Hello,
Let's share a warm hug.
Your confusion: "I have to buy everything at once, and I can't even get a pen. If you study accounting, you can buy 200 books."
Anyway, whenever I wanted to learn something, I would buy a whole bunch of stuff first, and then I would buy everything. Once I had everything I needed, I couldn't learn anymore.
I used to think that buying things was the key to happiness. That was only when I was interested in something.
Once I'd finished stocking up, I lost interest after a while. I'm the same way when buying online courses: I fill up my online storage with them, buy whatever I see, and get anxious if I don't buy anything.
I felt like something was missing, so I wanted to buy it. What's wrong with me?
I grew up with this habit, and I had to buy all the dolls. If I saw that there was one I hadn't bought in the store, I just couldn't bear it and wanted to buy it at home.
If I didn't buy all the ones at home, I'd miss the one in the display case. That was the case when I was a kid.
When I was younger, I always had to buy all the books I wanted. I was fine, but I would always go and have a look in that cabinet. I would tap it with my little hand to make sure it was still in place.
"What's the reason for this in me?"
Hello, I read your story and it seems like you like to buy everything in full. If you don't buy it in full, you feel uncomfortable. Then you don't really like this state of mind, but you can't help it. I'd like to know what the reason is.
If I think that the psychological explanation is nothing more than a possibility from a genetic perspective, if your parents are this kind of serious about everything and you just like to buy everything, it is also possible that it is due to the way you were brought up. It is also possible that it is due to the influence of the environment. Well, when I ask the reason in reverse, is it really that important? Anyway, I am also like this now, so I might as well accept myself.
Isn't it a bad idea to buy everything? When you buy a complete set of books, it makes the set more valuable. The same goes for figurines. I don't think this is a bad thing. When you buy lots of reference books, you can find the answer to your question. When I'm researching a topic, I buy all the relevant books. Each book gives me a different perspective, so I can learn from each other and improve. It's worth trying a different way of thinking. You should accept your own characteristics. What's lacking is an eye for discovery.
The second method is to think in reverse. I heard a story about a clerk who used to write very beautifully, but at some point he felt that his writing was not perfect enough. So every time he tried to write perfectly, his handwriting got worse and worse. If he changed his goal from writing perfectly to writing as badly as possible, how could he write the worst handwriting? Then when he wrote the worst handwriting, his obsession got much better.
I think this could be useful for you. When I try to buy all the books, even if I can't get them all, I feel bad. We tell ourselves that we should only buy one copy of this set of books at a time, and if there's one more, we won't buy it. It's like reversing my goal. Let's see if it helps and if there are gains after a while.
All right, the world and I love you.


Comments
I can totally relate to that shopping impulse. It's like the thrill is in the chase and not actually using what you buy. Maybe it's time to find a balance where buying makes you happy but doesn't replace the learning or enjoying process.
It sounds like collecting things brings you comfort, but it fades once you have everything. Perhaps focusing on why you lose interest after acquiring items could help change the pattern. Sometimes it's about the excitement of the hunt rather than the object itself.
Your habit seems deeply rooted from childhood, almost like a ritual of sorts. Have you thought about channeling this energy into collecting experiences instead? That might offer more lasting satisfaction than physical objects.
This sounds like an interesting mix of passion for collecting and a bit of perfectionism. What if you set smaller goals within your collecting spree? It could make each purchase feel more purposeful and keep the interest alive longer.
It feels like you're using shopping as a way to fill a void or seek happiness. Maybe exploring other ways to satisfy that need could be beneficial. Could hobbies or activities that don't involve buying give you the same joy or more?