On the first day of school, do you feel that there is something wrong with you, that you are always a little aggrieved and sad?

Hello, I get it.

It's evident that you have a deep and perceptive inner world.

As a first-year junior high school student, the academic pressure isn't really that intense. The root cause of the various pressures and grievances you've described is probably the way you communicate with your parents and the thoughts and experiences you have. So don't put the label "problematic" on yourself and don't say "it doesn't exist" too easily.

You're a very smart, resourceful, sensitive, and confident child.

It's normal to feel a little proud when you can express your thoughts accurately, and a little jealous sometimes. This is how the psychology of adolescents matures from immaturity. A little jealousy is the driving force behind your progress, but don't let it get out of hand. When you have time, you can also read "The Sorrows of Young Werther."

The way you communicate with your parents may be too simple, just about daily life and study requirements. Neither of you has learned to put yourself in the other person's shoes, to look into the other person's heart, and to help and support each other. That's why there are always conflicts when you and your parents try to solve problems.

You might as well try a different approach. Strengthen communication, hold a few family meetings, and speak your innermost thoughts. Instead of shouting and swearing, not understanding, and resenting. Perhaps then you will understand each other.

If you put the work in now, you'll be successful later.

I hope you find success in your studies. Turn your inner doubts into motivation to study hard, achieve excellent results, and realize your dreams.

Good day. I extend my warmest regards from afar.

I am pleased to see that you have requested assistance and hope that my input will provide you with the support and guidance you require. I also commend you for your perceptiveness regarding your emotional state, as a clear understanding is the first step towards change.

From your description, it is evident that you have difficulty accepting yourself in this state and manner of expressing and releasing your repressed, painful emotional feelings. When you release and express your inner painful emotional feelings in a way that does not harm yourself or those around you, you can follow your inner will to truly express your emotions.

The reason for releasing and expressing inner emotions in this way is largely due to a lack of acceptance, self-confidence, and an inferiority complex towards one's inner self. It is evident that there is a lack of awareness regarding this aspect of one's inner self.

The way a person is treated determines how they treat themselves and others. The reason you unconsciously choose to suppress and hide your inner emotional feelings is largely because your father sometimes scolded you, sometimes showed care, especially when you felt extremely angry and aggrieved because of the way your father treated you, and your mother kept telling you to understand your father. This caused an extreme sense of division within you, and you didn't know whether you should love or hate your father. This will make you unconsciously turn your anger and resentment towards your father towards your inner self, which is self-attack, self-denial, self-criticism, and self-disgust.

It is recommended that you record in writing the painful emotional feelings you have in the family because of your father's polarized treatment. This will help you to manage these feelings more effectively. Once you have identified the feelings, you can begin to understand the underlying needs and respond in a more appropriate way.

When your painful emotional feelings can be seen, expressed, and responded to effectively, the harm they do to you will be reduced, and you will be able to focus more energy on learning in the present. Otherwise, your energy will be constantly expended fighting against this part of your painful emotional feelings. What are your thoughts on this matter?

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