I feel that my pain is illogical. What exactly is the symptom?

Hello, my name is Jianlin, and I'm a psychological counselor. In the story that was shared, it was mentioned that two years ago, when I went to study abroad, I faced some challenges in adjusting to the new environment.

It is important to consider that there are a number of factors that can contribute to feelings of depression. After taking a year off from school, you were able to make a full recovery and maintain an optimistic and happy state of mind through a year of treatment.

This suggests that this treatment method may be beneficial for you. When you face studying in a different place again, in a new environment,

As you approach and prepare, you may find yourself experiencing a sense of vulnerability and apprehension once more. It's natural to feel a bit uneasy in these moments.

It would seem that the process we went through in the previous period may have caused us some psychological harm, despite the healing experience it offered us. However, when we encounter a similar situation again, the psychological shadow still exists.

It is therefore understandable that such situations occur and manifest in dreams, as well as psychological and emotional breakdowns. From a psychological perspective, this kind of manifestation is quite normal, given that such an environment has previously brought about an unpleasant process.

It is only natural for anyone, even someone without the illness, to feel a little apprehensive when faced with a new environment. It is therefore important to reassure yourself that such feelings are perfectly normal.

It seems reasonable to suggest that this psychological process is the only one that can completely heal and help you recover. When you go to a new environment, you encounter people who take care of you with enthusiasm.

Such a realistic scene may help to calm you down and gradually restore your mind to its original state of equilibrium. Could this be regarded as a process of complete recovery from our illness?

It might be helpful to remind yourself that this is the last and most effective treatment. It's natural to have a range of reactions, and it's important not to doubt these things excessively. It could be beneficial to set aside time each day to prepare, exercise, communicate with others, and avoid staying alone in your room.

It might be helpful to keep yourself busy during the day, even if it means feeling a little tired. This could help you sleep at night.

When you embark on a new journey and enjoy such a new process, I believe your heart will suddenly feel clear. Of course, as I said before, we are just normal people without such a shadow. Before going to a new environment, we will also feel uneasy, which is a very normal phenomenon. I'm sure you've gone through such a psychological process.

It might be helpful to remind yourself that these feelings are normal. It's possible that, because your previous psychological state has not fully recovered, you may find the process a little more sensitive and intense than usual.

I hope that the above analysis of your psychological and emotional changes and the impact of your new environment and fear will be of some help to you.

I appreciate your attention to this matter.

Dear, I would like to extend my support and encouragement through this digital medium.

I can appreciate the extent of the damage caused by the period of depression that you experienced between the end of your twenties and the beginning of this year. As a mother of a child who is still in school, I can also empathise with the pain of seeing a child go through such a challenging period. I am aware of the hard work you have put in.

I can sense the lasting impact of this challenging experience on your well-being. Despite the progress you have made in nearly a year of treatment, the return to studying abroad has brought back memories of past difficulties. This resurfacing of past experiences is affecting your current state of mind and reminding you of past pain. The improvement in your situation after taking a break from school to receive treatment was due to two factors: your removal from the environment that caused you distress and the support you received from family and friends. However, the deep-rooted hurt embedded in your memory has not been fully resolved.

I must advise you that your situation will be more complicated. If it is convenient, I suggest you make an appointment with a counselor for one-on-one counseling to obtain professional assistance.

I would like to reiterate my feelings of affection and support for you, as well as the global community's.

It is imperative that we all strive to be good.

Hello, I'm Teacher Yuxin. Your question shows you're self-aware, you're not ignoring or avoiding difficulties, and you're trying to understand yourself. I admire your courage.

From what you've said, it seems like you don't need a simple answer, but a more detailed analysis of the problem. The answer is actually in your question.

You've had some tough experiences over the past 20 years, including going away alone and being maliciously excluded.

After 21 years of medical treatment, a bipolar disorder diagnosis, and being suspended from school, going to a psychiatrist takes courage and is also taking responsibility for yourself. Usually, people muster this courage under a certain trigger. I don't know what yours was, but this trigger is helpful in assessing your current state.

It's important to know that you've been taking medication. I'm not sure if you've been taking it regularly and at the right dose as prescribed by your doctor. It looks like you've been taking it for about a year, but I don't know if you've been regularly checking in on your progress.

From what I know, psychotropic drugs have their own characteristics and should be taken under the guidance of a doctor. Understanding this can help you grasp how medication affects your emotions.

