Dear questioner, I'm so excited to hear from you!
I'm Doctor Sunshine, sending you lots of love from afar! May the sunshine bring you some warmth!
If you read the question carefully, you'll see that the questioner is looking for some help because "the doctor told me to inject half of the medicine today, I'm so scared, how can I make myself believe it?"
Let's dive right in and sort out the specific situation described by the questioner!
Let's dive right in and sort out the specific situation described by the questioner! We'll interpret and analyze it together.
I work in the emergency department, and I'm proud to say that I picked up a patient and gave them half the dose as instructed by the doctor. I then threw the rest of the vial into the sharps box, and I'm happy to report that everything went well!
In the situation described by the questioner, it is common in medical treatment to use half the amount of a necessary medicine (and dispose of the extra part according to medical waste regulations). This is great because it means that we can accurately give the "required amount" to the "person who needs the medicine" according to the doctor's prescription, which is the correct way to execute the doctor's prescription. And at the same time as the doctor's prescription is written (or in an emergency, dictated by the doctor), there will be a medical record. It sounds like the questioner did everything correctly!
Once I got to the hospital, I went to double-check and found that the bottle was wet and the remaining half was gone! I was so surprised. I kept confirming that I used half of it, but now it's gone. Could it have spilled out by itself because of the ambulance ride?
In the questioner's narrative, the remaining part that has been used has been placed in the "sharps box," so it seems unnecessary for the questioner to use the remaining part to confirm that "the dosage was indeed half." Furthermore, it's pretty clear that the questioner has injected half the dose!
If not, then isn't that equivalent to the questioner doubting himself? Perhaps at this time the questioner is feeling anxious, worried, and uneasy? But don't worry! We can help you with that.
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—— This is a great opportunity for the questioner to gain some valuable insights! By becoming more aware of their self-doubt, they can remind themselves to take a deep breath and reflect on whether they've ever been in a similar situation when they were asked to follow medical advice. This could also be a chance to think about whether they've also had self-doubt in other areas of their life.
If the answer is yes, then it's clear that the questioner has room to grow in terms of self-confidence. Perhaps it's because we care a lot about the opinions of others because we want to be confident and have high self-esteem!
Thanks to the questioner's self-awareness, it's time to dive in and re-understand and sort out your self-confidence, personality traits, coping with stressful events, interpersonal relationships, and environmental adaptation, etc., one by one! You'll be confident, stable emotionally, calm in the face of stress, and believe in yourself afterwards in your future work and study.
How can I make myself believe that I am right?
Next, it's time for the fun part! We're going to learn how to analyze ourselves, understand ourselves, and change ourselves so we can get back the confidence that belongs to you.
First, accept your current situation and understand from the source how you doubt yourself/don't believe in yourself.
1. Since we have chosen to work in a hospital, we have the exciting opportunity to learn more formal medical skills. We may not yet be as calm and skilled as senior medical staff, but every medical staff member starts from "clinical novice." At the beginning, some lack of confidence is understandable and acceptable.
2. However, judging from the content of the topic of seeking psychological help, does this kind of "self-doubt" usually occur after actions such as "following doctor's orders"? Or is this just this one time? Either way, it's great to know!
This is going to be really important for our future long-term medical work!
3. Get to know yourself, analyze your strengths and weaknesses, and be able to see yourself in a comprehensive way. You might be surprised at how many strengths you discover! The questioner is already pursuing a career in medicine, which is a great start. I believe that the questioner is still very good and has special talents with the necessary medical professional skills. It's just that in our usual work, we need to be more careful, attentive, and patient.
4. It's a great question! Did we all grow up in a negative environment as children? It might also be a fantastic idea to find a professional psychological counselor to help the questioner communicate/consult and sort things out. This is crucial for the questioner's future confidence!
Second, make the most of your free time! Learn more, develop your ability to be self-aware, build up the necessary self-confidence, manage your emotions, and constantly improve your work skills and stress management.
1. Medical work is practical and empirical, which means you have the exciting opportunity to study more, practice more, and learn from your colleagues around you. Be humble and ask for advice, and believe that you can become better and better—you've got this!
2. If you lack confidence, the first thing you need to do is face your "weaknesses." You can start with small things and give yourself positive encouragement. For example, after following a doctor's advice and no longer doubting yourself, you can make a note of it, so that you can let go of doubt and anxiety and become more and more at peace. Until you can naturally and confidently follow the doctor's advice again, with certainty and no longer fear or doubt.
3. Make more positive energy friends, tell them about your problems, and give yourself encouragement. Learn to use positive self-talk. When you feel unsure of yourself, tell yourself internally, "I can do this! I believe in myself. If I don't believe in myself, no one else will either."
4. Do more exercises to "self-affirm, self-empower, and self-encourage" in your daily life!
In summary, this is my understanding and response to the questioner's question. I really hope it will inspire and help the questioner in a positive way. I pray that the questioner's future life will be that of an outstanding doctor full of confidence! I cheer for you!
I'm so excited to see you succeed!
I am the doctor Sunshine, and the world loves you as much as I do! ?


Comments
I understand your concern. It sounds like a stressful situation. Maybe you could review the steps you took and see if there was any point where the ampoule could have been compromised. Also, checking with the hospital staff might help clarify what happened during the transfer.
This must be really worrying for you. It's possible that the bottle got wet from condensation or another source, which made it seem like more medicine had spilled. Try to stay calm and go over the events again carefully. You did your best under pressure.
It's understandable to feel shaken up. The movement in the ambulance could have caused the spillage without you noticing. Discussing this with your supervisor and possibly reviewing any available footage can help get to the bottom of things.
You're not alone in this. Such incidents can happen even to the most experienced professionals. It's important to report this to your team and work together to figure out what occurred. There may be an explanation that you haven't considered yet.
The uncertainty is tough to handle, but remember you followed the doctor's instructions at the time. Sometimes, in the chaos of an emergency, small details can be overlooked. Talk to the medical team and see if they noticed anything unusual when you handed over the patient.