They hurt me, cheat me out of money, continuous trauma, deeply confused and in pain.

From what you've told me, it's clear you've been through a lot, both mentally and emotionally. It's a lot to deal with, and I admire your courage in seeking help and treatment.

I'll try to give you some suggestions and ideas to think about that I hope will be helpful.

1. Understanding the influence of the original family

You brought up the situation in the original family, including parents getting divorced and a lack of adequate expressions of love. These factors can have a big impact on a person's growth and mental health.

It's not about making excuses, but rather understanding where our behaviors and emotional reactions may come from so we can deal with them better.

2. Emotional Attachment and the Search for Alternative Love

Your strong feelings for that teacher may be partly because you were longing for warmth and affection at home. In this case, an authoritative but friendly adult may have become the object of an emotional attachment.

Recognizing this can help you understand your feelings and learn how to meet these emotional needs in a healthier way.

3. Metaphysics, disorientation, and self-reconstruction

You said you're interested in metaphysics and that you've had some negative experiences along the way. Some people see exploring metaphysics and the spiritual realm as a spiritual quest, but it can also be disorienting, especially when it involves irresponsible groups or individuals.

Rediscovering yourself means taking the time to build a worldview based on reality and science, as well as finding a healthy system of spiritual support.

4. The importance of mental health

You've already taken some great steps to improve your situation by seeking treatment at a psychiatric hospital, which is really important.

It's important to keep looking for professional mental health services, like psychotherapy, medication, or a mix of both. A counselor or psychologist can help you understand your problems better and come up with ways to cope.

5. The link between body and mind

The physical issues you've been experiencing, like that foreign body sensation in your stomach and head, might be linked to your mental state. Stress and emotional issues can often show up physically.

Keep working with your doctor to focus on both your physical and mental health, and find treatments that integrate the body and mind.

6. Rediscovering interests and future planning

Even though you're feeling confused and painful right now, remember that everyone's life goes through periods of reconstruction and transformation. You've mentioned an interest in physics and theoretical physics, which shows that you're passionate about exploring the world and pursuing knowledge.

Rekindling these interests could be a way for you to escape your current situation while also opening up new possibilities for your future.

7. Build a support system.

It's important to have a supportive social network, whether it's family, friends, or a professional team. Look for and build such a support system whenever you can.

This could mean joining a support group or connecting with others who have faced similar challenges to share experiences and provide mutual support.

In a nutshell, your experience shows us that mental health and emotional needs are an important part of life. When you're facing difficulties and challenges, it's important to seek help, keep an open mind, and continue to care for yourself.

You've already shown a lot of courage and determination, and I'm sure that with time you'll be able to find more joy and contentment. Please keep holding on to hope and keep moving forward.

Hello.

I'd give you a hug to comfort you.

Your post is full of longing for love, hurt by love, a crisis of self-identity, and a sense of meaninglessness.

All of this makes you feel worthless and decadent, right?

I don't know your age. Are you taking time off from school to continue your treatment at home, or are you still in school?

You love life and have a future vision.

In junior high, you fell in love with your teacher. This is a young girl's longing for love and family.

Your love for metaphysics shows your curiosity about spirituality and life.

Joining their organization shows you want a family.

When you lick dogs, get brainwashed, get cheated, and do wrong, you yearn for love.

You're willing to pay because you need to compensate for the emptiness and love in your heart.

You need a mentor like your father to guide you.

His busy work schedule has resulted in a lack of presence in your emotional world.

This has led to the current situation.

I want to say:

It's not your fault!

It's not your fault!

It's not your fault!

How do I get out of this rut?

Your life is in a predicament because of these mistakes.

Your father cared for you, so your family may not have lacked love, but you may

Can't you ask your father for love?

Try to communicate with your father and express your needs.

If you're taking medication, work with your doctor and take it as prescribed. This helps stabilize your emotions.

If you're healthy, join more public welfare groups and take part in more activities. This will help you find

It will help.

If you can, find a counselor to help you.

I'm counselor Yao. Stay strong!

I'm here for you!

Hello! I'm sending you a warm hug from afar.

I am grateful to have seen your request for help, and I am certain that my sharing will provide you with the support and help you need. I also commend you for your keen awareness of the pain, deception, and ongoing emotional distress caused by your lack of inner love.

All disappointments, hurts, and pains we encounter in life are the reappearance of unrecognized deficiencies and traumas during our growth. We must learn these lessons through self-study, self-growth, and self-cultivation.

It doesn't matter if it was your crush on a teacher in your early teens, your immersion in metaphysics, or being sexually harassed by someone with the same interests on a networking platform. It all stems from your inner lack of love and a sense of deficiency. You longed to receive more acceptance, recognition, affirmation, encouragement, attention, care, and love from them.

You have received more love and support from your parents, but it is clear that this part of your needs is severely lacking. You have not sought to meet your needs through your own initiative, nor have you placed your expectations of this part of your needs on other people.

This makes you untruthful with your heart when choosing someone or doing something. You don't know or evaluate a person or thing from multiple perspectives. You only focus on whether it can respond to that part of you that is extremely lacking and has unmet needs. This has laid the hidden danger for you to be hurt.

