As age grows, courage diminishes; what is wrong with me?

Greetings, question asker. Reading the words of another person is akin to meeting them in person.

From your description, it is evident that the words and actions of your primary school homeroom teacher caused you some trauma. Given your age at the time, it is understandable that you did not recognize the impact of the incident. The teacher's authority figure status may have contributed to your initial reluctance to resist. Consequently, you did not make any positive adjustments to your psychological state, which led to a change in your behavior patterns.

1. Adopt an objective stance with regard to past experiences and engage in a rational analysis of the underlying factors that influence your behavior.

In your case, the inappropriate behavior of your homeroom teacher, including belittling comments and corporal punishment, as well as requiring you to clean the boys' bathroom and other excessive tasks, can be considered acts of violence.

Consequently, if one were to retrospectively examine one's past from the present vantage point and acknowledge that at the time, a more rational and courageous approach could have been taken—such as seeking assistance from the educational institution or the public security authorities—it is plausible that the situation would have been significantly less distressing.

2. What are the reasons behind the persistence of painful experiences from childhood?

The human limbic system, which is responsible for regulating emotions, influences our ability to recall traumatic experiences more readily than positive ones. This is because our ancestors had to remain attuned to potential dangers in order to survive in a competitive natural environment where only the fittest could thrive. They needed to accurately perceive fear and anxiety and remember them in order to safely navigate life-threatening situations. Consequently, our DNA predisposes us to be sensitive to danger, and we cannot forget unpleasant things because we want to survive.

The majority of an individual's personality formation occurs during the period from birth to adulthood. Some painful experiences during this developmental stage can have a profound and enduring impact due to the influence of animal instincts.

It is therefore inaccurate to attribute the influence of negative emotions and a painful personality to personal fault. Rather, such factors are the result of numerous external influences that are beyond an individual's control. It is therefore unproductive to place the blame for such influences on the individual.

3. The act of pulling one's hair or plucking one's eyebrows can be classified as a form of self-harm.

Self-harm can provide a sense of pain and a feeling of being truly alive. It is possible that the motivation behind self-harm is to gain the care and attention of those around you.

In regard to this matter, it is evident that your self-harming behavior has resulted in a state of distress. It is unlikely that you desire this state of affairs. It may be more accurate to suggest that you seek to trade this pain for care. Therefore, it would be beneficial to express this desire in a clear and assertive manner.

Such an approach would facilitate comprehension of one's thoughts by the other party.

If we can express this intuitively, or when we are unhappy and unsure of how to proceed, we can also describe our situation. I believe this will have a significant mitigating effect on your self-harming behavior.

4. With advancing age, there is a noticeable increase in timidity.

This is a consequence of a lack of specific training and established habits, given that since childhood, there has been a consistent avoidance of individuals who may cause harm, and an underlying fear of being victimized.

As a result, you are accustomed to solitude and seclusion. Consequently, engaging with the external world may prove challenging, and you may exhibit a high level of timidity due to uncertainty about the potential dangers posed by the outside world.

Therefore, a gradual process is necessary. It is acceptable to be timid. It is presumed that there are individuals in the subject's immediate vicinity who care about the subject and who are sincere in their affections.

It would be beneficial to attempt to establish trust within the group, and to utilise mature judgement in order to ascertain whether the other party is potentially harmful. With regards to the incident involving the former homeroom teacher, it would be helpful to ascertain whether this event has been reinterpreted from a more positive perspective.

Have you come to recognize the harm that was done to you by that individual? It is important to note that living in fear is not a desirable state of being.

If one wishes to achieve a state of spiritual awakening, it is essential to possess a robust capacity for discernment and critical thinking.

Furthermore, if one is concerned that their judgment is constrained, there are methods to enhance one's knowledge and experience. One can do so by learning something new on a daily basis and reading books that are pertinent to the subject matter. Additionally, one can strive to ascertain whether a situation is risky or safe.

Hello, question owner, I haven't been answering questions on Yi Xinli for a while. I came to the Q&A Hall today to have a look, and I saw that your question has already been answered by several people. After reading through the content, I know that your question will continue to affect you.

