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I feel a bit schizophrenic lately, feeling warm then attacking myself?

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I feel a bit schizophrenic lately, feeling warm then attacking myself? By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024

I had triggered my aggressive alter ego due to certain matters in the past. Now, before my dominant personality desires relaxation and rest, the aggressive one surfaces to suppress opposition. I am now terrified of this self-destructive emotion, regardless of its origin. It's like being hunted by someone, and that person is in your mind, ready to awaken at the slightest relaxation, torturing you in the most cruel ways. I am truly exhausted. Every day, the struggle with this personality consumes a massive amount of my energy, and the most painful aspect isn't the battle itself but the inability to sleep or eat. All outlets for joy are mercilessly blocked. Constrained and tormented, I subject myself to self-torture. It's as if in a split second, I plummet from heaven to hell. I have tormented myself to the point of unrecognizability, and I'm almost driving my parents crazy. What should I do? I miss the past, when feeling warmth and comfort allowed me to accept things peacefully. Now, the moment I sense warmth, my self-attack mechanism kicks in, destroying everything I have so meticulously built. I am tossed into a storm, waiting for someone to save me. Now, I feel completely insecure and long to return to my parents' side, forever being protected by them. This wretchedly divided life has been going on for more than a day or two, and I use self-torture to obtain abnormal love.

Levin Levin A total of 640 people have been helped

How old is the questioner, do you think? I think the questioner has a really good understanding and awareness of themselves!

"I've previously activated the aggressive personality in me because of certain things." I'm so sorry to hear that. What kind of things activate your "aggressive personality"?

I'd love to know how they inspired it!

"Now, whenever my own personality wants to relax and rest, the aggressive personality comes out to suppress and oppose it." How are you feeling about this? I'd love to know what you were thinking and doing at that time.

I can write it down for you if you like.

"It's like you're being chased by someone, and that someone is inside your head. If you let up for even a second, they'll wake up and torment you in the cruellest way. I'm really tired now, sweetie.

"Yes, it's a war between yourself and yourself. Both sides of the war know each other very well, and everything is exposed to the other side. "The attack" will also be at the most "weak" time of each other. And both sides of the war consume your own self.

"Fighting with this personality every day takes a lot of energy from me." What if you just shook hands with each other and called it a day? They're both yours anyway, so it doesn't matter who wins or who loses. It's still a tie in the end.

"Oh, what should I do? I miss the old days, when I could feel warm and comfortable and just accept it."

It's so hard when it doesn't work like that anymore. As soon as I feel warmth and comfort, my self-attack kicks in and destroys everything I have worked so hard to build. It's like throwing me into a storm and waiting for someone to rescue me.

I just want to say that if the original poster could do it in the past, they will be able to do it now. If they can't do it now, it might be that the original poster has accidentally added some "driving force" to "prevent" themselves from doing it as they used to.

"Now that I feel insecure, I want to go back to my parents and be protected by them for the rest of my life." If you want to come back, just come back. Talk it over with your parents. They'll be happy to have you back!

Take some time to accept your current situation and give yourself a break.

I really hope my reply helps you out! Wishing you all the best!

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Harper Ford Harper Ford A total of 7827 people have been helped

Hello! I just wanted to extend a big hug to you. I truly believe that you can overcome this on your own and embrace a bright future full of sunshine.

From your statement, I sense that your current situation may be influenced by past experiences, which have shaped your current personality. You have self-awareness, but you may feel that you lack control over certain situations, which has led to feelings of helplessness and a desire to explore more extreme methods to navigate the rest of your life. I'd like to offer some guidance, with the hope of providing some assistance.

First, it would be best for the person who started it to take responsibility and resolve the issue. It would also be helpful to review the source of the problem.

As the saying goes, the one who started it must finish it. Perhaps it would be helpful to analyze the reasons that led to this incident. What kind of situation allowed this to happen?

Could you please tell me why you are so affected by this incident?

It is understandable that reviewing this matter may be painful. It can be likened to peeling back the layers of your scars and allowing others to view them. However, in order to identify the root cause, it is essential to examine the underlying factors, the process that led to it, and the outcome.

Perhaps we can find the real cause by looking beyond the source of the emotions this event has caused.

If we have identified the root cause, we can then address the underlying issue. By addressing these fundamental psychological issues, we can better cope with the current situation.

Secondly, it would be beneficial to consider spiritual healing.

Once we have identified the root cause of the problem, we can begin the process of healing ourselves spiritually. I hope you will find some of these suggestions helpful as you work towards freeing yourself from these aspects:

1. You may find it helpful to seek the guidance of a professional psychological counselor to assist you in navigating your current confusion.