Right now, you're feeling stable, optimistic, and cheerful. I'm not sure if this "stable" applies to your overall life situation, your relationships with others, or your emotions. Once we figure out which of these is the case, we'll have a better understanding of the factors influencing your emotional changes.

Your psychological resilience has increased significantly. I'm not sure how you verified this, whether objectively or subjectively. It's also worth noting that when we feel good, we tend to amplify some of our own qualities.

Taking the time to sort this out can help you to assess your level of recovery more objectively and make decisions that are better suited to your current situation.

When you find out you have to go to a foreign place to study on your own, you suddenly feel depressed and start to feel the pain. This shows that the feelings you're having now haven't been properly dealt with and are still there in your heart.

Nightmares: Dreams are a way for us to release pent-up feelings. Dreams with too many strong emotions are also a reminder that you have a lot of emotions that have not yet been seen or accepted.

From what you've told me, I can see that you're dealing with a few different issues. If there's anything I've said that offended you, I apologize. I still think that you need a more objective and realistic perspective to help yourself at this time.

I think your current emotional breakdown is tied to your desire to be different from last year. You've made some efforts to create new facts that make you feel different, but when the same event occurred last year, you realized that part of yourself wasn't as "better" as you thought. This disappointment in yourself might be one of the reasons for the breakdown.

The good news is that the cure for bipolar disorder requires sufficient time and a thorough process. It's also important to remember that you didn't cause it alone. Letting go of your expectations and judgments of yourself is a kind thing to do.

We also suggest you start seeing a psychologist while you're on medication.

In the case of "always dreaming of being violated and tortured in a foreign land," and suddenly learning that you have to go to a foreign land to study alone, the "logical" next thought should be "being violated and tortured in a foreign land." And isn't that an exciting thought?

In such a fascinating situation where half-dream and half-reality are mixed together, and where the dream and the real situation can be "logically connected," it is easy for people to believe that "this is real" and that this is "what is going to happen next."

On top of that, you've had a previous experience of being maliciously excluded when someone went to study abroad. When you combine all of this, it's no wonder the questioner is feeling overwhelmed by depression and emotional collapse when thinking about going to study abroad soon!

You also know that being alone will make you feel freer, which is great!

"I feel that my suffering is illogical." This sentence makes me feel that the seemingly illogical suffering of "me" is unacceptable, that "me" has no reason to suffer, and that "me" should not feel pain.

Where did the questioner get this idea? It's fascinating to see how human perception generally precedes thinking, especially when it comes to one's own safety. This is an important reason why humans have survived to this day!

It's amazing how much more our bodies can perceive than our minds!

The pain that the questioner now feels may seem "illogical," but it's actually consistent with the logic that your body perceives!

From the dreamer's dream, you can feel how much harm and influence the past experience has had on the questioner. The good news is that the questioner can write down these "nightmares" and then add your coping methods and measures to protect yourself at the plot points you fear, so that you no longer fear them!

The great thing is, you don't have to make these methods and measures realistic or logical. You can let your own "unconventional" imagination run wild! Just make sure they can protect you. If this one doesn't work, you can always try another!

Before going to sleep at night, remind yourself that when you have these kinds of dreams again, it's time to get creative and protect yourself "in your dreams" with your own "weapons"!

I really hope my reply has been helpful! I'm so excited to hear that my advice was useful. Wishing you all the best!

Dear Question Owner,

The subject reports an increase in discomfort when negative emotions arise in response to the prospect of selecting a new educational environment.

This then causes the subject to become increasingly disoriented, with a lack of awareness of their surroundings. They begin to question their painful experiences, forming the opinion that

This is illogical, and you are experiencing a high degree of confusion and perplexity, are you not?

I am unaware of your age, your gender, and the nature of the difficulties you encountered between the ages of 20 and early 21.

Is that why you had to withdraw from your studies?

It is important to consider the possibility that your transition to higher education has triggered the reemergence of previously repressed traumatic experiences. The adage "once bitten by a snake, you fear the noose for ten years" offers a compelling metaphor for the potential long-term impact of such experiences. The pressure of pursuing higher education may, in fact, be a significant stressor, particularly given the heightened sensitivity and fragility of your emotional state.

Furthermore, for individuals diagnosed with bipolar disorder, there is a prevailing state of low mood and emotional lability. The administration of pharmacological agents can contribute to an overall sense of emotional stability.

Such episodes are to be expected and are therefore understandable.

Furthermore, feelings of panic and unease may be experienced.

What is the most effective method for disrupting this pattern?