Most of the theoretical knowledge is clearly explained by several people. After reading your account, I think it was the malicious treatment by the elementary school teacher that left psychological trauma, a shadow that has always accompanied you and occasionally comes out of your dreams. If the trauma from your childhood is not dealt with at the time, it will really follow you throughout life and affect every aspect. You're an adult now and have the ability to test reality, but you know that you were unable to resist at the time. But the situation is not that simple. Being deliberately punished by the homeroom teacher will definitely lead to exclusion and isolation by your classmates. People tend to avoid harm and seek benefits, so you are afraid of socializing, have a sense of meaninglessness, etc.

I'm sure you're wondering where the parents were when these things happened to the child as a primary school student. This may also be a kind of hidden pain; a child bears the pain and suffering alone, and the sense of helplessness that they must grit their teeth and persevere has also brought you to where you are today. You are remarkable.

Self-harm can help you cope with psychological pain, but it won't solve the underlying issues. I suggest you speak to a professional counsellor to get some guidance.

Hello, question asker! After reading your description, I feel a range of emotions, including distress and anger. I am distressed by the challenges you faced growing up, and I am angry at the elementary school teacher who bullied you. This elementary school teacher's actions were unprofessional and unacceptable.

I admire your resilience in persisting under such a challenging teacher for six years. I also commend your remarkable learning ability and determination. Despite the obstacles you've faced, you've excelled in various competitions across the city, showcasing your remarkable strengths. You are truly a remarkable child!

You have expressed feelings of distress regarding your social skills, a reluctance to engage with others, a tendency to self-doubt and self-deprecation, and a sense of self-denial. You have also shared feelings of inadequacy and a sense of being a mistake.

I empathize with you, and I feel sorry for you. You are a hidden gem, buried deep in the soil, and you may not even realize your own radiance.

If I may make a suggestion, let us work together on this platform to uncover this piece of gold, polish it clean, and see its preciousness—the preciousness of your soul.

I'll venture a guess:

You are an introverted and sensitive person who may not be as comfortable expressing and confiding in others as you would like. You enjoy taking time to reflect and process things on your own, as evidenced by your ability to tolerate Teacher Zha for six years. It's possible that you may have chosen to handle things internally and bear them yourself at that time.

You enjoy having time to yourself, and you appreciate a quiet, peaceful environment. However, you may find that a noisy external environment is overwhelming for you. You may also feel intimidated by complex interpersonal relationships.

This may result in others labeling you as "aloof and arrogant, and socially inept." You may also feel inferior because of this, and your inferiority complex may prevent you from fully engaging in social interactions. You may feel that you are worthless, and the more you are afraid to engage with the outside world, the more you may find yourself in a vicious cycle.

You are not unable to enjoy being alone; you just may be hesitant to do so because of external opinions that may suggest being alone is not ideal. This can lead to a cycle of self-blame and anxiety, and in some cases, the compulsive habit of pulling your hair. This action can serve as a reminder that you are not just sitting idle, but rather, a tangible being with the capacity to feel pain. It can be a way to protest and declare to the world that you are not a meaningless, ethereal existence.

In this world, extroverts and sociable people are more popular because people have not yet realized the uniqueness of introverts and highly sensitive people. They actually have unique advantages that ordinary people cannot perceive, as well as a unique way of life. This is where their strengths lie.

Introverts are naturally sensitive, so they tend to respond to external stimuli more strongly than most people. As a result, they may find that a lot of idle chatter can cause them stress. This is why they often prefer to be left alone, not because they are arrogant and aloof, but because they find it difficult to bear.

Due to this characteristic, they also have the potential to bring advantages to others, such as concentration and sharp thinking. While they may not be as adept at multitasking, they can often become experts in a certain field more easily because they focus on their favorite tasks. For instance, you may enjoy physics because you are meticulous and focused, and it may be easier for you to experience the pleasure of flow and achieve better results when you study in a quiet environment.

Introverts may not be as adept at socializing or conversation as some of their more extroverted counterparts. However, they possess a keen sensitivity and an admirable capacity for active listening and empathizing. They may occasionally appear to be slightly behind the pace of others in conversation, but in reality, they are engaged in attentive listening, thoughtful reflection, and profound analysis of what is being said. This allows them to develop high-quality social relationships with remarkable ease. Once they encounter individuals who recognize and appreciate this unique quality, they will undoubtedly gravitate towards those who listen attentively, as such individuals are often rare and highly sought-after in the fast-paced modern world.

