Hello! I'll give you a big, warm hug!
From these few words, I can feel your despair, confusion, powerlessness, and anger. But at the same time, I can also see your struggle, your strength, and your determination to pull yourself out of the quagmire. I'm here for you, and I'm sending you all the love and support you need.
No matter what state you're in, you're trying to move towards the light, towards the sun, growing upwards. What you need is probably a way to look at these bad things that happen to you.
I originally thought I'd use a different word to describe the situation, but as your counselor, I can't just put a label on you. So I used a word that's a little more mild, "bad," to describe what's making you feel so down.
It's so true that how we make it through the day is really about how we see ourselves, others, and the world around us.
Let me start by saying a few words about myself. Just like my signature, I am essentially a very Buddhist and very depressed person. I hate to work and would rather lie down 366 days a year, if I'm being honest! I have very low material desires and am content with meeting my basic needs.
My greatest wish is to go teach in a rural school one day, just find a place where I can teach and earn some basic living expenses. I even signed the organ donation agreement, but I wanted to sign the body donation agreement, but I couldn't find where to sign it.
Life is still long, so I don't worry about it anymore. We'll talk about it later, okay?
When people who know me well don't think I'm a very depressed person, they feel that if I lie down flat, no one else will be pumped up.
This is the second half of my signature. Every now and then, I feel motivated and positive. I do wonder, though, if I should make achievements since it's hard to come to this world once. But most of the time, I'm still both Buddhist and pessimistic.
I think the reason why other people think I'm full of energy is probably related to my behavior. I'm a bit of a perfectionist, and once I start doing something, I want to do it well.
On top of that, I'm pretty good at exams and studying, and I've got a real knack for absorbing knowledge. With just a little effort, I can easily stand out.
In general, there's still a big difference between what others think of me and how I perceive myself. I know myself well, though, and I'm a very pessimistic person. But since junior high school, I've known that I can only be an optimistic pessimist, and I'm okay with that!
Pessimism is the background, optimism the mask. It's because, as human beings, we never live just for ourselves.
I don't know what you've been through, but I'd love to share a little bit of my own journey with you.
First, let's accept what we can't control and take charge of what we can!
I don't know what you've been through, whether it's physical pain or psychological pain, whether it's given to you by others or self-inflicted. Whatever it is, please accept it all, my friend.
It's so important to remember that we don't have much control over other people's actions or thoughts. We can't change others, and we can't control how they act or what they do. We never know who we'll meet or who we'll end up walking with. Sometimes, something we don't think about can change everything.
For example, should you confess your secret love, accept the job offer, go shopping at the weekend, or answer the strange phone call? All these decisions may affect the direction of our lives, so it's good to think things through!
Life is so unpredictable, isn't it? I think the best thing we can do is accept what we can't control.
If you're having a hard time accepting things calmly, it's okay to blame it on someone else. For example, you might say, "It's all their fault. They rejected my confession and made me feel so insecure."
Oh, it's all the fault of those pesky scammers! They're the ones who called to scam me. I'm such a law-abiding citizen that I just couldn't help but fall for it. And then there's this awful disease, preventing me from doing what I want to do.
Oh, wait! You can always try to pass the buck.
I just want to remind you that the point of dumping is not to make you feel sorry for yourself. It's to help you let go of the burden and move on.
Then, take a deep breath and see what you can do in this moment. For example, if a confession is rejected, don't fret! Just move on and try something else.
I was cheated and lost money, so I reported it to the police. Now, I'm just trying to figure out what else I can do. If you get sick, treat the illness as part of yourself. Work with it, and see what else you can do with it.
Do what you can control. For example, we can't control the passage of time, but we can control how we spend every minute and every second.
We can't control everything in life, but we can always work hard to improve ourselves. We may not be able to control the development of an illness, but we can make our lives more interesting by controlling our diet, exercise, mood, etc.
These are things we can control, and we don't need anyone else to do them for us. Let's focus on what we can control and do our best with it!
Secondly, why not start again with a brand new map?
Life is like fighting monsters and leveling up. We will always encounter many people and things that will prevent us from reaching the pinnacle of life, such as a terrible family of origin, meddling relatives, a grumpy boss, etc. I know, I know. They all sound like they'd make you want to explode, right?
I think it can help to think of it as a map in a game. There are some people we can't change or get rid of, so let's just think of them as NPCs that are naturally there.
We all know that in games, NPCs cannot be changed or deleted. The same goes for other players in the game.
We can only accept these things, but in games, we accept them easily. In real life, though, it can be tough!
My advice is to just accept things as they are. Think of the NPCs and other players as part of a bigger plan. Accept that, and then see what you can do.
If all else fails, we can always start over with a new map! Just gather up the things that are bothering you about the current map and either throw them away or put them in the corner of your heart.
Then, take a deep breath and start anew! Set up another stage to sing another opera.
I'd love to share a little of my experience with you. I really hope it'll be useful to you!
I'd also suggest talking to a counselor. I'm a counselor who is often Buddhist and sometimes positive, and I just want to say that I love you and the world.


Comments
I can see you're going through an incredibly tough time and it's important to talk to someone who can offer support, like a professional counselor or a trusted person in your life.
It sounds like you're facing immense challenges right now. Please reach out to a mental health professional who can provide the support you need during this difficult period.
Your message conveys a lot of pain and uncertainty. It might help to connect with people who care about you or seek professional guidance to explore what options are available for support.
You seem to be in a very dark place, and I'm truly sorry you're feeling this way. Have you considered talking to a therapist or a crisis hotline? They can listen and offer assistance.
It's clear you're struggling deeply. If you feel safe doing so, reaching out to a friend, family member, or a healthcare provider could be a step toward finding some relief and support.