Dear questioner, Greetings!
From what I can see, you have had some challenging experiences. I want to offer you a warm hug and reassure you that you are not alone in facing these difficulties. We all find ourselves in a circle of relationships and constantly moving in and out of other circles, adapting to new environments and constantly honing ourselves. From what I can see, you are a bit of an introvert, living a bit cautiously, with low self-esteem, sensitivity and even doubts about your own abilities. You are afraid of communicating with people. All of this is not only because of the two work experiences you have had before, but also related to your own personality. You lack confidence. You realize that you don't have professional skills or accumulated experience at work, so you took the initiative to find a friend's company to learn from. This is a great way to gain new skills. Many things are like traveling. When you decide to set off, the most difficult part is actually already done.
You may recognize some areas of your life that could use improvement and feel inspired to make a change. However, you may lack self-confidence and find it challenging to engage with new environments. You might also feel uncertain about your abilities or experience in certain situations. It's understandable to feel this way. You've made a courageous decision to embark on this journey, and it's natural to feel apprehensive about the unknown. But remember, you're not alone. Many people face similar challenges and have found ways to overcome them. You're on the path to becoming a better version of yourself. You're learning new skills and gaining valuable experience. You're learning to engage in new interpersonal interactions and overcoming your social fears. You're doing it for yourself, and that's a powerful motivation. If you feel like you're not as good as others, remember that you're worthy of respect and kindness. You have strengths and abilities that are just as valuable as anyone else's. If you feel like your expertise isn't enough, it's okay to seek out more knowledge and resources. Learning is a continuous process, and there's always room for improvement.
If you're feeling apprehensive about connecting with others, it might be helpful to take it slow and start with a single person. You can gradually expand your circle by getting to know, understanding, and becoming familiar with one person, then two, three, or even more. It's important to remember that your goal is to learn and grow, and that it's enough to find harmony with everyone. For children who have big dreams, loneliness is often a natural part of the journey. Pursuing excellence often comes with a sense of solitude. When you feel overwhelmed, it's okay to take a step back. Try reading a book, listening to music, going for a walk, watching a movie, or spending time in nature. The world is gentle, and so are you. There are always more solutions than problems. You've taken the first step, so keep going. I'm here to support you and help you grow. Be good, and may your hope be filled with hope. Everyone has experienced pain and challenges. The good news is that you have the power to heal yourself.
No matter how challenging life may seem, it's important to find strength within yourself. What may seem sad now may not hold the same weight in the future. The reason we tend to take pain so seriously is because we haven't experienced enough.
When you feel sad, you might consider telling yourself that this is an opportunity for transformation. I have a favorite quote for you: "No one is forcing you to memorize vocabulary every day until you get a headache and memorize it until dawn.
You are not obliged to search for a job or to leave your hometown.
But you still did it anyway. We have the courage to pursue a life that is rich and full of possibilities. We have the resilience to seek out new experiences and embrace the world beyond our hometowns.
Our hearts always hold our dreams, and we never want to give up. As we are young, we want to have more.
As for what the future will bring, we will only know if we persevere. Maturing involves becoming increasingly at ease with oneself and learning to interact with, accept, and confront one's solitary, adrift, and distressed inner self. Let us strive to be kind!
I hope you know that I will always be here for you, even though we are not together physically.


Comments
I understand how challenging it can be to adapt to new environments, especially after negative experiences. It's important to acknowledge your feelings and know that it's okay to feel this way. Maybe focusing on small victories each day can help build up your confidence. Also, consider seeking a mentor who can provide guidance and support as you navigate through these changes.
It sounds like you've faced some really tough situations in the past. I think it's crucial to work on rebuilding your selfesteem. You might find it helpful to engage in activities outside of work that boost your confidence or to talk to a counselor who can offer professional advice. Remember, it's okay to take things one step at a time.
Feeling inadequate and anxious is hard, but you're not alone in this. Many people struggle with similar feelings when they're starting out. Perhaps you could look into workshops or online courses to enhance your skills. Building a strong foundation in accounting can give you more confidence in your abilities and help you feel more prepared for future challenges.
It's clear you're putting in a lot of effort by studying and interning, even if it's unpaid. That's already a big step forward. Try to see this internship as an opportunity to learn and grow, rather than just another environment to endure. You could also reach out to your network for emotional support; sometimes talking to someone who understands can make all the difference.
The fear of not being good enough or successful in social settings is something many of us face. One thing that might help is practicing social interactions in a safe space, like with friends or in a group setting where you feel comfortable. Over time, this can improve your skills and reduce anxiety. Also, remember that it's okay to set boundaries and prioritize your mental health.