When you see the "light" in introverts, that light will shine into your heart and give you strength. It might be helpful to consider that seeing the light in yourself could be a valuable first step.

We would like to offer some suggestions for our introverted golden children:

It would be beneficial to continue exploring your strengths in in-depth thinking, concentration, calmness, and introspection, and consider devoting them to the work, studies, and things you love. Practicing consciously and deliberately, day after day, could potentially lead to becoming an expert in a certain field.

It would be beneficial to continue exploring your strengths in listening and being sensitive, and to go out bravely. Even if you don't speak or say much, you can quietly observe from the sidelines to see which people might be the ones who understand you. There's no need to rush. In the vast crowd, you will always meet someone who sees your light. Even if you can't meet someone for a while, you will enjoy your time alone more than others. Being alone is a positive experience, and there's no harm in it, so it's something you can enjoy.

You don't need to prove your existence by pulling your hair. You are you, a unique and special person.

It may be helpful to consider limiting unnecessary social interactions and stimulation. Creating a quiet and orderly environment for yourself, embracing minimalism in terms of clothing, food, housing, and transportation, and reducing the challenges and anxiety caused by unnecessary stimulation could also be beneficial.

It may be helpful to consider refusing unnecessary work and tasks, rejecting worthless busywork, and focusing on the big things.

If you feel nervous in public, you might consider preparing your speech in advance and writing it down on paper or a small note. This could help to ease your anxiety during the process of inputting and outputting ideas, and it might also serve as a prompt on the spot, similar to your own "treasure bag."

It would be beneficial to be a good listener. If the other person is suitable for in-depth conversation and both parties are willing, you can talk in depth and go into some details. This will make both parties feel happy. While superficial conversations may seem relaxed, they can also bring pressure because you may feel inside, "This is meaningless." Over time, you may lose the internal driving force to talk.

If you find yourself mentally and physically exhausted during a conversation, you might consider keeping your sentences short. This could help you feel more in control and give you the flexibility to either continue or take a break. You could also gently let the other person know how you're feeling. For instance, you might say, "I'm feeling a bit tired and could use a break, but I'd love to continue the conversation later."

People who understand you will naturally understand, and there's no need to forcefully retain people who don't understand you.

If I may make one more suggestion, I believe you may find these books enjoyable and refreshing for the mind and body: "High Sensitivity Is a Gift," "The Advantages of Introversion: The Hidden Competitiveness of Introverts," and "The Courage to Be Disliked."

May you find the light within yourself, live your own life, and walk your own path. Wishing you the best!

Hello.

I'm honored to be invited and I'm here to give you advice.

From your written description, it is clear that the school violence you experienced after refusing to go to your homeroom teacher for extra lessons has had a significant impact on you. It is evident that these events still affect you today, even manifesting in your dreams.

Let me be clear: your past experiences were caused by your homeroom teacher's inappropriate behavior. His belittling and corporal punishment, as well as making you clean the men's bathroom and other excessive acts, were all acts of violence.

You must look at your past from the present perspective. You should have sought help from the school or public security authorities at the time. This would have greatly alleviated your situation.

However, you were young, and your homeroom teacher was your role model. He was authoritative, and you had no right to disagree. You accepted the harm he caused you unconditionally. He had a great influence on you.

The past is the past. There's no going back and changing it. Right now, we're looking at the past from today's perspective, healing ourselves, accepting the past, and letting it go. That way, every time you dream of such a bad thing, the situation can be alleviated.

You said that because of this past experience, you now dream about the horrible details and are afraid of connecting with the outside world and often engage in self-harm.

You believe that the pain you experience when you harm yourself validates your existence and proves you have feelings. This stems from your previous class teacher's disregard and disrespect, which triggered this behavior in you today.

You need to start interacting with people again. First, you should talk to your family. Then, you can start talking to relatives. If classmates or friends reach out to you, you should respond.

The second aspect is your self-harm. Self-harm makes you feel pain and makes you feel that you are truly alive. You also hope that self-harm will get the care and attention of the people around you.

First, let's acknowledge that your self-harm has caused you pain. You don't want that. You want attention, so let's be clear about that.

This would make it easier for the other person to understand what we are thinking.

Expressing this intuitively or describing our situation when we are unhappy and don't know what to do will relieve your self-harming behavior.

