Can't get over fantasizing about being with him, feel like an idiot, confused?

Dear reader, I extend my support to you in your time of distress.

The subject displays a lack of self-understanding and engages in self-attacking behaviors, such as labeling herself as "crazy." It is important to clarify that this state of mind is not indicative of insanity. Instead, it represents a common and normal psychological phenomenon. The next step is to examine the underlying causes of this state.

Individuals within this global community substantiate their existence through interpersonal connections and ascertain the purpose of life. You exemplify a sentiment akin to those who perceive immense joy and fortune. This is likely due to the presence of a significant other with whom they share a profound bond. It is this intimate relationship that enables them to feel a sense of affirmation and belonging.

It seems plausible to suggest that you met a man relatively quickly through a matchmaking service. It is possible that you were simply seeking to escape an unhealthy relationship with your former partner, and that you chose to marry and have a child. Alternatively, it may be that the love you feel for your current husband is lacking in intensity, and that even though your child is four months old, it does not result in any stronger emotional interactions. Consequently, your current life does not provide a strong sense of emotion, namely the emotion of being loved. If the emotion is not strong and intense, it will not leave a deep impression on your existence. In contrast, the love you felt for your former partner, as evidenced by the fact that he threatened to harm himself, must also have been expressed in an intense way, in what is often referred to as a romantic moment.

Such profound experiences also engender a profound sense of self-awareness. Even the extreme behavior of one's former romantic partner, such as self-harm, can evoke a visceral reaction of fear and apprehension. Consequently, the intensity of these emotions may contribute to the persistence of feelings of longing for the individual in question.

Each time you reflect on your former partner, you reinforce the imprint in your mind. It is evident that you do not currently hold romantic feelings for him. Furthermore, you are aware that even if you were to return to the past, you would lack the assurance to lead a contented life with him.

It is inevitable that one will retain memories of intense emotional experiences, particularly those of a passionate nature.

It is unclear how your relationship with your husband is currently situated. However, it can be posited that, over the long term, it will revert to a state of equilibrium. The quality of this equilibrium, in terms of its happiness, will depend on the actions of the two individuals involved.

It is beneficial to permit oneself to reflect on the period spent in a romantic relationship with one's former partner. This was a significant aspect of one's life, and it cannot be undone. These memories can be carried forward as one progresses in life.