My world is crumbling. It seems like I can't go on living.

Good day. I extend my warmest regards from afar.

I am pleased to see that you have sought assistance. I hope that the information I have provided will be beneficial to you. From your description, it is evident that you have a negative perception of yourself and your boyfriend. Additionally, you lack the ability to make changes in yourself or your boyfriend. Even when faced with certain behaviors from your boyfriend that make you uncomfortable, you are unable to express your true emotions.

Our relationships with others and the world are reflections of our inner selves. Dissatisfaction with a romantic partner, for instance, or concerns about their professional relationships, often stem from disharmony within the individual.

It is important to understand that intimate relationships are not simply about two individuals; they are also about our relationship with our inner selves. In order to maintain an intimate relationship that nourishes and supports both parties, it is essential to fully accept each other and manage your relationship with your inner selves. This requires an objective and accurate understanding of your own strengths and weaknesses, as well as the ability to evaluate these aspects objectively.

By addressing your inner deficiencies and shortcomings through personal growth, you can ensure that your intimate relationships are not negatively impacted. This allows you to be authentic and accepting in these relationships, while also meeting the needs of your partners.

While you may currently feel helpless, depressed, irritable, and restless, and even wish to die to relieve some of this emotional and mental distress, your decision to seek assistance demonstrates that your desire to live well outweighs your desire to die. However, you may lack a more effective method to express and release this part of your emotions.

One effective method for processing these intense emotions is to record them in writing. This approach can help you gain clarity, express your feelings, and release them in a constructive manner. It also provides a secure environment for understanding and managing your emotions.

It is important to note that, guided by this awareness, you should consciously learn to better accept yourself, cultivate self-confidence, and enhance your sense of self-worth.

I suggest you read "Emotional Self-Help."

My name is Lily, the Q&A Museum's resident expert on all things audio. I extend my warmest regards to you and the world.