As you get older, you're becoming more timid. This is because you lack certain experiences and habits. Since you were young, you've avoided people who hurt you and been afraid that others will hurt you.

You're used to being alone and hiding in your own little world. This makes it difficult for you to interact with the outside world, and you're timid because you don't know if the outside world is dangerous.

From my perspective, if what I said is true, we need a gradual process. It's okay to be timid. I know there are people around you who care about you and that they mean it from the bottom of their hearts.

We can trust each other and use our judgment to determine whether someone is harmful to us. You need to define what happened with your former homeroom teacher.

You must realize the extent of the harm caused by the other person. You don't want to live in fear.

If you want to rise and awaken, you must believe in your strong judgment.

If you think your judgment is limited, you can improve your experience and knowledge through daily learning and reading relevant books. You can also help yourself judge whether something is risky or safe.

I believe that when I was a child, I may have grown up in an environment that was somewhat out of control because we had limited abilities at the time. Now that you have gradually grown up, you have your own thoughts and you have the ability to learn. At the same time, you are worthy of respect as an independent individual, and I know you have always respected others.

You are the master of your own life. You can plan your life entirely on your own.

I am certain that after careful consideration, you will re-plan your own life and live your own happy life.

I wish you the best.

Hello, I can tell from your words that you're afraid of the outside world and have a low opinion of yourself. I can also tell that you've been through a particularly difficult, painful, and even desperate time. I won't describe it in detail, but I'll tell you my point of view. I hope my answer will be helpful to you.

You mentioned that you were treated badly by your homeroom teacher and that your teacher said you were unsociable in first grade. Why do you think you feel like you're flawed? When you were young, parents and teachers represented authority. As a young child, you placed a lot of value on your teachers and parents and trusted them.

Given how much you trust your teacher, you now believe that their evaluation is correct. In other words, your teacher is criticizing you as a whole without considering the specifics.

But you've learned to be self-aware and realize that your teacher's criticism isn't always correct.

What are your thoughts on the harm done to you by your teachers? As Tong Hua said, "Children's world is small, so all the little things are big."

It's important to allow yourself to feel angry and sad about the difficulties and hurt you experienced as a child.

Take a look at yourself from a developmental perspective. Every child deserves to be treated gently, and you should believe that you can slowly overcome the past hurt. Attribute things correctly, that is, attribute things to yourself and to others. What the teacher said isn't scientifically authoritative. You have your own way of thinking and patterns from growing up to now. You also mentioned the teacher because you were treated like this for not going to his home for tutoring.

It's important to take the teacher's comments in context.

Why do you become more and more timid as you get older? It's the same with emotions. If you don't release them in the right way, they'll only get worse with age.

It's like the water in a glass: you don't realize it's full until it is. Then, over time, it overflows. You need to become aware of yourself, give yourself comfort, and solve this problem.

How can I be more self-aware and self-soothing? From birth to death, other people are just passers-by. No one can always be by our side, so we have to be able to be by ourselves.

The most important thing is to be able to support yourself, so you should try to create your own inner parent and inner child. That is, to soothe your inner pain through self-care.

Wishing you the best!

I just wanted to say that I love you, the world, and I'm here for you.

Dear question asker,

I have carefully considered your question and would like to begin by offering you encouragement.

It is evident that the words and actions of one's primary school teacher had a traumatic effect on the individual in question. Given that the individual was young at the time and was therefore unable to perceive that they had been hurt, they did not make any positive adjustments to their psychological state, which subsequently affected their behavior patterns.

The following section will present a series of feelings and suggestions in response to a number of current psychological situations.

Firstly, it is essential to gain an objective understanding of the underlying reasons for the existence of psychological barriers.

Everything is governed by a single principle: there is a reason for everything.

One's disposition toward socialization is not innate; rather, it is shaped by one's experiences and interactions throughout the lifespan. Negative emotional states, such as self-identity errors, self-negation, and fear of being rejected by others, can emerge as a result of these experiences and contribute to a diminished sense of self-worth and psychological well-being. Additionally, these emotional states can trigger a stress response in the body.

