Hello, question owner, My name is Su Qinghua, and I'm a listener at Yixinli.
It seems that you may not be permitted to proceed.
From your words, I can see that you may benefit from exploring different ways of approaching the problem. It seems that you are looking for a way to develop your ability to focus, to complete tasks, to think critically, to be precise, and to think quickly on your feet.
You find yourself wondering, "What if I don't have this ability?" This kind of repeated thinking can leave you feeling exhausted, both physically and mentally. It can even lead to feelings of anxiety about your own "What should I do?" However, it's important to recognize that without a result, your brain is simply fighting, and your body loses the ability to act.
I can see that you are anxious, that your thoughts are obsessive, and that you are prone to compulsive thinking. These may have been influenced by your family of origin, where your parents and family members may have encouraged a sense of control and demands, which could have resulted in you living in a tense environment all day long, which may have led to compulsive thinking.
Then, in the environment of your life after tomorrow, you may encounter some challenges, including pressure from studies, work, and survival. If you feel you are unable to meet the required standards, you may experience feelings of low self-esteem, fear, and a sense of incompetence, which can lead to a loss of confidence.
Perhaps it would be helpful to consider how you approach math problems.
When you do math problems, you may find yourself spending the whole day thinking about just one thing in order to force yourself to keep thinking about one answer. It's possible that you may feel stuck in a cycle of fear and self-blame, which can lead to feelings of anxiety. When we're in this kind of emotional state, it can be challenging to feel like we're breathing fresh air.
While the final problem was eventually solved, a significant amount of time was spent on it. On this day, you only solved one problem and set aside the other opportunities around you. It's similar to gaining a small puddle and missing out on a larger, more beautiful lake.
Sometimes, when a problem seems insurmountable, it can be helpful to set it aside for a while. This allows your mind to relax and think more clearly. You might be surprised at what you discover when you return to the problem. It could even lead to a solution.
Perhaps it would be helpful to view the situation from a different perspective. It's as if you're a marionette, lacking the power to control your own actions.
Perhaps there is a distinction between physical strength and mental strength that is worth exploring. If one is unable to use free will to achieve desired outcomes, it could be perceived that control is lacking. I appreciate your perspective on the mind's ability to influence the body. It brings to mind the image of a marionette, where the body is weak and dependent on external guidance. It's an intriguing concept, and I wonder if there's a way to reconcile these two perspectives.
It is worth noting that both physical and mental strength can be allowed. It is not the body that controls the mind, nor is it the mind that controls the body. Perhaps the two can coexist, working together or just relaxing together.
I believe there is also a lot of fun to be had in the process.
When engaged in an activity, it is easy to become so absorbed in the result that the process and the joy that comes from it can be overlooked.
You tell yourself that the result must be perfect, that you will not allow yourself to make mistakes, that you will not allow yourself to be ignorant, that you will not allow yourself to be unable to do something. There are so many "not allow"s that can make your body tense, your emotions unable to flow, and your thoughts unable to function. The more you think, the more tired you become, and then you may find yourself dwelling on self-blame.
Perhaps it would be helpful to consider the possibility that there might not be a result, or that the problem might not be solvable.
It might be more helpful to put the problem aside for now. It's possible that your emotions are getting in the way of your thinking, which is making it harder for you to think clearly.
It may be helpful to allow yourself to rest when you are tired, so that you can rest and recharge your batteries. You may find that your thoughts come flooding back in the next moment.
Perhaps it would be helpful to consider whether you want to value it or control it.
You place a high value on your thinking ability and are dedicated to training it. You have invested a great deal of time and effort into developing your thinking abilities, which have become highly trained and efficient. However, this dedication and commitment may have inadvertently led to a state where your thinking is forced into a cycle of distraction, inefficiency, and chaos.
It is believed that thoughts exist all the time, in all of us. It is thought that thoughts should be agile inside our bodies, existing between our bodies and our brains. It is thought that a flowing mind is a living mind.
A mind that is controlled may appear pale and rigid, and may ultimately be unable to move freely.
Perhaps it would be helpful to consider the ability to think quickly.
It might be said that you cannot think quickly because your mind is controlled by your body, which can result in a lack of flexibility and a loss of vibrant meaning. However, it is possible that one day, when you give up control and allow it to breathe freely, you may find yourself again.
Perhaps you could try creating an environment that allows you to feel safe and supported, and where you can embrace all aspects of yourself, including your imperfections. This could be a way of allowing yourself to achieve the perfection you desire.
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Comments
I can totally relate to spending the whole day on a math problem. Once I start, it's hard to stop until I crack it; sometimes, it feels like an obsession. It's this drive that pushes me to find solutions, even if it means sacrificing time and rest.
The idea of strength in sports is fascinating. It's not just about muscle power but about the willpower to push beyond what seems possible. Muscles are just tools; the real power comes from within, from the mind's ability to command the body to perform at its best, regardless of physical limitations.
It's tricky when your mind is so focused on instructions that you lose touch with the task. I've found myself in that situation too, where overthinking leads to exhaustion and subpar results. Maybe there's a balance between following guidelines and letting intuition guide us more freely.
When I face a challenge, the urge to understand it immediately is overwhelming. But I've learned that rushing into finding a solution can be counterproductive. Sometimes, stepping back and giving the problem some space allows for fresh insights to emerge unexpectedly.
Thinking is indeed a valuable skill, yet it's frustrating that it doesn't come with a certificate or degree. I pour so much effort into honing my cognitive abilities, hoping they'll pay off in practical ways. Still, I wonder if all this mental labor is as recognized as professional skills are.