relaxed. It is important to note that only you know yourself best.

Secondly, it is my belief that it takes more than one day for a person to become so callous. It is likely that you have experienced something in the past that has caused you to become this way. Only you can save yourself. Every child has the potential to become a good person. It is the different education that parents give them every day that gives their children a different life.

If one is unable to exert control over others, it may be beneficial to consider modifying one's own behavior. It would be valuable to ascertain whether this approach is something one is willing to attempt.

In addition to pharmacological intervention, it is advisable to seek the expertise of a different medical professional.

It is possible that the next counselor may be more helpful. However, given the lack of familiarity with your specific circumstances, it is difficult to make a definitive assessment.

In conclusion, words can inflict significant harm. Each child possesses distinctive characteristics, and their behavior may vary across different developmental stages.

It is erroneous to suggest that self-harm is inherently wrong. Indeed, it is entirely possible for a child to be kind to themselves.

It is recommended that you attempt to reconcile with yourself. Additionally, there are free listeners on the Yixin platform who can be booked.

I am of the opinion that you are capable of doing so. Would you be interested in attempting it?

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Ursus Phillips Ursus Phillips A total of 3429 people have been helped

First and foremost, it's never a good idea to commit suicide.

Second, you need to think carefully about whether the reality you want to change is about you or someone else.

It's up to you, and it's much easier to change. If you're able to, go ahead and make changes. If you're not, give yourself more time, learn more, and wait for things to improve.

If it's about other people or things that have nothing to do with you, why worry about it? If it has a profound and direct impact on you, then be open to the influence of others. Sometimes it's not a bad thing to accept a certain kind of influence from the outside world.

What you call a light-hearted and clear-sighted view is actually just a feeling and judgment based on limited knowledge. People and interpersonal relationships are complex, and we learn more about them as we go along. You'll find that most of these components are interesting, and that the myriad of human conditions is wonderful.

You talk about feeling confused, angry, and ridiculous. But many people have survived this. Looking back a few years from now, they'll see that those confused feelings in their youth have helped them mature. They'll realize that they've become people with deep thoughts, profound feelings, and a moving past.

Don't worry about the end result because it hasn't even begun yet. Best wishes!

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Ruby Fernandez Ruby Fernandez A total of 4217 people have been helped

Hello! I'll give you a hug.

Being able to feel your inner self-criticism, denial, helplessness, and powerlessness, as well as the desire to be loved.

You don't want to die. Suicide is a way to get help. It could also be that you're resisting unfair treatment.

Write down your feelings in a diary. This helps you understand your emotions, find out what you need, and respond to your needs in a better way.

Moderate fantasies can help with powerlessness and frustration, but dwelling on them can make people avoid problems. Over time, they may become helpless and unable to cope.

Right?

Our emotions and how we react to events in our lives are caused by our thoughts. If we think negatively and attribute good things to others, we will feel hopeless and powerless.

Also, our thoughts, feelings, and actions are affected by how we see ourselves and the future. If we see ourselves as losers, we may feel dependent, blame ourselves, and demand perfection. These can lead to depression.

The key to overcoming depression is correcting unreasonable thoughts.

1. Identify unreasonable beliefs.

Hoping for something to happen a certain way.

For example, "Other people must treat me well, and I must succeed." Things happen for a reason.

b. Don't judge yourself or others based on one thing they've done.

c. It's terrible. Bad things happen.

Nothing is 100% bad. We must see ourselves as individuals. As long as we are willing to change, we can all change.

2. Socratic questioning: This helps us debate with our irrational beliefs.

3. Imagine yourself having the wrong emotional responses to situations you find hard. See how strong your feelings are and think about what you really need.

4. Tell your family and friends how you feel and what you need.

I'm Lily, the listener at the Q&A. The world and I love you.

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Elena Elena A total of 7752 people have been helped

Host: Someone of a similar age to you also suffered from depression, but it wasn't as serious as yours. I also had severe depression for the first three months of 2022. I lost control of my emotions, cried, felt hopeless, and felt meaningless from time to time.

Theory after theory tells us to do things like exercise, find someone to talk to, listen to music, etc. I don't have the energy to do any of it, so it's clear that none of these things are going to work.

I even doubt these theories.

I got out later. 1. Release your emotions.

My balcony is my safe haven. Every morning, I close the door, tell my family not to disturb me, and play "Glorious Years" while imagining myself in a safe womb, letting the images appear in my mind at will. Then I let the emotions of hatred, grievance, remorse, and regret well up one after the other, sometimes standing, sometimes sitting, with tears streaming down my face.

When you've cried enough, stop. 2. Increase touch and strengthen the connection with reality.

Many people injure themselves because they believe their sensitivity has decreased. If you haven't yet developed the need to feel alive through feeling pain,

We can mop the floor, do the laundry, grip hard objects, and mobilize our sensory abilities. We must slowly feel the feedback from real objects.

3. Force yourself to go outside. The wind and temperature may make you want to stay downstairs, but you need to get out of the house.

If you can, do some light exercise to get your cells to tell you that you are alive and doing OK.

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Cerise Jackson Honesty is the cornerstone of a solid community.

I feel you deeply, and it's okay to not be okay. Life can be overwhelmingly tough sometimes. We all have our battles that we fight alone in the dark.

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Jesse Davis Life is a pendulum that swings between pain and pleasure.

It's important to remember that there is no shame in seeking help or feeling lost. Your feelings are valid, but try not to lose hope; sometimes the smallest light can guide us out of the darkest places.

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Lauren Anderson Teachers are the connectors who link students to the world of knowledge and opportunities.

You're expressing a lot of pain and confusion, which shows your depth and sensitivity. Consider reaching out to someone who can listen without judgment, whether it's a friend, family member, or professional. Sometimes talking helps lighten the load.

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Maureen Thomas The breadth of one's knowledge is like a vast garden, with different flowers of knowledge blooming.

I admire your selfawareness and willingness to explore your own mind. It sounds like you've been through a lot. Have you tried connecting with others who might understand what you're going through? Peer support groups can be really helpful.

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Padraig Miller Failure is the seasoning that gives success its unique flavor.

Your words resonate with me on a personal level. I've felt trapped too, but over time I've found small things that bring joy back into my life. Maybe you could experiment with finding something that brings you peace or happiness, even if it's just for a moment.

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