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The persistence of painful experiences from childhood can be attributed to the fact that humans are born with the capacity to forget positive experiences rapidly, whereas traumatic and distressing events are more deeply encoded in the mind. This phenomenon can be explained by the influence of the animalistic component of the limbic system on cognitive processes. Our ancestors were compelled to remain alert to potential dangers in order to survive in the competitive environment of nature. They needed to be able to accurately perceive fear and anxiety and to retain this information in order to navigate existential crises safely. Consequently, humans possess a genetic predisposition to respond to danger and to retain memories of traumatic experiences, which are crucial for survival.

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The majority of an individual's personality formation after the age of adulthood can be traced back to their formative years, specifically the period of birth and childhood. It is not uncommon for painful experiences encountered during this developmental stage to have a profound and long-lasting impact on an individual due to the influence of animal instincts.

It is therefore inaccurate to attribute the influence of negative emotions and a painful personality to personal fault. Rather, such influences stem from a multitude of factors beyond an individual's control. It is therefore misguided to blame oneself for an inability to control these influences.

Secondly, it is imperative to cultivate an understanding and forgiveness of oneself.

In order to gain a sense of control over one's words, actions, and emotions, it is first necessary to learn to understand and forgive oneself.

I comprehend the rationale behind your assertion of a lack of self-identity. The human brain is not inherently equipped with the capacity to self-identify; rather, it is shaped by external influences. The process of developing a sense of self is largely shaped by the observation of how others evaluate and interact with us. This phenomenon is termed "mirroring" in the field of social science.

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In consequence, the manner in which others appraise us shapes our perception. The evaluation of the homeroom teacher exerts a particularly potent influence, given the strength of the negative signal conveyed.

However, other people's comments are incomplete, inaccurate, and may even be false. Nevertheless, we have formed deep-seated beliefs that are difficult to alter, and these situations are beyond our control.

It is challenging to remain unaffected by such a significant negative evaluation. Attempting to simply suppress the effect may, in fact, have the opposite result. Therefore, it is essential to develop a capacity to justify one's emotional and affective states, which may be conceptualized as "excuses." Additionally, it is crucial to refrain from making unsubstantiated self-assessments, such as "I am useless" or "It is my fault."

The rationale behind this is the irresponsible evaluation of the homeroom teacher.

In conclusion, it is advisable to focus on enhancing one's resilience.

Once the cause has been identified, the next step is to implement a change.

The trauma has already occurred, which is an unchangeable fact. However, this does not preclude the possibility of healing. It is recommended that you cultivate the habit of engaging in emotional control exercises, exercise your ability to resist pressure and recover when encountering difficulties or painful points, and improve your ability to "let go of emotions."

One may attempt the mirror exercise, which is conducted as follows: The individual should stand in front of a mirror, observing their entire body.

Adopt a kind, friendly, and concerned attitude towards the individual reflected in the mirror. Offer the individual in the mirror a compliment. It is possible to express praise in a number of ways, for example, by commenting on a particular aspect of the individual's appearance, their personality, or their achievements. It is also beneficial to engage in positive thinking, and if a negative thought arises, it is helpful to identify and adopt a positive thought to counter it.

It is important to be fair to one's strengths and weaknesses. One should accept oneself as one is, just as one accepts the people one loves. It is beneficial to feel these feelings and thoughts and to keep them in one's heart for a long time. It is helpful to activate them when one feels self-doubt, so that the vulnerable part of oneself does not gain the upper hand.

In conclusion, it can be stated that individuals are born with an inherent tendency towards self-realization. Once obstacles are removed, they will naturally develop into mature individuals who have fully realized themselves, analogous to the growth of an acorn into an oak tree. However, it is important to note that psychological obstacles are the result of accumulated experiences over many years, and it is not feasible to eradicate the accumulated "dust" that has formed over decades.

The process of removing obstacles is inherently time-consuming. It is essential to instill confidence in oneself, proceed at a measured pace, and adopt a mindset of acceptance, recognizing that psychological challenges are a common phenomenon. Many individuals only become aware of their psychological trauma after reaching adulthood. This underscores the importance of understanding that one is not alone in the journey towards self-realization.

I am Cici Ai Cheng, an individual who overcame psychological challenges through the application of psychological principles. It is my hope that my experiences can provide some assistance to others facing similar difficulties.

I am Cici Ai Cheng, an individual who overcame psychological challenges through the application of psychological principles. It is my hope that my sharing will provide you with some assistance.

Question Owner:

Hello (^_^)/! I'm honored to have met you on the Yi Xinli platform. Meeting is

It's just how things are.