2. Self-healing:

It would be beneficial to identify the source.

It might be helpful to remind yourself that facing this challenge and learning from any mistakes you make along the way is an important part of life. It's natural to experience ups and downs, and learning to accept these fluctuations can be a valuable lesson.

It would be beneficial to communicate well with yourself.

You might find it helpful to read more books on psychology or your favorite books to calm your mind.

It might be helpful to do something that will keep your hands and feet busy and your mind quiet, such as painting, hiking, singing, or writing.

It might be helpful to consider meditation or yoga.

Thirdly, it may be helpful to avoid labelling yourself.

It seems that you are still dwelling on the past, perhaps even more than the names your therapist gave you. It may be that you are more concerned about your current illness. Alternatively, you may be longing for these illnesses because you want to receive more love and care through them, whether from your parents, relatives, or friends.

If I might make a suggestion, even if we are struggling with psychological issues, it can be helpful to try to move on from them. We can view these challenges as visitors who have come to stay for a while, and we can treat them with the respect and consideration they deserve.

When you learn to move on from them, they may come to see that they have lost their meaning and value in your life. Over time, they will be forgotten and then quietly leave your life.

If I might respectfully offer another perspective on this topic, I believe that the distorted need for love you mentioned is worthy of further discussion.

This way of thinking may be perceived as childlike. It could be said that the individual has not yet fully matured, and when faced with adversity, they may seek solace and reassurance from their loved ones. This could be viewed as a manifestation of inner immaturity, rather than a distortion.

It is only natural for an adult with a healthy heart who has suffered an injustice to long to return to the side of the people they trust the most, the people they love the most, to receive some comfort and help. This way of thinking is therefore very normal and not distorted.

It is perfectly acceptable to return to your parents for a while if you feel your heart needs healing. We can all benefit from a break from the demands of life and work. Taking time to rest and spend time with your parents can be a positive step.

It would be beneficial to try to regain control of this time, allow our hearts to return to a more normal rhythm, and work on becoming stronger and more resilient. It's important not to let negative emotions take over, and to believe that you can overcome challenges and that your future holds happiness and joy.

Everyone needs time and a special process to grow up. It would be wise not to be too anxious and to quietly wait for ourselves to grow up secretly, because there are still parents who are getting older every day waiting for us. We can't be taken care of by them forever, so it would be helpful to learn to grow up on our own. Even if we are not as independent as we would like to be, we can still try to be a quiet child in our parents' eyes who can take care of ourselves and be independent.

There is still a long way to go in life, and we still have a lot to do. While it is important to take time for rest and recuperation, it is also essential to ensure that we do not become too idle. This will not only waste valuable time but also prolong the journey towards becoming the excellent person we aspire to be.

If you're feeling unhappy or unfortunate, you might find it helpful to read about people with disabilities. It can give you courage and encouragement, and help you understand that there are many children in the world who are less fortunate, but who still maintain a positive outlook and a passionate heart full of hope for the future.

It would be beneficial to draw inspiration from these things. It is important to avoid becoming overwhelmed by negative emotions and to find ways to overcome challenges and embrace a positive, confident mindset. You have the power to define your own identity, and your past experiences do not define you.

I'm sure you can overcome the difficulties you are currently facing and find your original sunny, happy self. Believe in yourself; you can do it!

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Maximo Simmons Maximo Simmons A total of 695 people have been helped

Hello!

Host:

I'm Zeng Chen, a heart exploration coach. I've carefully read the post and I can feel the conflict in the author's inner voice from the content!

Also, it is so great to see that the poster has faced her inner self head-on and actively sought help. This will undoubtedly help the poster to better understand and understand herself, so as to adjust herself and encounter a better self.

Next, I'm thrilled to share my observations and thoughts from the post, which I'm confident will help you view yourself from a more diverse perspective.

1. Explore why you are like this.

From the post, it is observed that the poster has two conflicting personalities within, one dominant and one aggressive. Whenever the dominant personality wants to take a break, the aggressive personality attacks itself.

First of all, I feel that you have an amazing sense of awareness, which can also help you better understand yourself.

In addition, the post mentions that something triggered the aggressive personality in the poster. This is a great opportunity for the poster to review those things again and see how they affected us!

Let's see if we can find a reasonable and objective interpretation of the event! This kind of approach can often lead to positive change.

2. Go and see what amazing benefits this aggressive personality has brought us!

The famous psychologist Wu Zhihong once said something really interesting. He said that the reason we can't let go of some things or habits is that they may have brought us benefits. So perhaps the original poster can explore this in more detail.

