We don't fit together in any way, but we can't help but wonder why we can't be in love.
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By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024
When I'm busy, I think about him and think that it's interesting that he might like me.
On weekends when I'm free, I feel empty and think that he doesn't like me. He doesn't even look for me.
But if he really comes looking for me, I won't have time to see him, and I don't know what frame of mind or status I'll be in when I see him. As a candidate, I feel like I'm not good at anything, I don't have any money, and time is the most precious thing to us.
We both feel insecure, and there are many factors that make it inappropriate!
But I feel reluctant to let go. Why can't we love each other and fall in love? I always have a lot of concerns. It's time to get married, but I can't just fall in love.
Maybe after all these years, I only like him, and I can't be selfish. I'm just considering whether I can get married, don't mess around before marriage, do the personalities and financials match?
Who loves who more? Marrying the right person is more important than just liking them!
Marry someone who is good to you and suitable in every way. But if it's not him, I won't marry.
Maybe he's scared of marriage and won't marry. I won't marry either, because there's no one to marry.
He has all kinds of faults, but no, why can't I like him? And I even had to ask a psychologist for help with writing a farewell letter.
Life will be colorless without him. It will always be missing something.
If I marry someone suitable and nice, will I be happy? I have to let him go, but I don't know why I have to deliberately let him go.
If I let him go, I'll just be an empty shell.
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Comments
I can't help but think about him even when I'm swamped with work, it's amusing how the thought of his affection gives me butterflies. On weekends though, the silence feels deafening, and doubt creeps in that he might not feel the same way. It's a paradox; if he reached out, my schedule wouldn't allow us to meet, and I wonder what state of mind I'd be in then. Our insecurities seem to clash, and timing just never seems right for anything substantial.
When life is hectic, thoughts of him bring a smile, imagining his interest makes everything more bearable. But on my days off, the absence of contact from him leaves a void, making me question his feelings. The irony is that if he did come looking, my commitments would prevent me from seeing him. We both have our uncertainties, and maybe we're too preoccupied with practicalities to take the leap.
It's strange how busy schedules make me daydream about him, finding comfort in the idea that he may reciprocate my feelings. Yet, during leisure time, the lack of effort from him makes me ponder if he truly cares. If he were to seek me out, chances are I'd be too occupied, leaving me to wonder about the state of our connection should we finally meet.
Busy moments are filled with hopeful musings of him possibly being into me, which is oddly comforting. However, during free moments, the quiet brings anxiety that he doesn't share the same sentiments. The twist is, if he actually pursued me, my packed agenda could mean missing each other again, and I'm unsure of the emotional space I'd be in at such a meeting.
Thinking about him adds a layer of complexity to my busy life, as if his potential interest lightens the load. But when I'm not distracted by work, the emptiness grows, leading me to believe he's not interested. Ironically, if he ever sought me out, my schedule might keep us apart, and I can't predict my mindset or readiness to see him at that point.