Hello. I'm listening.
You feel depressed, out of control, and powerless. You feel useless and wrapped in painful emotions. I want to hug you, but I'm afraid I might offend you.
See your bright spots.
1. Major depression is hard to endure, and you are a hero for controlling suicidal thoughts. You are braver than many people.
2. You are also honest and open, and can express your thoughts clearly.
3. You can think and summarize well.
The past makes you sad.
1. Trivial matters make you cry.
Are these things really just trivial to you? They've touched a wound in your heart and made you sad.
You need to face your old wound to heal it.
To avoid heartache.
2. Emotions speak.
Tears and heartache are your language. Listen to them.
3. Be kind to yourself.
You are special. You have overcome many challenges to get here. Be kind to yourself.


Comments
I hear you saying that while you manage to control thoughts of suicide, you struggle with overwhelming emotions and frequent crying. It sounds really tough, but acknowledging this is a brave first step.
It's touching to hear you speak so openly about your struggles with uncontrollable emotions and sadness. It must be incredibly challenging to go through such intense feelings over small things.
Thank you for sharing such a personal experience. It seems like you're fighting an internal battle, managing to keep some aspects in check while being overwhelmed by others, especially emotions that lead to tears.
Your words reflect a deep emotional struggle, where even though you can prevent certain thoughts from taking over, the surge of sadness and tears feels beyond your grasp. This must be exhausting.