First, it is essential to persist in the observation of this painful experience, maintaining a detached and objective stance, free from any form of evaluation or interpretation.

To achieve desensitization of the body, a gradual approach is recommended.

Secondly, it may be necessary to adjust one's perception and recognize that prior to the advent of a novel environment, the majority of individuals will exhibit this form of self-protection.

The experience is that some individuals are more susceptible to experiencing heightened levels of discomfort and distress.

Once more, it is important to gain an understanding of the underlying need that is causing the painful feelings and to consider the potential consequences of not meeting this need in a timely manner.

It is further recommended that the patient engage in discourse with their treating physician and explore the potential benefits of psychological counseling in alleviating the distress caused by this aspect of the condition.

The emotional distress associated with mood swings.

It is also recommended that those who have not previously engaged with psychological counseling or therapy consider doing so.

To assist you in navigating this challenging period in your life?

I am Dr. Yao, and I will continue to provide you with the support and care you require.

Dear, you've really put your feelings into words.

Causes of the event: At the end of the 20s and the beginning of the year, I went through a rough patch. I was feeling down and out, and it was all because I was maliciously excluded after going to study abroad alone for less than a week.

It can be really tough to go out alone, especially when you're in an unfamiliar environment.

It can be really tough when you're going through a rough patch and you don't have your loved ones and friends around you to lean on.

Oh, my dear, I know you've been through a lot. It's so hard when you're facing sudden events like being maliciously attacked and excluded.

Emotional experience: It's really tough! You're feeling the pain, and it's happening outside of you too.

It's totally normal to feel this way when you're going through something new. It's like having a bunch of different pressures all at once, and it's only natural to feel stressed when you're away from home for the first time. It's also totally normal to feel attacked when you're going through a rough patch. It's like you're feeling all these different things at once, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. You're not alone in this.

The Clinical Social Events Pressure Scale is a pretty intense stressor for all three items.

The result of the event was that I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the beginning of 21 and took a leave of absence from school for treatment.

It's so great that you're taking a break to return to your own family! It's always good to be with the relatives who support you, in a familiar environment, and emotionally away from the frustrating and painful environment at the time.

And you've been prescribed medication, right? So you say that you're currently feeling stable, optimistic, and cheerful, which is great to hear!

You've really come a long way! Your tolerance threshold has increased significantly.

Absolutely! This is a big change, and it's a period of growth.

And then there are dreams!

Your dreams are a window into your subconscious mind. In your dreams, you may feel as though you are being violated or tormented.

It's okay, it's just that you're repressing your emotions. In dreams, the subconscious expresses them for you.

It's totally normal to need a little time to recover after waking up.

Now you need to go away to study. I know it's tough, but you've got this! The bad experiences from the past are being reawakened, but you can handle it.

So you feel like you're not quite comfortable, and there's something pulling at you.

Of course, taking medicine is really helpful for our emotions! But we need to remember that taking medicine is with the help of an external force. Your inner strength is still a little weak, so when you need to face the experience of going to study abroad alone again, it can be a bit overwhelming.

Of course, taking medicine is helpful for our emotions, but it's important to remember that taking medicine is with the aid of an external auxiliary force. Your inner strength is still weak, and that's okay! When you need to face the experience of going to study abroad alone again, it's natural for this experience to come back.

How can I find some relief from this?

1. Let it all out! Release those emotions associated with the traumatic experience.

2. Give your former self the love and support it needs to build up your inner strength.

I'd love to know what behaviors and methods I can use to support and defend myself, and who can support and help me if I encounter a situation like this again.

I really think this would benefit from a good, in-depth one-on-one conversation. It might be a good idea to seek professional and systematic counseling.

I hope my answer can be of some help to you.

Perhaps it would be helpful to consider whether your suffering is logical. Has your treatment primarily been drug-based? Have you undergone cognitive restructuring?

Have you had the opportunity to engage in some form of emotional counseling and cognitive adjustment? While drug treatment is undoubtedly a valuable tool, it is also important to consider the role of psychological counseling in addressing emotional and psychological challenges. Our emotions and feelings, even those that may be hidden in our subconscious, can still manifest in our dreams. It is possible that you may still feel afraid and resistant on a subconscious level.

It might be helpful to consider some psychological counseling to assist in releasing feelings and emotions that have been suppressed. If possible, it could be beneficial to seek the guidance of a professional counselor who provides non-drug counseling. Additionally, it may be valuable to make some adjustments on your own.

