Hello, question asker.
From what you've written, I can't see any punctuation marks. What kind of situation were you in when you wrote this text? What feelings were you experiencing when you wrote this text?
You said you get really nervous when your teacher gives you homework. There's a difference between focusing inwardly and focusing outwardly.
When you're inwardly focused, you're more concerned with your own feelings and perceptions than with what's going on around you. Your mind is filled with your own emotions and feelings, so you don't have much attention left for others. You're tense and on edge, and it's hard for you to relax.
From what you've said, it seems like you have a bigger fear of authority. Authority includes leaders, teachers, parents, and things that worry you. It's a fear of authority, like teachers, leaders, and managers. If you can't do what you're told, do you worry about being punished?
Or do you feel like something bad is going to happen?
As you mentioned, your classmate talks to you while you're trying to listen to the teacher. You can tell her to be quiet. You'll probably feel annoyed when she interrupts you like that.
As you mentioned, your classmate talks to you while you're trying to listen to the teacher. You can tell her to be quiet. You'll probably feel annoyed when she interrupts you like that.
The main issue here is that you're worried that not hearing the teacher clearly will cause you problems.
There's a lot of underlying anxiety here. If you can't hear the teacher clearly and ask someone else, how do you understand the question?
Are you bothered by the fact that you think it's a waste of time, or are you bothered by the fact that you feel like you're getting second-hand information instead of the original first-hand information? You need to figure out these inner concerns and clarify some of your thoughts and worries to see if these thoughts are just rationalized perceptions.
Your main concern is that the reunion will stop you from getting information from your teacher directly. This will make you anxious and uneasy.
This is a continuation of the previous obsessive phenomenon. It shows that the root cause is in the past, and now it is just the classmates who are hindering you that are causing you even greater anxiety.
As a general rule, you're more attuned to maintaining control and less comfortable with losing it.
If classmates are getting in the way of you listening, you can let them know. After a few times, they'll probably get the hint and stop disturbing you in class.
The key to improving this situation is to encourage personal growth, explore the underlying psychological issues, and learn to relax and respond to external events in a calm manner.


Comments
I can totally relate to how overwhelming it feels when OCD takes over. It's really tough, especially in a new environment like university. I wish I could help you find some strategies to cope with this. Maybe talking to a counselor could offer some support and guidance.
It sounds incredibly frustrating to miss important information because of distractions. I understand the anxiety that comes from feeling like you're losing control. Have you thought about discussing your situation with your teacher? They might be able to provide you with the homework details in writing or via email.
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this. It must be so hard to feel constantly on edge. Perhaps setting up a routine for reviewing notes and tasks at the end of each day could help reduce the stress of forgetting things. Also, mindfulness exercises might assist in staying present during class.
I can imagine how upsetting it is to have someone interrupt when you're trying to focus. It's okay to set boundaries with your seatmate. Politely letting her know that you need to concentrate during class could be a step towards protecting your mental space.
The pressure you're under is immense, and it's understandable that you're feeling this way. Sometimes, small changes can make a big difference. Maybe using a digital tool to record lectures or key moments could ensure you don't miss anything crucial. This might ease your mind a bit.