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Why do I always encounter scoundrels in my life who want to wear me down?

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Why do I always encounter scoundrels in my life who want to wear me down? By Anonymous | Published on December 18, 2024

Now, for the first time, I feel what it's like when everyone doesn't want to go to school.

Teacher against, because a leave of absence was yin and yang three times, no real friends, the class atmosphere is chaotic, listening to class, all I hear is noise, I can't hear the future, I can't see the future, parents don't believe in my worsening illness, can't be my support, seeing the lively and cheerful others raised by their parents, I know, from the beginning I lost, what's the use of giving me a talent that is slightly better than others? In the end, it was smoothed out, and even what I could have done was no longer possible. This is the moment of human collapse. Why give me hope and then throw me back into the abyss?

Always fantasizing about suffering from a split personality, at least, I can stop taking everything. Or, kill me and take my place, live the way I was meant to, enjoy everything I should have had, shine on my behalf. How can these not be me? But at least, that's the real me. Over and over again, I convince myself, and over and over again, it's wiped out because of some trivial matter. I really want to set fire to the still-sun-facing buds in my heart. That delusional, shining heart. Conflicted, conflicted, conflicted. Knowing it's impossible,

Who will understand? I got into the high school I wanted, but on the eve of Teachers' Day, I found out that my favorite teacher from junior high school was poached by another outstanding school. I wanted to give her a gift and personally say thank you again, thank you because of you I fell in love with that subject deeply and had the opportunity to get into high school. I want to tell you personally that in the future, I will continue to work hard, not just in the subjects you taught. I really want to tell you that I got first place, I'm not the confused kid from junior high school anymore. No, it's impossible. I want to find her and become a teacher like her, so that one day I can also save broken people like me and save myself. Nothing is possible anymore. These things will never happen. A person who hates school, because I can't keep anyone. Everything that has passed will eventually pass. Mistakes, no possibilities.

If I could, I would give up my emotions, even if I had no joy and no one to love. I would be like a machine, but without the pain, without envying others who shine, without hating myself for living in the gutter, for being so dark, for being someone like me, for whom pain is far greater than joy. That would already be great happiness.

Brody Nguyen Brody Nguyen A total of 2737 people have been helped

Thank you for the invitation.

I must admit that I have very few middle or high school students in my practice. While the difficulties encountered by each child are different, I believe that they are similar to the questioner in that they all feel that they are alone in the world with no one to turn to. If you want to do a theoretical analysis, you can talk at length.

However, this is an unproductive approach. Each child's feelings are influenced by unique factors, leading to different conclusions.

One particular sentence in the questioner's narrative stood out to me: "Imagining having a split personality means that at least I can stop suffering, or maybe killing me and taking my place, living the way I was meant to, enjoying everything I should have had, shining in my place." The word "imagining" is a positive one, and its importance cannot be overstated.

It is important to understand that fantasy is a state of mind that allows us to imagine possibilities beyond the constraints of reality. It provides a protective buffer, enabling us to navigate challenges in reality while still maintaining a sense of stability and growth.

"Alice in Wonderland" is not merely a fairy tale about Alice's self-redemption from her challenging circumstances.

As a result, the questioner may wish to encourage the imaginary other personality to explore the concept in greater depth and then express it in words. Similarly, while it may not be feasible to reconnect with the teacher who inspired you in person, expressing gratitude is always possible and should be done.

While there is regret at not being able to communicate in person, both the teacher and the questioner are moving towards a mutually beneficial resolution. This regret seems to be less negative and more constructive.

Despite the emotional fluctuations that adolescents experience due to their physiology, psychology, and environment, as well as their sensitivity and impulsivity, they should be taken seriously. If parents do not take them seriously, the questioner must prioritize taking care of his emotions in a timely manner, confiding in others (such as through writing), seeking help promptly (such as through Q&A or psychological hotlines), and, when necessary, seeking help from a doctor (especially when accompanied by sleep problems).

I hope this information is useful to you. Best regards,

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Polo Davis A year's plan starts with spring; a day's plan starts with morning.

I can relate to feeling so lost and disconnected from everything around me, like the world is moving but I'm standing still. It's hard when you're in a place where no one seems to understand or care about what you're going through.

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Reagan Miller Success is not about being perfect; it's about learning from your imperfections and failures.

The chaos in class makes it impossible to focus, and it feels like no matter how much you try, you can't find your place or hear that future calling your name. It's like being in a crowded room but completely alone.

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Carter Anderson Plain truth needs no flowers of speech.

Seeing others grow up surrounded by support while feeling abandoned myself is heartbreaking. Sometimes, it feels like we're given talents just to remind us of what we could have been if circumstances were different.

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Sean Davis Time is a melody that plays in the background of our lives.

It's tough when you feel like giving up on everything, even the dreams you once held dear. Fantasizing about an escape, whether through a split personality or something else, can seem like the only way out of the pain. But deep down, you know that's not the answer.

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Isabelle Jade Forgiveness is the golden key that unlocks the prison of hatred and bitterness.

Remembering moments of hope, like getting into your desired high school or finding inspiration in a beloved teacher, only adds to the ache when those moments slip away. The loss of someone who believed in you can feel like losing a part of yourself.

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