Once you've identified the underlying cause of your ongoing distress—namely, your craving for more verbal affirmation, acceptance, encouragement, and expressions of love—it's time to speak up. Tell your parents about this aspect of your needs.

Record in writing the extreme grief, sadness, depression, and frustration you feel after being hurt more. This will help you see, express, and get along with this part of your emotions better. You will become aware of it, experience it, feel it, and sort out the needs hidden behind this part of your emotions.

The physical discomfort you feel is your body's way of responding to the accumulated, unresponded-to emotions. These somatic discomforts are your body's way of reminding you of how to take better care of yourself, love yourself, and respond to that part of yourself in a timely and appropriate manner. The emotions are those of not being loved, being rejected, being denied, and being humiliated due to trauma and continued harm.

Replace those painful, unloved, traumatic experiences with the love and support you felt from your parents during your growth. Learn to treat yourself the way you desire to be treated by actively learning and growing, giving yourself more affirmation and encouragement. Cultivate self-confidence and enhance your sense of self-worth through mirror exercises.

Tell your reflection in the mirror every day that you like a part of him and why. Smile at your reflection in the mirror every day and tell your reflection that he is a wonderful person.

Read the books Light Healing, The Neglected Child, and Embracing the Inner Child.

Hello, I'm Jokerev, and I'm here to tell you that I understand your pain and confusion right now, and I'm here to help! Your story is full of struggle and growth, and I'm excited to help you turn it into something amazing!

I want to start by congratulating you on your courage in sharing these deep emotions and experiences so honestly. This is an amazing first step towards healing!

Your family of origin has had a profound influence on you. Your parents' divorce and your upbringing by your grandmother have made you crave love even more, which is a wonderful thing! The teacher you admire is, in a way, a projection of your need for paternal love, care, and emotional support, which is a great way to look at it.

This emotion is strong and sincere, and it goes beyond the boundaries of a normal teacher-student relationship in a really exciting way! The metaphysical world you encountered afterwards is like a magnifying glass, reflecting your deep inner need for care and recognition in a way that's totally unique.

You are so strong for choosing to face the pain of cyberbullying and fraud head-on! It's not easy, but you're doing it. You're actively seeking medical treatment and gradually emerging from a self-destructive state. This is an incredible display of resilience!

The physical discomfort you mentioned may be due to long-term psychological stress that has not been completely released and adjusted. Your body is using its language to convey the message that you need to pay attention to your internal emotional signals. I suggest that you continue professional treatment while also trying psychological counseling. Through professional guidance, you can process those emotional memories that have not been fully digested and achieve a better state of harmony between mind and body. This is an exciting time for you!

As for your former dream of becoming a theoretical physicist, even if you feel it is as foggy as ever, please don't rush to deny or give up. The low points in life can make us temporarily lose our way, but that doesn't mean we're lost forever. You can start again, and you can do it!

You can start small, rediscover the little joys in life, and rekindle your passion for knowledge! Everyone has the right to pursue their dreams, no matter how winding the process may be.

No matter what difficulties you encounter, you always have the power to change the situation! You don't have to be too harsh on yourself, learn to accept the pain of the past, and at the same time believe that the future has endless possibilities!

You are now like a chrysalis about to break out of its cocoon and become a butterfly! After experiencing the storm, you will surely usher in an even more splendid chapter of your life. Please continue to persevere with treatment, seek support, and take every step towards that sunny future!

I'll always be here, rooting for you and cheering you on!

Dear Question Asker, Please accept my warmest regards.

In response to your mention of "divorce, junior high school, like a teacher who is several decades older, parents are more suggestions and improvements, and he can give you encouragement and a sense of being loved," I would like to suggest that you consider the following: If you meet the wrong person, experience cheating, encounter physical and mental problems, require positive hospitalization, and find that the situation has improved, but still feel physically and mentally not in one body, it may be helpful to seek additional support. I hope this information is useful to you.

My thoughts on the matter are as follows:

1. You have a positive regard for your teacher, but it may not be a fully matured emotional attachment. He can provide the strength and support that your parents may have been unable to offer. Your family was divorced, and your parents were not supportive, so you did not receive the love and guidance you desired.

2. If you encounter individuals who are detrimental to your well-being, form unfavorable associations, are misled into engaging in activities you do not desire, and experience physical and mental health challenges, but you are able to proactively address these issues and demonstrate resilience, it demonstrates your capacity to endure hardship and mature through adversity. If you continue to experience significant distress, it is advisable to seek long-term psychological counseling. A psychological counselor is impartial and is available to provide support. This may be beneficial, along with medication and physical therapy.

3. To live your life to the fullest, happy, and at ease, you must first strengthen your inner self and enhance your judgment. This process takes time. It is important to remind yourself that healing takes time, that things will get better, that you should encourage yourself mentally, that you should learn to love yourself, that you should treat yourself like a child, and that your parents cannot provide you with what you need, so you must learn to provide it for yourself.

The above represent my thoughts, for reference only, and I hope they prove helpful.

Please be aware that I and others have positive regard for you.