If I might offer you a suggestion, it would be this:

Dreams can be a helpful tool for understanding your feelings, gaining self-awareness, and getting to know yourself better.

Even though you feel stable on the conscious level, you still have nightmares about being violated and tortured in a foreign place. After waking up, you need a moment to recover, which suggests that your subconscious mind still has some painful feelings about going to a foreign place. Dreams are a manifestation of the subconscious mind, and they can help us understand our deepest feelings.

It would be beneficial to approach these feelings in a way that allows us to acknowledge them without suppressing them. By doing so, we can gain a better understanding of our subconscious mind and work towards managing these emotions in a more constructive manner.

2. You might find it helpful to try the method of writing therapy to help you release your emotions and release the anger, grievances, and fears that are suppressed inside.

One possible method for processing your feelings is writing therapy. This involves writing down all your inner feelings and thoughts on paper. There is no need to worry about whether the handwriting is clear and neat, or about the logic of the content. The aim is to express your feelings as fully as possible.

Writing therapy is a form of expressive writing that can be beneficial for healing. This type of writing is introspective, focusing on the mind and emotions, with the aim of catharsis and expression. It differs from other forms of writing, such as literary works, plays, and novels, which tend to be more outward-focused.

Psychoanalytic theory suggests that the fundamental source of writing originates from the subconscious, which represents the most fundamental layer of the mind's structure. Consequently, expressive writing can be viewed as a method of making the subconscious conscious.

It may be said that writing has a healing effect.

In the process of writing, we often have the opportunity to experience our deeper emotions, express our deeper needs, reflect on our deeper understandings, and even elevate our deeper minds.

When we write, we have the option of not worrying about whether our writing is neat or logical. This method can help us learn to communicate with ourselves and listen to our inner needs and fears.

If we are to trust in life, we must first learn to trust ourselves. This means being honest with ourselves about what happened and how we feel about it.

When writing, it can be beneficial to open our hearts and minds to the process, faithfully recording what is happening in front of us, and expressing our hearts directly.

As mentioned in "Writing from the Heart," it's possible that if you've been writing for three months and you're still not satisfied with your work, it might be a sign that you've been avoiding certain topics or feelings for a longer period of time.

Perhaps if we were to stop avoiding the inner voices in our heads and dare to face our own vulnerability, we might find the courage to break through and grow, transforming into a better version of ourselves.

The concept of writing therapy is based on the idea that it doesn't necessarily teach you how to write beautifully, but rather encourages you to explore your inner self through writing. This can help you to develop a more positive outlook on life.

3. You might consider using positive self-suggestion.

It might be said that suggestion is one of the most common cognitive phenomena in our daily lives. It could be defined as a psychological phenomenon in which a person or environment sends a message to the body in a very natural way, which the individual unconsciously accepts and responds to accordingly.

It is important to note that there are two types of suggestion: self-suggestion and suggestion from others. In this context, we will focus on the role of self-suggestion.

The term "self-suggestion" describes the process by which an individual influences themselves by making a certain idea their own, exerting pressure on their own psychology, and making their emotions and will work.

For instance, some individuals may perceive their complexion in the mirror as less than ideal, leading them to immediately associate it with potential kidney disease, general weakness, back discomfort, and even inability to work. Conversely, other individuals may view their complexion in the mirror as less than optimal but choose to interpret it as an opportunity to increase their outdoor activities, incorporate more exercise, and embrace the fresh air around them. This shift in perspective often leads to a noticeable improvement in mood and motivation to go to work.

It may be helpful to consider that when we feel down or like we're about to collapse, it could be that negative thoughts have taken over our minds. At this point, we might like to try breaking our negative thought patterns, giving ourselves positive suggestions, and replacing our old, narrow-minded, negative thought patterns with positive ones. This could be a powerful technique.

We can suggest to ourselves that perhaps everything is for the best, even though we may not feel very good right now. We can try to maintain a happy mindset by loving and accepting ourselves, and by seeking and accepting love and support from others. If we believe in these things, we can find comfort in the knowledge that everything is fine. We can feel safe, protected, and happy wherever we are.

We can suggest to ourselves that perhaps everything is for the best, even though we may not feel very good right now. It might be helpful to remind ourselves that we love and accept ourselves, and that we can easily access love and support. Believing in this can help us feel safe, protected, and happy.

I hope these suggestions are helpful to you. Take some time to relax and know that things will get better with time. Wishing you the best!