Hello! I'd like to extend a warm hug from afar to you.
It is possible to perceive the sense of grievance, helplessness, and powerlessness that arises from your desperate longing to be accepted, understood, listened to, and supported.
From your description, it seems that your boyfriend's indifferent attitude has led you to feel misunderstood, unaccepted, disrespected, and unheard. It's understandable that you might feel hesitant to approach the subject directly with him, especially given the nature of his behavior. However, it's important to communicate your feelings and expectations in a way that is honest and respectful, so that he can understand the impact of his actions and make any necessary adjustments.
It's important to remember that how he treats you is something you cannot decide or control. However, you can decide and control how you treat yourself. This is an important distinction. In a relationship, the way you treat yourself will largely guide and suggest the way others respond to you. This is something to keep in mind. It's possible that the way others treat you may be partly due to what you have taught them.
It might be helpful to try to understand what lies behind your desperate desire to be accepted, understood, and supported. Is it because you feel worthy of love and good enough, or because you feel rejected, worthless, and not good enough? Could it be that you are struggling to accept yourself as you are?
If so, you might consider trying to learn to accept yourself better and develop self-confidence. It may be helpful to be able to see your own shortcomings and deficiencies, as well as your own bright spots and strengths.
You deserve to be treated well by yourself and others. Perhaps if you can try to learn to respect your body and mind's true feelings and respond to yourself in a timely and appropriate manner, you will not blindly rely on others due to your own extreme sense of deprivation. What do you think?
My name is Lily, and I'm the little ear of the Q&A Museum. I hope you'll accept my love for you and the world.


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I can see how much you care about him and are willing to make efforts, but it seems he might need some space. Maybe it's best to respect his wishes and give him the time he needs. In the meantime, focus on yourself and your own happiness. Sometimes, stepping back can also show him how much you respect his feelings.
It sounds like communication between you two has been quite challenging lately. Instead of trying to force a meeting or conversation, perhaps you could express your feelings through a heartfelt letter. Let him know that you're there for him without putting any pressure on him to respond immediately. This way, he can process your words at his own pace.
The situation is definitely tough, and it's clear you've invested a lot emotionally. However, it might be beneficial to reflect on what you want from this relationship. Is it healthy for you to continue waiting indefinitely? Consider setting boundaries for yourself and communicating them clearly. If he truly values you, he'll understand and respect your needs as well.
It's important to recognize that you can't control his actions or responses, but you can control how you react. Try to take this time to focus on personal growth and activities that bring you joy. If he sees the positive changes in you, it might encourage him to reconsider and reach out. Remember, a healthy relationship requires mutual effort and communication.