I'm guessing you were suppressed from a young age? It's so hard when you feel emotions and they're forced down. I get the feeling that your emotions are forced down, so you must feel very uncomfortable. Emotions are a very natural expression, and if they are forced down, I think it must be very difficult.
I'm wondering if it was your father or your mother who made you feel like you couldn't express your feelings when you were younger? Or maybe it was both of them?
It's okay, I know it can be tough. But it's true that no matter how you get out of a relationship or how you gain love, you still need to get our original love from your parents. This is so that we can learn to love ourselves better and then start to love others better. I feel that you still very much yearn for the state of having a partner and a loving life.
When you're in bed late at night, you can think about your parents or a certain scene from when you were a child when your emotions were suppressed. Talk to your parents in the scene about your emotions and the difficult feelings you had when your emotions were suppressed. If you can, connect with your parents and tell them that you're their child, that they're the people most qualified to be your parents, that you accept them as your parents, that you respect them, and that they're the most important people in your heart. Even though you suppressed my emotions when I was young, you gave birth to me, gave me life, and gave me enough strength. I'm doing well now, and I hope to pass on this strength.
I really hope you can support me!
I'm not sure how effective it will be, but I truly believe it will gradually soothe the hurt feelings inside you. You can think about it silently every night before going to sleep, or even recite it out loud. I truly believe that no matter who gives you pressure, your parents will give you a very strong life force!
I'm sending you lots of love and blessings!


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I understand the pain of suppressing emotions from a young age. It's important to start expressing feelings in safe environments with trusted individuals.
Finding a therapist can be incredibly beneficial. They provide a space where you can explore these suppressed emotions and learn healthier ways to handle them.
Love comes when we open ourselves up. Maybe it's time to join social groups or activities that interest you, allowing connections to form naturally.
It's tough but try opening up to people little by little. Share your thoughts and feelings with someone you trust; it could be a friend or family member.
Consider writing down your feelings. Sometimes articulating emotions on paper can help you understand and eventually express them more openly to others.