Take a look at what you wrote. I think when you wrote this text,

When you think about your past experiences, it's natural to feel a bit down and confused. You might be wondering why you're not as courageous as you once were, but there's no need to worry.

It's natural to feel confused about becoming less courageous as you get older. It's not always easy to understand why these things happen.

I can definitely tell you that the smaller your courage as you get older is not your problem.

I can definitely tell you that your lack of courage as you get older isn't your problem.

The issue is that not every problem is your fault.

When you come across something, you need to learn to put it in the right context.

Attribution is the process of figuring out why people do what they do.

Inference and explanation.

Correct attribution is the right way to approach things when you're faced with new information. It's important to take an objective stance and analyze the causes.

You can't make subjective judgments, get into a bad mood, or drain your emotions. As you yourself

I often question whether there's something wrong with me (i.e., false attribution).

This caused them to feel excessive mental pressure. They didn't have a place to vent, so they engaged in self-abusive behavior.

Pulling one's hair is a way of making oneself feel relaxed.

His behavior shows how he's feeling. After being hurt by the teacher, he was really angry.

Pulling out hair is a way of expressing repressed anger.

Anger is about things that weren't handled properly at the time.

If you don't get your anger out in time, it can turn into something more psychological.

External manifestations of aggression aren't just about hair-pulling. They can also include alcohol abuse.

Like slapping yourself or cutting your arm.

Remember what American psychologist Jacques Hillard said: "Anger is

It's a kind of unpleasant reaction within oneself that's caused by a feeling of injustice and unacceptable frustration.

Emotions aren't good or bad. Anger is the desire for fairness and justice.

If you need to, you can use your anger to protect your rights.

If you don't get what you deserve and you don't get treated fairly,

And it just burns itself out. Suppressing anger doesn't protect your interests, it just makes you feel more powerless.

Hiding your anger doesn't help you, it just makes you feel worse.

It's important to learn to vent your anger in a reasonable way.

☪️☪️☪️ Have a conversation with yourself in the mirror.

If you've lost touch with a former teacher and can't get in touch with them to talk things through

You can say to the mirror, "I'm angry because..."

"My teacher's behavior caused me mental damage." You can state the events of that year in the mirror. Just remember to say it to an empty mirror, which is basically the same as talking to no one.

If you're dealing with something from years ago, it's a good idea to talk to yourself in the mirror when no one is around. This is basically the same as...

It's a good idea to talk things through with yourself. It'll help you feel better.

☪️☪️☪️A safe way to release your anger

A safe way is a way that doesn't harm yourself or others, like tearing paper.

You could even throw things like soft toys, dolls, or pillows, for example, or set up your own.

Just draw a circle on a piece of paper and design a dart to shoot into it to help you calm down.

Another thing that can help relieve anger is shouting the words "I hate him" in an empty place.

It's also helpful.

I suggest reading the book Rebuilding Your Life.

As you grow up, you'll still act out the same things you did at school, and they'll still be bad for you.

It also shows that the psychological anger and grievances from that year weren't resolved in a reasonable way, so they were

They stay in your subconscious as you grow up, and cause problems when they aren't resolved.

If you don't deal with these issues, they'll show up in your dreams.

It's the root cause of nightmares.

So, the most important thing to remember is

Let your mind relax.

1) Look for someone you can trust to talk to about your problems.

2) Why not take a short trip to embrace nature and relax?

3) Get to know your shadow self by keeping a diary to understand your true inner feelings.

It's important to communicate and understand your true inner feelings.

I don't worry too much about what other people think.

People's thoughts are subjective, not objective.

Nobody in this world has all the answers, including me.

Just a heads-up, my thoughts are just for your reference, and what your teacher says is not necessarily the final word.

That's right. He's labeling you, but that's his business, not yours.

It means saying no to following the crowd, saying no to labeling yourself, and learning to

Love yourself. Appreciate who you are. And don't get caught up in other people's thoughts.

And don't be afraid to think for yourself.

I suggest reading the book The Courage to Be Disliked and taking responsibility.

Don't let other people's opinions or expectations define you.

Take care of yourself.

Your shyness is tied to the trauma you've experienced, so it's important to learn to care for your own emotional well-being.

Your wounded heart

Due to time constraints, I'll have to leave it there for now. I hope you find a way out of this soon.

And depression.