It would be really interesting to see if this aggressive personality has brought some benefits to yourself!

From the post, I have observed more of the disadvantages brought about by this personality. But there are also some amazing benefits! Sometimes, these benefits are things we ourselves are not even aware of.

And the poster mentioned in the post that I use self-abuse to obtain abnormal love. So what does this love refer to?

Could it be the love that mom and dad have for you? If so, why do you want to receive the same kind of love from them?

Is it to make up for love? Or is it for other reasons? The original poster has the exciting opportunity to explore this further!

The information we collect to answer your questions is not always up to date, which means we can't always give you the answers you need right away. But that just means we have to think in new ways to find the solutions you're looking for!

3. Absolutely! We can absolutely let two personalities coexist!

This idea was proposed because the truth is, we have so many personalities! We have our main personality, and then we also have all these other secondary personalities.

So, guess what? You can actually have two personalities coexisting in harmony! It's true! But here's the catch: if you don't accept your secondary personality and fight against it, it'll be painful.

So, let's change our thinking!

So, how do you make the two personalities coexist? Well, it's simple! Coexistence does not mean letting them keep on clashing, but rather letting them discuss things together.

This is like a house. Let them live in two separate houses. When there is a conflict, let them come out and have a meeting to discuss who to listen to. After discussion, the dominant personality stays, and the other goes back to his room.

This can also be understood as a difference of opinion in the company or family. We have the same discussion in a meeting, and it's a great one! So the host can try this method: let the two personalities coexist, let them discuss together, and remember that they become friends. At this time, there may be new experiences, and it's going to be a blast!

I really hope these are helpful and inspiring for the poster! If the poster has any questions, they can just click on "Find a Coach" to get in touch with a personal coach.

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Nell Nell A total of 3235 people have been helped

Dear Question Asker, I am honored to answer your question. From your description, it is evident that you are experiencing a conflict between your id and superego. This conflict manifests as an internal voice that prevents you from relaxing and enjoying this warm life. How long has this been occurring?

Please describe the sequence of events that transpired before and after this situation. Additionally, please list any other factors you believe to be significant.

Based on your description, it seems that you are experiencing a conflict between your id and superego. Your id encourages you to relax and enjoy the warm moments, whereas your superego prevents you from doing so. This conflict is particularly evident in the context of work and learning. Returning to the support of your parents could help to resolve this internal conflict. Is this an accurate interpretation?

I inquire as to the duration of your experience in this situation. Should you be able to do so, I recommend that you take the Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory with the assistance of a professional, so that you may ascertain your current psychological state and create a plan for the next steps. In the event that the test results are not too serious, I posit that the individual who reads themselves and enjoys a warm life is not a tangible entity, but rather a virtual character that has been processed by one's imagination.

The subconscious mind appears to be in a state of tension and distress, accompanied by an unidentified form of pressure. It is recommended that this pressure be released in order to achieve a state of mental equilibrium. It would be my pleasure to schedule an appointment with you at your earliest convenience. 1983. Best regards, [Name]

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Sabine Miller The difference between success and failure can be as simple as a positive attitude towards setbacks.

I can relate to feeling like you're battling with two different versions of yourself. It's a struggle that leaves you drained and desperate for peace. The moment you find solace, the aggressive side reawakens, making it impossible to truly rest. How do you cope with such an internal conflict?

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Rochelle Miller The key to success is to turn failures into stepping - stones.

The pain you describe is palpable, and it sounds like you're caught in a vicious cycle where relaxation becomes your enemy. It must be terrifying to feel hunted by your own mind. I wonder if seeking professional help could offer some strategies to regain control over your emotions.

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Kirk Thomas Time is a journey that shapes our destiny.

It's heartbreaking to hear how this inner turmoil has affected your relationship with your parents and your own wellbeing. Perhaps finding a way to express your feelings to someone who cares about you might bring some relief. Opening up can sometimes be the first step toward healing.

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Erik Davis The more we forgive, the more we are able to love unconditionally.

Your words paint a picture of intense suffering and isolation. It seems as though you've been through so much. Reaching out for support from loved ones or professionals might provide a lifeline during these dark times. You don't have to go through this alone.

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Dionysus Davis A teacher's dedication to the growth of students' minds is a noble crusade.

I can sense the exhaustion and despair in your message. It's clear that this emotional war within you has taken its toll. Maybe starting with small steps towards selfcompassion could help ease the torment. Sometimes just acknowledging the pain is the beginning of recovery.

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